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[Doesn't take my meds. Has a great day where I get a lot done and can focus reasonably well and I'm proud of everything I've accomplished and the hobbies I was able to indulge in.] I don't need my meds. I've got this handled myself.

[Doesn't take my meds. Can't focus at all, doesn't do anything, stressed but can't get myself to break the cycle of stimulation-seeking and rumination and distraction.] I need to take my meds again.

[Takes my meds. Has a great day where I get a lot done and can focus really well.] I love my meds. Why did I ever get off of them.

[Takes my meds. Hyperfocuses on OCD patterns, ramped up by the stimulant, where I'm indecisive and want to do a million things perfectly all at once. Stressed all day as I run around trying to do things. Can barely eat because of the stimulant's appetite-suppressing side effect. Has a really shitty crash after the meds wear off, and can't focus on the friends I'm hanging out with post-meds.] I should take a med break. I can take care of myself.

[Doesn't take my meds. Has a great day wh

#tl #the cycle.......#today is a distraction day #we overslept and felt a sense of stress/frustration/unease/longing/sadness with no single #clear cause and no single solution. and thus we have been unable to do anything all day ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #i was looking forward to my three-day productivity part of the week too...#:(#I wanted to draw!!!#we'll be (hopefully?) seeing an OCD specialist soon though. who is also an ADHD therapist. so if that #works out i'm excited for that. we haven't been able to see an OCD specialist or an ADHD therapist before. she's also trauma-informed.#and i talked to L and they agreed no more sleeping in. sleeping in is a compulsion tbh and so is the distraction spiral when we feel an #unpleasant emotion. because i h8 the uncertainty of it so i start trying to problem-solve for it and thinking that tigers are chasing me if #i keep doing what i usually do without fixating on the feeling. so umm hoping that awareness will also help in the future. but alas it #feels too late in the day to do anything about it now. which is also probably a compulsion.

This time im actually gonna keep up with lifesteal streams and know whats going on and not be out of the loop until the literal end of the season again this time ill actually watch it all and not just get enthralled between seasons this time I'll be part of the fandom this ti-

#the cycleeeeeee #i was actually keeping up with s5 but i was a vitalasy main and well.#actually now that kaboodle is there i might actually be able to keep up with streams easy cause she goes live at 9am my time yippeeee #<- voice of a guy whos gonna lose interest/forget abt it after 2 months and then become obsessed on the last week of s6. as always #the cycle.......

im in absolute despair and want to die > no i'll survive for better things > we're so back im gonna change things and improve my life and others' > we are SO back > tries and gets paralysed by physical/emotional exhaustion and anxiety and sensory overload > absolute despair etc etc

#the cycle.......#well at least a cycle means im still kicking u know #eli talks

[Doesn't take my meds. Can't focus at all, doesn't do anything, stressed but can't get myself to break the cycle of stimulation-seeking and rumination and distraction.] I need to take my meds again.

[Takes my meds. Has a great day where I get a lot done and can focus really well.] I love my meds. Why did I ever get off of them.

[Doesn't take my meds. Has a great day wh

#the cycle.......#well at least a cycle means im still kicking u know #eli talks

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