I made a summary at the end in case some of you only wants to read the short version. Hope you enjoy the reading :)
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The moment I tapped into her energy, I saw a woman crying, on the edge of the bed in the dark.
So MUCH crying. So much PAIN.
Pent-up, bottled-up emotions. She was grieving, it was sorrow.
My intuition tells me he’s not the sole reason for her to feel this way, it was an accumulated sadness and losing him was more like the “last straw” that broke her. Emotional breakdown.
Now let’s get into the reading. She drew:
Five of Wands
Three of Swords
Queen of Cups
Nine of Swords
Constant Conflict & Tension
Okay so right off the bat, Taylor sees Matty Healy as someone who brought chaos and power struggles into her life. During the relationship, she felt like she always had to fight to be heard, to be seen and for his attention.
Furthermore, she felt like the world around her was against them. If we look at the card imagery, five men appear to be fighting each other. No one in the card is truly working together, each is defending their stance. If we apply it to TS and MH’s case, this reflects as:
Talking over each other
This shows the emotional conflict Taytay faced—where no one aligned with her, not even the one she was trying to protect.
Tension from her environment (friends, family, social expectations) that added pressure and disapproval. Heavy on disapproval. From her side and from his side.
Feeling like she had to defend the relationship. Externally and internally.
This was not a peaceful relationship for her. High anxiety (which further highlighted in the last card.) She felt unsupported.
Whether externally or internally, being around him felt like conflict, never ease. Even if things weren’t outwardly explosive, there was always friction underneath. Emotional disconnection, clashing desires & misunderstandings between them. She felt like he didn’t truly hear or honor her, and she had to prove herself just to feel valued.
💔 Deep Emotional Pain
Now… this is real heartbreak. She associates Matty with betrayal, loss, and deep pain. He pierced her heart and left her with wounds that still ache. She didn’t just feel disappointed, what happened between them genuinely broke her heart.
Whether it was betrayal or abandonment, she still carries the sharpness of it inside her.
Because of external opposition, the heartbreak wasn’t just about Matty himself. It was also about:
The loss of what could have been if people hadn’t interfered
Feeling like she was forced to choose between him and her world
Deep emotional loyalty, holding on when everyone else told her to let go
The pain of realizing she was the only one truly fighting
A Tender Heart Torn
Taylor still feels the tenderness, her heart was truly in it. But now it feels like that love was unreciprocated, punished, and something she feels ashamed of - despite how real it was.
Taylor also felt that her love was taken for granted. Feeling like she gave too much and overwrote her boundaries just to keep the love alive, while her own emotional needs were ignored. She loved him deeply, and that love was sincere, but now she questions whether her own empathy was a weakness he took advantage of.
She feels that she overextended herself emotionally, and he didn’t protect her heart. Now what’s left is she felt used, manipulated and deceived by him. She gave him shelter in her heart, he gave her a storm and then walked out.
Damn💔
“I loved him… but at what cost?”
Lyrics I heard:
He took me out of my box
Left all these broken parts
Lingering Anxiety
This the result of everything that happened between them: regret, shame, anxiety, even self-blame. Taylor ruminates on what she didn’t see sooner, ignoring red flags, what she tolerated, and how much of herself she gave trying to make it work.
The things she once defended, the choices she made, the love she protected—all crumbled. She's haunted, not only by him, but also by the version of herself that loved him.
I heard “Why wasn’t I enough to make him stay?”
Even if she knows she did everything, her heart still circles the pain like it needs to find an answer. That’s how Taylor lived; emotionally, mentally, spiritually tired. The worst part of this kind of heartbreak is that it makes you doubt yourself, which is where the anxiety crept in.
She feels ashamed, even foolish, for loving him, for defending him, for hoping.
“Should’ve run when they told me to”
Summary
This is a story of Tragic Loyalty
Together, the cards tell a story of a woman who:
Fought everyone for a love she believed in.
Poured her entire heart into someone who didn't match it.
Was ultimately left behind by the very person she was fighting for
And now lives with a heartbreak. From loss and misplaced devotion.
Her love was real. Her loyalty was unwavering. But his silence was louder than her fight—and it shattered her. And now, she carries the weight of his failure to stay, even though she never asked for much.. just for him to fight beside her the way she fought for him.
Tje's Note:
Alright so I'm finally done interpreting this! I actually pulled the cards in July 2025, but only done with interpreting everything now in August '25. The reason why is yes life gets busy, but also every time I write down her feelings, it just felt so heavy and sad, I became sad too. So i had to put it down a few times to collect myself.
Finishing this is honestly a huge relief. When I finished, it was the same night she got proposed from Travis! Exciting!
I also did a reading on how Matty H and Joe Alwyn react/feel about her ✨ engagement ✨ news. It's available on my Ko-Fi or you can DM me if interested 🩷
My paid reading is also available if you want clarity reading for your own situation. Also by DM 🩷
if you read til here you're a real one. Have a blessed day lovelies! 💫
All this Taylor and Travis content have me feeling for a hangman x pop singer reader ff who shows up at a longhorns game with him and they spend time in the readers studio together.
