#time loss

[ottopilot-wrote-this]

"I have been wanting to check out this new hypno file <sends link>"

...

"It was good. Just really short."

"Are you sure? That was four hours ago."

[turtledragon55]

"small talk"

I just don’t want to be alone anymore

But I’ve been empty for so long I can barely remember what it’s like to pretend to be human

The only thing that feels real is people— the right people, the right interactions

I want nothing more than to make someone smile And yet I have no words I never know how to speak

I only know the things I’m not supposed to say, and they’re the only thoughts swimming in this all too crowded mind

So I can’t contribute to basic conversation Can’t introduce myself or be social or funny

I can’t tell you how my day was or what I’ve been up to this week, because I genuinely can’t remember

There are times when I have no idea where I am or how I got somewhere

Sometimes weeks go by and I don’t notice that time has passed at all

I’m sorry I don’t know how to be casual and collected

I can’t even remember my hobbies or my age Sometimes it takes me a second to remember my own name

I don’t know what year it is, nothing really makes sense

I just know you feel good and I don’t want to let go

[skycorde]

i should write f1 au skycrab and just have him be some like insane wec driver who could have been an f1 driver and had like half the grid off him a seat when he was in f2 but didnt cause he really enjoys endurance racing and doesn't like single seaters. but then he decides oh well i'll try an f1 season, see how it goes, he shows up and takes like 2 races to adjust and then dominates a few races and pulls off some insane manoeuvres and overtakes all while giving zero fucks and occasionally vanishing to compete in yet another wec race that clashes with an f1 race. his teammate hates him and honestly so does his team principal and all the team members that aren't blinded by the sheer amount of aura but they can't fire him because he's so good when he does race. then near the end of the season it clicks in his head that 'oh shit i could win this' and he tries to lock in but then he chokes because the nerves get to him since he's never put himself under this sort of pressure before since maybe in wec he never does the last stint so he's never been in a situation like this and he fumbles and then retires to build a house and becomes a minecraft speedrunner and wins ranked playoffs first try and then never participates again and just runs rsg forever and then gets wr! the end!

[athinkfishhad]

Having unknown medical problems can be stressful and annoying, especially when you're in your 20s, and all a random gp thinks about is that you are drug seeking. I went to a doctor last year and told them about my memory gap and how sometimes I dont feel real and my opinion on things change drastically to a point where I get scared of myself. Only to be told that it sounds stressful, but they were not gonna do anything other than tell me to refer myself(note that doctor was also part of the same clinic) to someone who they garunte probably won't give me any mood drugs either.

I never mentioned drugs or medicine I asked for support or what I should do. Note that this gp had only just met me, seen me for 20 minutes, and that was that. It's also not the first time at that gp surgery I've had a doctor dismiss my fear, I've also had a doctor ask me to continue taking medication that landed me in a&e and not even give a reason.

I've changed my GP surgery now, plus have started having someone come in with me to my apointments, and after telling them about my memory loss, I've had a CT scan and likely will be having an MRI. It's just distressing to me that there might be something wrong, and the first person I confided in did not seem to care. It's distressing that I know this will happen again and has happened before. Why does my Gp or doctor not believe me? I should not have to fight for my right to be given the treatment I need.

[crayoncubbie]

I feel like im losing more and more time. Years of my life just gone. Completely blank. I can barley remember most of this year let alone last year. Memories of childhood I held so deeply, so full of anger and hate, just gone. Poof. Memories Ive shared with my old therapist are now fading and blurry. My memory is turning on me. Time is slipping through my fingers. But its ok, I think its best if I dont remember anyways.

Um yeah idk if you guys can tell by my recent post but im not doing so well today. But my mood and mindset changes like crazy so ill be fine in like 2 days top...trust

[unwelcome-ozian]

[kanades-cup-noodles]

grieving lost time.

[neonspectrumdreams]

Do any other systems accidentally come across posts from their account written by an alter and then go to like it because you don't recognize or remember having written the post at all LOL