I invited not 1 but 2 people to have PUBLIC outings this weekend. Might I just say…. I am terrified.

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I invited not 1 but 2 people to have PUBLIC outings this weekend. Might I just say…. I am terrified.
Got inspired by the song "Everybody's Better Than Me" and my outfit, so tada! Fun Fact: This was mostly a therapy exercise for my body dysmorphia LMAO- Took months to finish since it kept making it worse but I completed it! 🥳
I am enough. I am more than worth it. I will not apologize for being my authentic self. I will not apologize for expressing my emotions. I am not needy. I am not too much to handle. I am not a burden. I am perfectly imperfect. I am kind. I am caring. I am empathetic. I am smart. I am creative. I am brave and I am strong. I am fun to be around and am a great friend and lover. I am me and I love me. I should be proud of myself, as others are, of the great accomplishments I have made throughout my life. I love me and I will continue to love me for the beautiful person I am. I will not let others take advantage of my love or of my kindness.
Happy Tuesday!
Spent most of the day working on my essay (and actually making some progress for a change!) and we went for a lovely little walk this evening bc neither of us had been outside for a few days. I can't wait for essays to be handed in and exams to start next Wednesday bc at least an exam only takes up one day and hopefully I'll have time to get outside most days again 😭
Bean burritos for dinner tonight, followed by a lovely little interval workout / dance party 💃🏼 Week 8 of Karen Hauer's 10 min vids then glute & hamstring intervals 😊
Boundaries Exercises
We did a cool exercise in Group Therapy today about Boundaries.
The first one, we had a sheet of paper with 6 concentric circles with nearly an inch of space between the edges of each - so like a big bullseye. The center circle is ME - the absolute boundary, the things no one but me knows, feels, shares, etc. From there, we wrote the names of people in the rings around ME according to how close we let them. So total strangers *should* be outside all the circles, while your closest confidante/best-friend or partner might be in the inner-most ring next to ME. Other family and friends range along the rings like this:
Or something. The way I drew mine, I had names crossing over into multiple rings, with the name mostly in the ring it usually lived in, to reflect how close I will allow them or how far I have to push them away.
Then we did a similar exercise but with a house plan. We drew the house layouts ourselves on graph paper (so we could draw our actual homes or visualize one of our choice. Now that I think about it, I forgot to put a bathroom in my made-up house!) The group therapist’s example also had front/back yards and the street. Here’s something like the one I drew (except I remembered a bathroom this time):
So with this drawing, you’d write people’s names where you’d be comfortable having them in your own, personal house. Obviously if it’s your own house, you may not be cool with your parents in your personal bedroom, but they’d be fine everywhere else. Maybe your best friend might sit on your bed with you to chat. Maybe your regular friends don’t go in your bedroom but can go everywhere else. Or maybe you’re not comfortable with people staying over. Strangers don’t’ make it past the front door and people who’ve hurt you can be thrown in the street (preferably with traffic). You can think of it literally, but I liked this one in addition to the first because it’s not so linear. I have family I’m closer to than some friends but I wouldn’t want them dropping by un-announced, or I wouldn’t let them stay over. It’s a different way of thinking about boundaries.
Feel free to try these out - it’s an interesting way to check in with the boundaries we have with the people in our lives.
Hey Mamabear,
I know my sink is full of dirty dishes and my laundry is not put away but if you can see the rest of my place I think you’d be proud of how cozy it is. I’m all set up for a movie night or a Netflix binge-a-thon. I’ll make the popcorn and make sure it’s swimming in butter just like you like.
I’ve been staying up really late the past several nights, and sleeping in till noon everyday. Falling asleep is hard here now and I think it’s because you’re not here in this world anymore. Even after I moved to a new city I slept soundly and well knowing that I was safe, or at least always protected by you. You were always there for me when I didn’t know the answer or the way to cook something or how to do my taxes. There were so many variables that you took care of for me... There were so many ways that you still took care of me even after I left home and tried to make an independent life for myself. I look around my little basement apartment and so many things you saw for my apartment on your weekend shopping trips in the states, or Christmas presents that I didn’t even know I wanted until I opened them. You knew me so well and you cherished my dreams whenever I got discouraged. You made all the scary parts of life seem easy, because I knew you would be there if I needed you.
I think that’s the hardest part now. You made me who I am and you made it possible for me to get through this without you, but now that I actually have to do it all without you by my side all the goodness feels hollow. I don’t know who to share myself with anymore. And I’m scared that there will never be anyone who could share this life like you could. You always saw the joy in everything, you made the best of all the worst days and my favourite memories are every mundane little moment driving in the car or sitting in the kitchen while you bustled around, or the countless games of Catan, or jumping into your bed for a few minutes just to say goodnight. You were the light in my life. And now everything just feels dark.
But not always. I know where to look for everyday happiness. I know how to cherish a moment and I’m working on holding space for hope every day. I’m gonna make all your Christmas cookies this year. I think I’ll save the Turkey Pot Pie Recipe for next year when I have a little more practice cooking big meals. I don’t think I will ever be able to eat a bacon and tomato sandwich without thinking of you. Though I’m rarely not thinking of you already. And I know what my goals are and they will be easy to hold onto, because all I want in this life is a million stories to tell you when we can finally be together again. I want to live. As fully and fiercely as possible. I want to see everything and have as many adventures as I can for both of us. You would be retiring soon and all I wanted to do was take you everywhere. It’s going to be a really long life without you but I want to find the joy like you did and make the most of every day.
The love never fades. Even though you’re gone from me physically I know the love is still the same. I know you’re still proud of me and I know you feel it every time I think of you, or use your recipes or live my life as boldly as you always taught me. Whenever I’m lonely I know you’re here, and whenever I’m scared I know you’ve got my back. I’ll love you forever and I miss you every day.
xoxo
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Physical therapy helped In pain relief, Improve your balance and prevent falls, Avoid surgery, improve mobility, Recover from a stroke, Recover from or prevent a sports injury, Manage diabetes and vascular conditions , Manage age-related issues Etc.