PICK A CARD: something you are looking for that does not need to be found (honest)
Hello and welcome to this new post of mine, in here I will give you a reading on what you are looking for that does not need to be found. I hope you are excited and this will resonate with you.
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Pile 1:
You are looking for love, well, that is what you think at least. You do not crave love in and of itself, you crave recognition and attention. You want to be appreciated, to be liked and to feel worthy of life. There are moments in which you feel incredibly alone, as if there is no one you can lean on and this entire life has to be worked on all on your own. You’ve convinced yourself that no one is there to support you, that no one will support you, and that this is simply how life is. In your mind, love, or a lover so to speak, is the one who can make you feel less alone. The only one who can fill in the emptiness that you so often feel, the only way of truly getting authentic and real support. But this is completely false. Partners aren’t meant to be there only so you can get through life, partners are there for you to have a nice add-on to your already existing life. You’re looking for a love that can be found in everyone of your social circle, that can be found in the most random person on the street. You need attention and love, but not in a romantic sense, in friendship. And most of you, no, all of you, have this. You have this support and this love right there available to you, for some reason you just believe that it is not available to you, that others ‘don’t want to help you in such ways’. But they do, you’ve just never opened up enough to establish such a relationship.
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Pile 2:
You are completely consumed by the idea of the perfect outcome like it’s this shiny, flawless thing that you have to win before you are allowed to stop working forever. You spend hours and hours tiredlessly tweaking that single presentation slide or rewriting that specific paragraph, checking every word like it’s the most crucial test you’ll ever take, all to figure out how to make it completely perfect and flawless. You continue on for that one perfect draft, that one perfect product launch, that one perfect response, anything you can think of because only then will it finally be good enough to show anyone. You think perfection is like this constant, massive barrier of absolute quality that should never ever be lowered even a little bit. And because you’re waiting for the perfect moment to actually finish the thing, you spend all your time procrastinating and researching the best way to start it over again, which is something impossible to keep up. You believe that if you just follow the right steps you’ll unlock this perfect result and then no one will ever criticise you again. But the thing is, your whole life is being lived right now while you're agonising over a tiny detail that absolutely no one else will ever notice. And because you’re so focused on the future of this amazing result you totally miss the simple, small and good feeling of actually creating something, of just moving forward. You’re too busy reading the manual that you forget to play the game, whilst the game can actually be really fun when you’re not constantly trying to break the high score on the first try.
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Pile 3:
You are totally obsessed with the idea of utter and complete happiness as if it’s some kind of golden treasure you have to find somewhere. Some of you read books, follow certain influencer gurus, watch those vague videos, all to figure out how to be completely happy without ever having something that holds you back and makes you sad or stressed. You wait for that one moment; that one promotion, that one house, that one holiday, because only then, when that particular thing happens, you will finally be happy. You think happiness is like this constant massive wave of pure joy that should never ever stop. And because you’re waiting for the wave to hit you, you spend all your time scrolling and researching the 'best' way to get it not genuinely enjoying and loving the current moment of life. You believe that if you just follow the right steps you’ll unlock this perfect peace and then all your problems will just disappear, but that is false. That’s not possible and if you think it happens to other people that’s just a plain wrong perception of life, they fake it in hopes of making it. Because you’re so focused on this future, amazing feeling of total happiness, you completelt miss the simple, small and good feelings you have right now. You’re so busy looking for this one unachievable thing that you don’t notice it the times you do have it.
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How will you meet?
the fool, three of wands, the hanged man (rev), the hermit, the devil
You're moving on--- somebody had you addicted to their toxicity and you finally took that much needed moment to find peace in solitude. This last relationship, situationship, talking stage took a lot of effort from you to change your perspective and recognize how damaging that person was for you--- but now that you're free, you are ready to start fresh. You'll meet this person once you're open to embrace change, move on from the past, and take a leap of faith into something new.
Who are they?
five of swords (rev), knight of pentacles, ten of pentacles (rev), justice (rev), temperance
Woah, ok. This person is a STRONG fighter for what they believe in. Someone that will always stick up for the underdog loud and proud. When they recognize an injustice, they are always the one that's there to restore peace and balance the opposing forces. I see them participating in peaceful protests, possibly becoming or is a lawyer, but ultimately working to establish unity and fair treatment for their community. They are a VERY hard worker too. Not a lazy bone in this person's body, because they understand that the only way to achieve justice is with consistency and purposeful action. Although, they believe in what they advocate for, they may fall into periods of pessimism and struggle with seeing their long term goals come to fruition.
What will the relationship be like?
king of swords (rev), the sun, the chariot (rev), the emperor, four of pentacles (rev)
This will be a slow burn, but only because this is a very special connection and the both of you aren't meant to rush it. Initially you may be a bit reserved. They are like the sun, a ball of positive and bright energy, while you are the moon, a bit more on the calm, serious side, so at first, you may feel a bit intimidated by them. Not to say that you aren't attracted to them in the beginning, but you are hesitant to being with someone knew. In the past, your partner(s) may have been controlling and judgmental, so since then you have developed trust issues and an overall avoidance of romance-- until them. You fear messing anything up with this person because you really really like them. It'll take them some time but once you feel comfortable opening up to them and the two of you have grown your connection as a friendship, you will feel ready to take things further. When you guys finally do establish a romantic relationship, it will be an incredibly healing one-- for your partner and yourself. You will give them the tranquility and peace they need to calm the chaos in their life and they will spice up yours with the exciting adventures they take you on.
Advice
two of pentacles, three of cups (rev), page of wands (rev), the star (rev), four of swords (rev)
I understand that you want to establish a close bond before you start dating, but make sure you're not pushing them into the friendzone too much, make sure they understand your intentions to date them and that you are interested, but that you will need to take your time in the beginning. Once you are actually in the relationship, it is very important that you balance the amount of love and time you give to this person with the amount that you give to yourself. I know the both of you will be content in this connection and will pour love into one another, but please make you are taking care of yourself too!
Pile 2
How will you meet?
eight of wands, 4 of wands, knight of swords (rev), two of wands, queen of pentacles, the empress
Music plays faintly in the back round, the sounds of chatter decorate the room, and you lock eyes with a new face. "I need to talk to them," you think--- but they don't slow down. They run around the room, laughing and conversing with everyone, while you sit and watch enamored with their aura. But you don't worry, because you are confident that they'll be yours very soon; so for now you don't chase after them as they go from person to person, instead you sit in your throne and wait for them to come to you.
Who are they?
king of cups, the tower, eight of wands, page of pentacles (rev), three of pentacles (rev)
Oh no, this person has definitely gone through some tough and life-altering moments :'( I am unsure if this person is a man or has just created a rough, masculine exterior to protect themselves, but they have had quite the tumultuous life. Perhaps, they grew up in a fast paced, unpredictable environment that created a lack of routine or sense of steadiness in their lives. This may have caused them to become independent and closed-off, and created an overall struggle with staying on task and working with others in their daily life. To be in a relationship with you, they must expose their soft interior to you. Although most of their life was filled with hardship, they are still that innocent child they once were underneath it all. Being with you will be healing and transformative for them. You will be the one to provide stability and comfort for their damaged minds.
What will the relationship be like?
ten of swords, ten of pentacles (rev), justice (rev), two of swords (rev), eight of cups
Ok Pile 2, this may have been a difficult relationship to begin in the first place. The question above did affirm to us that your partner is going to be someone that is not the most emotionally available initially. I'm definitely seeing a cool but kinda toxic gothic couple in the two of you. This relationship will make you feel exposed, like this person has crawled under your skin and explored the depths of you. The sexual energy will be quite intense. Although this may be something deep and vulnerable, it doesn't appear as something long lasting. One of you will really want to build a foundation for the future, but it's never strong enough to hold the two of you. There is an imbalance in this relationship and you may have to be the one to make the difficult decision to walk away from it, even if it's not an entirely mutual decision. One of you may be a lot more emotionally and financially stable, and that person will feel like they give much more of themselves to the other than they receive in return.
Advice
knight of swords, knight of wands (rev), ten of cups (rev), nine of cups, three of cups (rev)
Your partner may want to move fast. Overall, they have an intense and passionate attitude when it comes to romance. The type to want to have baby name conversations two weeks in lol. Even if you feel completely enamored with this other person, I need you to remember not to neglect the other important facets of you life. This connection has the potential to completely consume you. Family and friends could fall below on your priority list, and you may find yourself putting your partner first always, no matter how fresh the relationship is. But its ok, I totally understand this is not your intention, this person can become quite controlling and prone to jealousy, so I can see how they can make you feel like you have no other choice but to do this. Ultimately, you can end this relationship because the other person alone will never make you feel fulfilled. You need those connections you felt pressured to abandon to keep you alive.
Pile 3
How will you meet?
temperance, eight of wands, the world, the lovers, queen of pentacles (rev), page of swords
A breath of fresh air flows through you when you lock eyes for the first time. On this day, you'll decide to go out and take a break. Life feels like pure chaos, you think spending some time with the Earth could help you feel grounded. Perhaps, you go to a garden, a park, a field of flowers-- and there they are. This meeting will feel divine, meant to be. You may not understand it at first, but there is something in the back of your mind telling you that this person is special. The universe knew what it was doing when it put the two of you in the same place at the same time. The best part of it all is that they feel it too. I can see them coming up to you to "ask for directions" or to make a comment about the scenery. They want to scope you out, and in that will try to get through your mind. Wit and curiosity decorate the first conversation. Any feeling of being drained you may have had before has been diminished by the mental stimulation that comes from this moment. The attraction is instant but patience is important with this person. This is the type of love that you take your time with.
Who are they?
six of swords, ace of pentacles (rev), six of wands (rev), five of cups (rev), eight of pentacles, the fool
Ambitious, full of childlike wonder, humble, and a creative. Although they may struggle to stick to the same project, they work hard at perfecting every single one. You may be very fond of your partner's art, but they struggle to see that themselves. Their work keeps them stable and it allows them to have fun while expressing who they truly are, and due to that, it feels too personal for them to share it with strangers. Ouu and they want to take you out! This is someone who wants to explore the world with their partner. Every single day they think about the moment when they will be able to take you away with them. Travelling and exploration is immensely important to them, and that's exactly why they want to spend those moments with you.
What will the relationship be like?
king of cups, the chariot, strength, five of pentacles, the fool
Ahh you guys will love growing old together. I know you two will still be silly with each other in all grey. I love this relationship so much for you Pile 3! Because of how special this connection will be to you both, this will be something that will be taken slowly--- but this isn't out of fear, its out of necessity. This bond strengthens with time, and you guys know that, that's why taking things slow doesn't create any sense of hesitance in either of you. You both lead with your head--- you don't get too caught up in the lovey dovey stuff (that part of your relationship will be initiated by your partner hehe) -- and you both know that building a future with the other is most important. Before the start of your relationship, the both of you may have felt like you were stuck in a rut, but once you two are together, everything changes. Your vision of the future becomes much clearer. Maybe you get a new job that you absolutely love, or you discover a hobby that eases all of your anxieties--- whatever it is, this change will be immensely positive and will benefit your daily life greatly, financially and emotionally.
Advice
six of cups, queen of swords (rev), eight of swords, ten of cups, six of swords
Let the curiosity live!! Don't immerse your partner in every facet of your life. It's important that you guys have your own independence. It keeps things exciting. If you always know what the other person's got going on, then conversations have a tendency to run dull and repetitive. You or your partner can eventually grow resentful if they feel too smothered in the relationship, so giving each other space will be really important. Make sure you don't stop living for yourself, even after you have started a relationship and eventually a family together (because really, I see this connection lasting the rest of your life,) if you want the healthiness between you two to last!
thank you to everyone who took a moment to look at this post! this is my first pac reading so i would love to know if anything here resonates with you!!
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How to pick a pile: close your eyes and take a deep breath before picking a pile. If you feel drawn to more than one pile, it's alright, you may take the piles that you're drawn to. What's important is to take it how it resonates and leave what doesn't.
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Their characteristics: They're someone who will cause some significant changes in you, especially in your growth as a someone. They will strive and encourage you to be a better person. They might influence you in making significant changes in your own life, such as moving out to new places and trying out new skills and having new experiences. They will encourage you to move on from the past, and I feel like this person will actually make you move on from your rough past. I don't mean this as if they're your rebound or something, it's just that moving on is natural for them and you could be someone who holds grudges deeply. And because of this, your next romantic partner would be someone who would help you move on, in a healthy way. I feel like you'll feel so safe around them to the point that you'll forget what happened to you in the past and just be grateful that you met this person. This person knows how to balance things in their life. They have all the stuff in their life and they're juggling them to balance them. They have these family and personal matters, then financial matters, their other connections (such as their friends), and then you. I can see that despite how busy they are, they still make time for you and they really manage their time very well, and you admire this in them. They could still be young and you could be young as well, or you and them just have this youthful nature in you. They're logical and private, they could be keeping information to themselves. This might result to them being private of your relationship. Your relationship is the private-but-not-a-secret type of thing. I also see that this person has leadership skills in them and they also radiate confidence. It's like when they walk into a room, everyone would turn around and look at them and just admire them and their confidence. They're a passionate person and they'll be very passionate about your relationship, especially towards you.
Signs: Fire signs (Aries, Leo, Sagittarius), workaholic, goal-oriented, ENTJ, INTJ, ESTJ, music/Spotify playlist, meeting online, social media is very important, private, mysterious on social media, dark/red hair, gym, hiking, surfing
Their characteristics: They're workaholic and they're still trying to get their life together. They could be chaotic or going through a lot of chaos when you meet them. They could have this push-and-pull energy when you meet and it might feel like this relationship/connection won't work because of how chaotic this person is. They're going through a lot of stress and they're just starting to face their responsibilities. Then you came along, which could cause them to feel more stressed and overwhelmed about their situation and their own life as a whole. They're still going through a lot of changes in their life when you meet and everything's all over the place in their life. They're going to move out to their new place (like an apartment) which could be near yours, managing their finances, thinking of resigning in their current job and find a new one. They could have a feminine energy, especially when it comes to you. I feel like they're quite in-touch with their emotions, in a way that they actually sit on their emotions and feel them and process them. They don't suppress them. This is why they could be in a lot of stress and be really overwhelmed when they meet you because they want to commit to you but they don't know how to manage everything. They would want to give you everything but they feel like they couldn't and they might get you involved in their chaotic life. It's like they feel that you'll stress over their life as well and they don't want this to happen. I feel like when you meet, you'll feel that instant connection and be passionate with each other the moment you meet. This might be a one night stand when you meet. And because of this, there might be a lot of confusion in the connection because it started in the way that you don't want. Despite that, this is a genuine connection, though it might take you a while to realize that.
Signs: Fixed signs (Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, Aquarius), workaholic, goal-oriented, chaotic energy, new apartment, living in the same town/city, winter-spring season, ISTP, INFJ, INFP, ISFP, downtown aesthetic, blonde/brunette, blue eyes, how to lose a guy in 10 days movie
Their characteristics: You might not be fond of each other when you meet and there might even be some conflicts or disagreements especially during the early stages of your connection (not necessarily a relationship). You might see them as someone arrogant and insensitive of other people's feelings. You might be so annoyed of each other's presence and be defensive whenever someone disagrees with the other. This disagreement might feel like a personal attack even if it's not. You both might be young, you could still be students (especially university students). You might be in competition of each other in class and you might get into debates a lot with each other. I feel like you both will enjoy disagreeing with each other's opinions and answers in class even if you actually agree, just to annoy the other. Your classmates/colleagues could even ship you both and tease you from time to time. You might get into the same group together to work on some project and you'll be stuck with each other for quite a while. During this time, you'll get to know each other and realize they're not really who you think they were. They're actually a soft person and you have a lot of similarities with each other. This project will be the best project in the whole class (whole university even) and you'll want to work with each other again next time. I'm seeing that because of this project and you'll start to work more often for the next projects, your connection will start to get deeper. You'll be connected on an emotional level. You'll go from being enemies/academic rivals to being friends, then best friends, then lovers. From being annoyed of each other's presence to looking for each other's presence and laughter and time together. From hating each other and laughing when the other gets hurt (like falling off a chair) to being protective of each other. From denying the teases of other people about you to just accepting them and acting like couples, just like what they're teasing you about. You'll keep spending a lot of time with each other to the point that you'll study together and even stay up really late just to "study". You'll be very patient with each other now. And the rest is history.
Signs: Aries, Sagittarius, Libra, Virgo, Gemini, ESTP, ISTP, ENTP, enemies to lovers trope, academic rivals to lovers, study dates, coffee dates, group project, university, camping, debates, dark hair, wavy hair, dark academia aesthetic, autumn
Hello, loves! I wanted to make a comeback for the new year and decided to make this February PAC for all of you ♡
We will be exploring what February has in store for you, including this month's core energy for you, what opportunities/challenges that are coming your way and additional advice. I hope that each reading brings some peace and clarity 💕
I made it short and sweet for you to make sure nothing is too overwhelming 🫶🏼🔮
cards drawn: the tower, 9 of wands, 6 of wands, 3 of cups, strength, queen of pentacles.
Hi there pile one! For this month, you're being called to process some difficult emotions you have been keeping inside. Friends or people who genuinely care about you will be super beneficial for this, especially if they've gone through similar things you have. I know it isn't easy but whatever you're going through serves as a catalyst of your transformation (think of a butterfly rising from its ashes). It is important to tend to your own garden during this month - spend some time engaging in self care, trade going out for staying at home when you're feeling overwhelmed. This is a period of self-reflection and gentleness.
cards drawn: king of swords, page of pentacles rx, ace of pentacles, strength rx and 3 of pentacles
Hi there pile two! You're starting this month of with a clear mind, sharp intellect and even sharper intuition. You may have been working on something lately and after a few setbacks, you've learnt from your mistakes and you're now ready to keep going. Progress is inevitable for this month! With the strength in reverse paired with the 3 of pentacles, you may feel called to start delegating your tasks to focus on things that actually matter; don't be afraid to reach out to people - your time is valuable too.
cards drawn: temperance, ace of wands rx; queen of wands + page of cups rx; magician and high priestess
For each question I asked, this pile had pairs of cards jumping out at the same time 😹 I thought that was really cute.
Hi there pile 3! February is definitely a month where you'll learn to balance your energies and to learn better (energetic) boundaries with people and environments. You may be someone who wears their heart on their sleeves but oftentimes people either misunderstand, misinterpret or misuse that. This month will push you to remain emotionally sovereign and to only allow access to people who will hold your emotions tenderly. Remember, you are magnetic but it's important to redirect that energy into improving your wellbeing and growth. Your intuition is your best friend for this month especially - listen to it!
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Pile 1-
you need to let go, this is so funny to me given the pile that you guys have chosen has a tattoo of "amor fati" which literally means this. If you've chosen this pile you might have an anxious attachment and some of you need to go off a relationship that you are holding. A japanese song is playing in my head? Sometimes you only hold onto things very tightly because deep down you know that the moment you let go they are going to leave you. Your older self wants you to let go of such relations one particular scenario that I'm getting is of someone being in a toxic relationship being completely dependent on their significant others knowing that the other person might not choose to stay with them once they let go or once they are given the choice to do so. Stop being dependent on people and allow them and give them the space for them to leave you if they wish to do so the only way to understand how much they love is by giving them the space to leave then only you know that they truly do love you. The other people in this pile need to know that all relations require space and time for both individuals to grow individually too. Only when you have enough space and time to grow individually you can contribute something to the relation. Some of you might have ashlesha nakshatra. Also take care of yourself by yourself your older self really wants you to take care of your hair lmao I keep hearing "wash up wash up" I'm also seeing fishes for some reason those orange ones I don't know what they're called? You might love them now or definitely own them in the future. Your older self also wants you to know that the cycle ends with you. Breaking off from the generation trauma cycle seems to be a very important theme here. I see y'all are already very cool but are even cooler in the future man I'm not gonna lie I also keep hearing alt for some reason whether it's for songs or fashion but y'all are gonna be fucking cool in the future man. Be resilient I have full faith in you pile 1 do it for the super cool you. I also see this pile moving out of this house if they haven't alr I keep getting japan again and again but y'all gonna live a pretty great lifestyle also reminded of lucky from the blue sisters novel? Thankyou!!
Pile 2-
this pile might have the tendency to overreact at that exact moment when they are faced with a problem. Their emotions at times might make it hard for them to actually get a good grasp on the situation. Your older self wants you to learn to differentiate between illusion and intuition lmao. I also had a vision of someone journaling so I think the older self might want you guys to write it down before reacting or coming to a conclusion on any sort of situation. I also think that writing it down might make it easy or better for you to feel and understand your emotions better and the problem as well. This pile also needs to focus on their unconscious mind? If you are manifesting something you might have some biases already that you need to pay attention to. This pile might also easily interpret things and get confused. Your older self wants you to follow your heart I heard "it will lead you to the right path" and right after this "sometimes to run is the brave thing" played in my head from its time to go by Taylor swift. You need to act on whatever feelings you have some of you might write and be confused about whether it's good or not or some confusion related to it here's your answer- it is<3 go ahead and follow your heart pile two it will never lead you to the wrong path in the long end. I also heard "beauty and art is everywhere" this pile needs to follow their passion. Lord this is ending on such a good note. Your older self also wants you to know that you should not fear bc all your hardwork will pay off<3 all your hardwork and sacrifices will pay off and you'll get the success that you desire and want. This was also a pile that I chose and I needed to hear this<3
Pile 3-
The time or whatever you are going through will not be wasted. The journey is there to prepare you and give you the experiences that you need to get to the level that you want to achieve in your life. This pile might be going through some hard things. This pile also needs to know that you cannot force anyone to grow early or to change early or hurry up some process everything has its own time be patient a delay does not mean a no. This pile also needs to come face to face with their problems and fear only then they'll be able to move past it. "The only way out is through" "change is the only constant thing in life" "no one else can do it for you" are the things that I'm hearing. This pile knows what's needed to be done but might fear the unknown. A big transformation that is much needed is coming after that I see a wonderful new beginning for you<3
Wanna know what your reputation among Manhattan’s elites like? Well, come and find out in this pick-a-card reading 👀.
P.S You’re referred to as ‘them’ here!
Pile 1. Pile 2.
Pile 3. Pile 4.
PILE 1
SPOTTED:
Hey, Upper East Siders.
Word on the street, a certain someone is back. This one trades hard work for high stakes, hides behind a poised smile, and struts back with a full-blown transformation. Whoever said revenge can’t be productive has certainly never met them. Everybody else calls them petty but they call it the truth no one wants to admit.
For the little lambs that never crossed their path, don’t be fooled. This one is a heartbreaker in disguise. All it takes is a flutter of eyelashes and charming words enough to replace alcohol and suddenly—you’ve fallen to their bidding. The elite should know the signs of this siren looking for prey. It has happened before. Watch out, Upper East Side, pain may build character but this one? They’re building an empire.
XOXO, Gossip Girl
PILE 2
SPOTTED:
Breaking News, Upper East Side!
Manhattan’s sweetheart has just made another name for themselves. Authentic, confident, and radiant—this untouchable one is privy to the elite’s envy, mad they can’t draw blood with vile tongues. Glamorous, they conquered yet another part of the world. The world? Already theirs. And the rest of us? Wishing on stars they leave behind in their wake. This one does not demand attention, they’re endowed in it. Admiration trails their form closely like a Chanel perfume, obsession isn’t far behind. Despite a loving personality, who knows who’s secretly wishing for their downfall?
One thing’s for certain: no party is reputable without their presence.
XOXO, Gossip Girl
PILE 3
SPOTTED:
What’s up, Manhattan’s elite?
Your parents have favorites in the drawing room—but when it comes to power play in the young, this one is theirs. This is Upper East Side’s very own Romulus, because while the rest of you play in your penthouses, they’re busy building Rome in Manhattan. When in Rome, do as Romans do. Yet in Manhattan? Try as you might—you’ll never be able to do it like they do. They’re not here to play, they’re here to overpower the boardroom.
Ambition walks in the room with respect from both the young and the older, dripped in designer and wearing legacy—too bad it’s not you. Much like their indomitable presence, you know you love me.
XOXO, Gossip Girl
Pile 4
SPOTTED:
Gossip Girl here. Someone is playing the strings of the Upper East Side—and it’s not me.
A certain someone is elusive, hiding behind shadows. Among the polished designers, they’re the model of tradition under good graces and good breeding. But be careful, Upper East Side. Don’t be fooled, they’ll sit cross-legged with instincts of a fox. This one plays by the rules and bends it to their will in silence. They observe behind the scenes, but we see them. Calculated like a ghost, they don’t chase power—they’ll wait for it to fall into their hands. Chances are, you’re already there. And who am I? Comparable to their secretive nature, I’ll never tell.
Today we are asking 4 seperate energies what they think of you! It's important to know that any pick a card's are general energies and some messages are resonant to your crush and others might just be for other people. Generally this is my first pick a card on Tumblr but I've been in the tarot community for longer than today, since 2017 I read tarot.
Disclaimer: I haven't used any tarot cards for this reading, ironically. I'm channelling the messages instead.
Take a moment, I understand crushes on anyone can be mind whirling and obsessive at times. But well I'm here to feed your obsession, aren't I? I will take the opportunity to channel their messages so every reply is written in the voice of your crush (general) and I'll give all four groups some extra information too!
Pick one of these four sentences from my favourite tommy shelby quotes!
1. "Why not?" — Thomas Shelby
2. "Do I look like a man who wants a simple life?" — Thomas Shelby
3. “We used to come here; she’d wait for hours for me when I couldn’t make it. And I’d wait for her if her family kept her in.” — Thomas Shelby
4. “A man needs to prove he is better than me, rather than show me his birth certificate.” — Thomas Shelby
All readings are channelled letters from your crush s/o. Hope you enjoy these and follow my account for more tarot posts!
Pile 1: "Why not?"
First of all this is a person that thinks softly of you. They have kind eyes, might be more of an effeminate person. May have a beard, or look like a gentle giant. I'm also getting blonde/brown hair or shoulder length blonde hair. They have dazzling eyes.
My darling,
I have never called you that before. But why not, eh? Or maybe I do enjoy calling you that in my mind. You are like a fond thought my mind wanders to when I am sitting in the train or my car. Or when I walk or am riding my bike. I think of you softly. I'm secretly afraid, that whilst I think of you softly, you don't think of me that way. I might just be a hopeless fool thinking you'd be interested in myself. Or perhaps I am not a fool?
I kind of want to do fun things together. Take it slow. There are some people I think of. Some other people that might be interesting to me as well. I know you didn't expect to hear that but I'm sometimes too stuck in my daydreams that I wished I was anyone's person. I just want to think of love. I like to imagine my closest friends think me an idiot everytime I say I met someone because how could they not? I sort of just 'love' being in love, right there, in my head.
Telling you how I feel makes me question whether it's worth it. Should I take that step to ask you how you're doing? To ask you whether you'd like to walk with me? Get an icecream? I don't know how to date to be honest. I read often, I just thought that thinking of you in my mind would be easier than thinking of you and I actually going someplace to do fun things together.
I specically like your legs, your smile, your hair. I think you look like my dream person. I may not smile in person, or I may not say these things in person, or I may not even let you know how HOT I think you are but you really are my type. I just don't know whether you'd think of me as 'your' type.
Sometimes I fantasize too much. I think it all out. Us, together, marriage, maybe even normal things like grocery shopping together or finding out what kind of candy you eat or don't eat. I kind of want to know how you live your life. I really admire how you come off to me as a person and I just think that we could 'be' something. If only my mind wasn't so easy to wander to other scenario's and people and friends who could possibly become my person too.
If you like me, just tell me. Right now. I beg of you. It would make my day. It would be recipocrated, I already have chosen you in my heart but I can't keep my mind collected. I can't stop thinking about work or about how busy I actually am when in truth, I just want to get to know you better.
Don't be sad. I don't want you to be sad. Was I an asshole? I never meant to be one. Trust me.
Do you trust me?
Yours Forever,
Your hopeless romantic
Pile 2: "Do I look like a man who wants a simple life?"
This is someone who has dark features. Might have brown hair. They come off as someone who has dazzling green/hazel or brown eyes. They are HANDSOME. You think of them in a handsome light. Their dress style might enchant you daily. Everytime you receive pictures of them or see them you might just think highly of their aesthetic. They're giving stronger masculine vibes or someone who has a dominant personality.
Babes,
Look I never meant to fall for you. I think my guides never saw 'me' falling for you. But I did. I was thrown into this abyss of feelings that I had long forgotten or long thought I could not feel anymore. I keep being disappointed in life but you have never disappointed me. I like that. I like that about you.
You and I talk or we don't. It's like that. I know it is. Because I keep you far away from me when I need time to make a decision. When I need to fix my shit. When I need to fix my issues. I have many of them. I don't need an angel like you to come into that mess. I don't want you to see a mess or see me as a mess. I need you to understand that I'm getting better. Really, I am. I thought I told you that, before, didn't I?
My life can never be just us. It's everything. It's mostly my family, my job, my friends. It's everything. I am always at the center of it and sometimes that makes me anxious. My friends drag me into shit you may not like. I might hurt your ideas about me when I do stuff like that, or I might be repugnant but it's just who I am, all right?
I can't be with someone who will hold me back. I am not saying you do this, but I hope that you will understand I don't really know how to be in a relationship that isn't going to end in destruction so I will put this lightly: don't give me the steer. I need you to say what you need to say and be as expressive as possible to keep me there with you. Maybe I like you, maybe I don't, I don't even know this myself.
See my guides want me to stop questioning my life. They want me to stop being such a fuck, maybe I do too. When I talk to you or when I think of you, I think of what of a redemption arc that would be for me? I know that sounds weird, but I think of how I could do 'right' by you.
So, technically, no, I don't want you to crush on me because I would not deserve you. But I also want you to be with me because I want to have you. Does that make me an asshole? I suppose it does.
Look, I know how to get you on your knees. I know how to kiss you, I'm experienced, I know. I know where to push your button, what to flirt, what to say, I do this naturally. It's like god gave me one gift and it's flirting without actually intending to flirt.
I get in a lot of trouble for that.
Like you for instance. You're my trouble. You're my death. You are the one person I can't get off my mind and it bothers me because I can't come forward to you and give you this sorry excuse of a person that I am right now. I really can't. Will you forgive me for not saying anything? If you ask me about my feelings, my love, I will most likely just ignore it or just be rude. I know, I can't have you.
You do NOT deserve me. I'm so sorry. I don't want you to want me, yet I do. Yet I thrive on it. Yet I am so sick that I would get off on it. I want you to want me, it's a game, alright? It's a game. I thrive on the thrill. I thrive on chasing. I thrive on flirting. This is a mad world and you're making it worse.
If you'd give me a chance, if by some miracle you'd be able to tame the fucktard that I am, would you be able to put up with my non-commital energy? Would you? See, you don't want this. I know you do.
My guides don't want this for you.
I'm sorry,
Your idiot.
Pile 3: “We used to come here; she’d wait for hours for me when I couldn’t make it. And I’d wait for her if her family kept her in.”
Your person is very feminine. I see someone who is shy, gives off introverted vibes or might just be a person who doesn't express what's going on with them all the time. They have a hard time texting others first, they might wait on texts instead. I feel like they are someone who thinks fondly of you.
Mr/Mrs *insert your name*,
I didn't know it could feel like this. Ha, who would've thought that, ME of all people would like you like some childish crush, though, the child in me still dreams of my shining knight. Are you that person? My shining hero, you might think I read too much fantasy novels or that I'm too obsessed with that one band, haha, I know, I am. I may talk too much about my one interest because It's all I think of. It's where I want to be, want to dream of, it's where my mind wanders and what keeps me occupied. I know you're not like that, or maybe you are, but you don't show it that easily.
I do like you. There, I said it. I want to be polite. I want to court you properly, when I do gather the courage to actually do that. I feel like somehow you might be the one person for me. Therefore, I find you irresistable. Because of that connection between us. We might already be friends, or well, we hang around one another, but I think you and I could be something more.
It had to be you. It just had to be you. That's what Barbra Streisand sings in the song "It had to be you" with Michael Bublé. I am on a cloud. Because I dream too much, I might seem like I am zoning out at times. That's what you do to me. You make me zone out and dream of many things. Sometimes my mind wanders back to those idols though, haha, or my favourite celebrities or games or book characters. But it mostly is you.
I would like to tell you how you inspire me. I am not an artistic person, but if I was, I would draw you. I would paint you. I would want to paint your soul. Does that sound too weird? Probably. See, when I think of you, I think of how you would be the most perfect thing to be laying beside me. To be holding hands with as we walk through an autumn world forest, to get a hot drink with in the cold winter, to meet up with for lunch or dinner. I think of you kindly, admiring and I hope you don't think I'm coming off too strongly on you because yes, I recipocrate this crush you have on me.
Even if you're not sure if you crush on me, I would not mind. Technically, I'm yours. I want to be yours. I might not be too responsible sometimes, I might not take the lead in things but I promise you that I can do that if you allowed me the time to adjust to you, to being around you, and not just you in my head.
I could ramble on and on about you in my head. I don't have many friends and the people I talk to I do mention you. Sometimes when I see something that reminds me of you, like something I see in a store window and I am like, you would like that shit, I'm almost tempted to buy it as a gift. I like gift giving. But I am bad with receiving it. I would really like if we could give each other book or song recommendations, maybe exchange poems. I secretly would give you a poem that explains my feelings for you, not going to lie about that.
Yeah, that's what it is. I sometimes feel like I have no appetite. I don't want to eat when I think of you. I can't get my head straight some days. And then I just focus only on stories. Books. My interests. I would like to get to know your interests too. Sometimes I worry that I am not good enough for you. Or that you would not want me. It keeps me silent. Truly.
It's stupid, I know. I might not come from a good background. My family life was not something that brought me joy and that kept me in my books and my internal world. Or it was my school but I hope that you might want to be my family.
Or is that too much? I'll convince you of how great that would be. :)
Yours truly,
*insert their name*
Pile 4: “A man needs to prove he is better than me, rather than show me his birth certificate.”
This is a soft masculine energy. He comes off hard on the outside. I am getting a definite 'he' but it could also be someone that is considered a butch energy, has macho energy or a person with very masculine energy. Technically it doesn't matter but this person has a message for you and it's coming. :) They're a bit mysterious.
My Destiny.
You feel like my destiny. You know I am a religious person, I think a certain way about life that might be philosophical, it might be faith, it just is my faith. I want you to know that when you're not around, I think of you as special. The song, I am a Creep, by radiohead, you like that one don't you?
Why do I have the feeling that you're after the bad guy. That you're after someone who looks dangerous, could be dangerous and that I would be that person for you. Why do you give me those eyes? That stare? That smirk? You're playing coy but I know that you fantasize about me like I am some devil in the sheets.
I really am not. *Snort*. Truly, you'll think of me less than that. Sometimes I worry that you think of me in a way where you're making this up. About me, information just gets distorted or you make something up in your mind that doesn't truly fit my personality. I would say that I don't mind you doing this, I think it's kind off cute. I think you're cute.
Some days, I wonder what you're doing. Only some days. Like those moments when it's night, you're sitting on the couch or in the tub and I am contemplating what to do now that my phone died (I might just be addicted to my phone) and I think of you in those moments of disconnect. I can watch the moon or I can look up at the nightsky and wonder if you're my person.
I like witches. Eh, did I say that? Yep. You're like a witch to me. Not in a bad way, more like in the way that "I know my girlfirend is a witch" vibe. You are mysterious to me. Something about you that I can't pinpoint my finger on. Something mysterious. It draws me in, but at the same time I don't want to be drawn in by you.
It's a push and pull with my feelings of my heart and my body and my mind. It's like this, I don't think you fit in my ordinairy life. You should do something with someone that fits your life. We might just be dating other people or you might feel unavailable emotionally to me, which is something I can't help but only you can, truly.
Still... I do think of you softly. In the quiet moments. My mind lingers on you. You're my favourite happy place where my thoughts can wander to. My favourite thing to relax, I don't know maybe your body is too. You know how I would love to relax with you, sweaty, together and being intimate in a way that makes you blush if I would ever talk about it nonchalantly in public day light.
I'd like to take you to a restaurant. You'd like that, huh? I know, I am smug when I think I know something about you but truly, i'm just a clueless fool wanting your attention when all but nothing you're just this goddess that could ruin me if you tried.
You don't even have to try, truly. I'm already broken, that's my secret.
I don't fear breaking my heart. So, if you do want to chase this? Chase me, darling.
I am ready.
But, let me say one more thing before I end this message. That dress, those trousers, that favourite clothing item you own, the one that looks comfortable, but isn't? Ehm, yeah, I have thought about you in that exact piece and eh- shamefully have fantasies about you wearing that fucking thing. Sorry, I get carried away when it's you, I really do.
You didn't expect this, did you? I know you think me the person you'd think is your type but you might need to re-arrange your expectations about me. I will disappoint you, I know that I will, I can't do nothing right in my life, why would I do right by you?
I sound like I hate myself. Perhaps I do.
Will you love me then, honey?
You know who I am.
Thankyou for reading this pick a card! I hope the message resonates and that you're able to enjoy this little crush reveal or did not enjoy this crush disappointment. The energies were very different and some messages aren't entirely the same but take whatever resonates, not what doesn't, if your gut feeling says those words weren't from your crush or s/o then they're not.
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MASTERLIST SHOP
PILE ONE
Hello, Pile 1! Welcome to your reading. So what I'm getting is that your future spouse's first impression of you will be a mix of emotional, intellectual, and practical nature. Your future spouse will see you as their soulmate or "the one" the moment they see/meet you. When you meet, they'll be in the stage of life where life's testing them real bad. I feel like they're one of the fixed signs who will be heavily affected by Pluto in Aquarius and their life will be such a rollercoaster ride. So when they meet you, they'll feel like this rollercoaster ride has just ended because you'll be their comfort zone. I'm seeing that you could have a masculine energy who's emotionally intelligent and/or connected/in touch with your emotions. Your future spouse admires this trait of yours and it makes them want you even more in their life. I'm also getting that your future spouse sees you as someone who's practical and might be good with money. You could be financially stable or money flows easily for you. They see you as someone nurturing and caring, to the point that you're really committed to them and to your relationship.
PILE TWO
Hello there, Pile 2! Welcome to your reading. First of all, what I'm getting here is that your future spouse will see you as someone who constantly learns something new. You might meet at a university or institutions or workplace where you're required to learn and enhance new skills. To your future spouse, you're a logical person and you might have masculine energy. I'm getting the IDGAF energy here and this might be their first impression of you. They see you as someone who doesn't tolerate toxicity and bad behavior. When someone does you wrong or dirty for the first time and they apologize to you, you'll accept and forgive. But if they do it again on the second time, that's a goodbye to them. There will be no third time. You don't give a fuck whether they'll be hurt when you cut ties because first of all, that's their fault and you're simply protecting yourself from their energy. I'm also seeing that your future spouse will see you as someone who knows what you want and you just do your thing and get it. Just like in Ariana's song 7 rings, "I want it, I got it" which I keep hearing right now. I also feel like when you meet, you might be in a "stuck" situation or you're mentally foggy and they'll notice this so your future spouse will have the urge to help you or approach you and be in their strongest masculine energy because they see you as someone with masculine energy, and they'll try to beat that. Not because of ego, but because they know you have high standards and well, they want you so they'll try to fit in those standards, but not in a fake or pretentious way, but in a way that they'll be a better person.
PILE THREE
Hello, Pile 3! Welcome to your reading. Well, this is such a passionate and fiery energy here. I'm getting that your future spouse's first impression of you is that they'll see you as someone who's fiery. You have a lot of courage and when someone tests you or makes your life a bit difficult, you don't back down. Instead, you fight back. I can see that your future spouse sees you as someone who's expanding your finances. You're trying to make your financial life stable here, or even more than stable. You could meet at a workplace, specifically in business-related workplaces. I'm seeing a woman wearing a white blouse, dark blue/navy trousers and 3-inch black heels standing in front of a desk and typing something on the computer, helping someone get their work done or looking at their work. This could be you or them. I'm also seeing that your future spouse sees you as a passionate person, you're passionate in your job and you get all your work done. I feel like you could be the CEO here. I'm also seeing that your future spouse will be really physically attracted to you when you first meet (to a sexual level). They'll be starstruck when they see you and it'll feel like the world suddenly stopped moving.
