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L makes the cutest noises, I'm going to cry

#tl #he sounds like a little creature...

The new guest in our house has got me searching stuff like "is it polite to use ouija boards"

#tl #I don't want to be rude if he wants to be left alone...#my partner suggested doing reiki on him but I was like noo I don't want to just do it to someone without asking #that feels so invasive....

I cry at least a little bit every time I go to church, it seems

#tl #the speakers know how to hit those emotional chords and I'm a very emotional person...

Was ruminating earlier and L yanked me into the stream of a cold shower about it

#tl #never thought I'd be the one oversharing on tumblr and yet here I am

lightyagami-offical

fun fact three presidents have died on the Fourth of July

and with your efforts we can get that number up to four

bill-cipher-offical

THIS IS LITERALLY YOUR ENTIRE JOB, KID. GET ON THAT

dakakapo

This was really funny I had to draw it

#I TRIED #tl

My loved ones make everything so much more bearable

#ruminating and seething but then I chat with my friend and bf a bit and my rage levels reduce significantly #tl

Earlier I was being all "God wants me dead" but maybe They just want me to do something nice for the environment

#religion /#tl

I Can Not take this anymore. I'm going to get gas lawn mowers and leaf blowers banned in this city and I'm not just saying that.

#there's a lot going on in this world and it's frustrating that I can't do something about Everything I care about all at once #but if we all just pick One Thing and really give it our all then change would happen a lot faster #and this is a good one for me to pick because I get thrown into a massive sensory meltdown at least twice a week over this #so it'll be a good way to channel that fury #tl #i wish i could get all iterations of these machines banned permanently!!!! we don't need them at all!!!!#but....one step at a time. haha.#i will certainly be spreading information about how unnecessary both machines are at least.#it'll be like a school project. it's very achievable.#okay amending this with- i think lawn mowers might be actually useful in certain farm situations? don't know enough about that.#but i know lawns specifically are stupid and evil <3 🔪

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#(referencing prev)#''I'll be the God of this new world!'' YOU'D BE FIRST ON MY LIST MONOKUMA

spiraling-galaxies

[Doesn't take my meds. Has a great day where I get a lot done and can focus reasonably well and I'm proud of everything I've accomplished and the hobbies I was able to indulge in.] I don't need my meds. I've got this handled myself.

[Doesn't take my meds. Can't focus at all, doesn't do anything, stressed but can't get myself to break the cycle of stimulation-seeking and rumination and distraction.] I need to take my meds again.

[Takes my meds. Has a great day where I get a lot done and can focus really well.] I love my meds. Why did I ever get off of them.

[Takes my meds. Hyperfocuses on OCD patterns, ramped up by the stimulant, where I'm indecisive and want to do a million things perfectly all at once. Stressed all day as I run around trying to do things. Can barely eat because of the stimulant's appetite-suppressing side effect. Has a really shitty crash after the meds wear off, and can't focus on the friends I'm hanging out with post-meds.] I should take a med break. I can take care of myself.

[Doesn't take my meds. Has a great day wh

spiraling-galaxies

Who needs meds when you have doms

#thank you L and Soldier #I sent the video of the whiny husky in the bathtub to the GC for L...#and that's USUALLY correct but today the husky was me </3

quicktimeeventfull

like look me in the eyes and tell me light doesn't seem like a sadist to you

#head in hands #tl #yeah

theunfairfolk

in elementary school i figured out how to customize the classroom desktop's autocorrect to make Word change whole sentences. this made it appear almost like the computer was responding to you. you could, for example, type in "where did i put my keys", hit enter, and watch it switch to "you put them under the couch". this was before chatbots, and we were all 9 so i considered it closer to a magic trick than a tech one.

i immediately scripted out a dialogue exchange between me and a girl who had died by the swings (classic). i invited another student over and told them i had found a ghost, then proceeded to type out the pre-scripted exchange. i was immediately pulled into the counselors office. the kicker was that none of the adults could figure out how i did it. i had to show them the menu and everything.

theunfairfolk

important detail i forgot to add: the swing ghost wanted blood sacrifices from the students. in my defense it was "only a few drops".

#glow

Living in an intentional community will fix me

#tl

[Doesn't take my meds. Has a great day where I get a lot done and can focus reasonably well and I'm proud of everything I've accomplished and the hobbies I was able to indulge in.] I don't need my meds. I've got this handled myself.

[Doesn't take my meds. Can't focus at all, doesn't do anything, stressed but can't get myself to break the cycle of stimulation-seeking and rumination and distraction.] I need to take my meds again.

[Takes my meds. Has a great day where I get a lot done and can focus really well.] I love my meds. Why did I ever get off of them.

[Takes my meds. Hyperfocuses on OCD patterns, ramped up by the stimulant, where I'm indecisive and want to do a million things perfectly all at once. Stressed all day as I run around trying to do things. Can barely eat because of the stimulant's appetite-suppressing side effect. Has a really shitty crash after the meds wear off, and can't focus on the friends I'm hanging out with post-meds.] I should take a med break. I can take care of myself.

[Doesn't take my meds. Has a great day wh

#tl #the cycle.......#today is a distraction day #we overslept and felt a sense of stress/frustration/unease/longing/sadness with no single #clear cause and no single solution. and thus we have been unable to do anything all day ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #i was looking forward to my three-day productivity part of the week too...#:(#I wanted to draw!!!#we'll be (hopefully?) seeing an OCD specialist soon though. who is also an ADHD therapist. so if that #works out i'm excited for that. we haven't been able to see an OCD specialist or an ADHD therapist before. she's also trauma-informed.#and i talked to L and they agreed no more sleeping in. sleeping in is a compulsion tbh and so is the distraction spiral when we feel an #unpleasant emotion. because i h8 the uncertainty of it so i start trying to problem-solve for it and thinking that tigers are chasing me if #i keep doing what i usually do without fixating on the feeling. so umm hoping that awareness will also help in the future. but alas it #feels too late in the day to do anything about it now. which is also probably a compulsion.

The Death Note can control people up to 23 days before their death, but it can't make the person who's dying kill another, okay then how about this. Someone writes my name and makes it so that the way I die is by forcing L to literally dissect me okay thanks for coming to open mic night bye

#gore /#violence /#tl #sighs dreamily #also. to make full use of the 23 days thing. the person writing it can make it so that i'm alive that entire time.#like i don't just die right away.#ok shutting my mouth now

Having my stomach carved open sounds like it would feel good as fuuuuck

#gore ?/#violence ?/#tl #sorry I saw ash's tags and got lost in the sauce #he wasn't talking about ME me but still. the mental imagery is strong.

Yes we're majoring in an arts degree and in Japanese. Yes we're obsessed with Death Note, Ace Attorney, and Danganronpa, and have merch of it (and of Hatsune Miku) all over our house. No we're not particularly into anime or vocaloid on a broad scale. No we're not familiar with more than like 5 anime shows (which we've only seen because our friends wanted to watch them with us). Yes we exist.

#it's not that we dislike it (like obviously we've enjoyed what we've seen) we just don't watch much of anything. at least comparatively.#it's so funny talking about our majors and obsessions because the assumption will be that we're huge into anime #meanwhile among my college friends (most of whom ARE way more into anime) i'm sitting there constantly lost as to what they're #talking about but enjoying hearing them enthusiastically talk nonetheless #thank you friends (including the ones reading this) for helping me expand my media horizons #tl

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