#thisisntapoem

[musicalnoteschambersession]

I can’t believe I fell in love with a blurry picture

can’t believe I fell in love with text on a screen

Can’t believe I fell in love

what an idiot I am

I’m so embarrassed

sometimes I think I don’t deserve to learn from love

learning from love is to learn from the pain of its absence, of its abundance, of its presence

I’m so much

aw man

[quintential]

Darling, I am sick to the teeth

of waking up and being ,,,,

nothing.

i will blend in with the crowd.

i do the dishes and oil my hair.

i put clean clothes on everyday

the blues of a dentist's wall and the greens of dried leaves,

black that's been washed too many times,

brown.

i brush my teeth and eat 3 meals a day.

i drink milkshakes and eat sliced tomatoes

and i have belly fat,

and smoke cigarettes on my balcony.

i go to the gym and think too much about the people next to me and whether or not i'd welcome their advances

i masturbate in the bath and always feel shitty the moment i come.

i make plans and talk to strangers and spend 10 dollars on coffee

drive too fast and always am scared i left the garage door open, even though i close it everytime.

i miss being less,

and i dream of being more,

and in the middle i lay, in the middle i will braid grass into my blanket and look at the sky, at the stars i cannot see because there are clouds, and

i live in a city.

i think about writing all the time, you know. I think of it when i have these empty pockets in my day, and almost never do. And when I finish writing, i get sad. well, sad-der, really.

darling, i am lonely and only you can fix it, will you hold my face and kiss my forehead and squeeze my body to yours?

i'll pretend it happens every night to fall asleep, and you will never meet me. How nice.

[itsjustfunpj]

This Isn't A Poem, It's Real Life

Why should I expect you to pick me? I was never more than a friend to you. When you needed someone, anyone, I was there for you. When you needed a laugh, My cliché jokes were there for you. When you needed a kiss, My lips were there for you. When you wanted affection, My hands were there for you. But I could tell from the look in your eyes That I was never going to be more than A friend. When our eyes would meet I could tell that You weren't looking at me, You were looking for him in me. When we kissed I could feel you searching For his taste. So why should I expect you to pick me? I was never what you were looking for. I was just a quick fix of the attention you wanted. I shouldn't of expected anything from you, And I tried my best not to, But you have this thing about you, This thing where you make my heart skip multiple beats, This thing where you make my stomach flutter, This thing that makes me want to enter your world just to be spit back into this shit-hole of a world. So maybe it was my fault. I chose the things that I knew wouldn't happen. But fuck. You're worth every try.

[poemsbysmm]