#to reflect

[ask-cupbros-parents]

I feel like my mind has been messed up lately, something is off with this AU, so I use the slides to organize my thoughts.

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Long story short, the plot I was planning to do is lost track, so after I answer one more ask, I will take time to reschedule my story & order. And restart the ask box.

[finallydelight]

if anyone asks… no, I am not alive.

[gottlem]

sometimes i think about everything ive been thru and then im like .... damn im kinda strong huh

[passitonandon]

DAY THREE

just write. day & night. until early light. since early light is where I will find where mind & body meet. That transition place where sleep dissipates & waking occurs. This is when the body turns ON & ALIVE & this was too much to bear. 

To be alive

To be on

To be open

To exist

What is the purpose of any of it?

To leave the world “better” than before

To leave a person “better” than before

To create life

Not War 

[ghostcat3000]

provenance replied to your post “provenance replied to your post: moment to process that The King stars...”

Also, I dunno if this has been discussed but this is such an interesting move/project choice for Timmy post-Oscars.

I think it’s very, very smart. 

Role-wise, Prince Hal/Henry V goes on an enormous journey of the self; from youth to adulthood, slackerdom to responsibility, follower to leader. He learns that the power he rebels against isn’t something he’s ill-suited for or unworthy of--he’s afraid. And he’s not wrong to be afraid. In the course of the story he learns what is true about himself, who he really is, who are the right and wrong people to emulate, and how to assume the mantle. If you’re a young actor in your early twenties known primarily for teenage roles, it’s ideal because it’s all about that transition. You start out drinking and partying with drunks, thieves and prostitutes and generally being a disappointment and end up leading an army in a decisive battle, romancing and winning a princess and becoming king. It’s the mother of coming-of-age stories, in that it definitely closes the door on them.

The perks of a Netflix movie are great: by being on Netflix lots and lots of people will see it, both in and out of the business*. Perhaps most importantly, you are not dependent on box office for success but views. Netflix’s Iron Fist got ripped to shred by critics BUT it had great viewership numbers so by their metric it was a success. As far as first billing goes, it’s a much softer place to start than a film going out to theaters.

*I’m recalling the Variety interview Chalamet did with Daniel Kaluyaa where the latter mentions that he only started getting offers in the U.S. after Black Mirror premiered on Netflix--a show he’d filmed two years prior--because lots of people watch Netflix so it’s not just about the creatives but also regular non-industry folks who now know your face.

[blueboyluca]

Angry Boys pt. 2

I’ve actually been to two classes since I last posted, one last Wednesday and one last night.

Last Wednesday we added a couple of tools to the arsenal: Fenzi’s two-treat method and touch. Luca knows touch already, so I just practised that and added a moving target. I don’t find it’s very effective with Luca’s brand of reactivity because it requires a lot of focus and when he’s anxious he needs easier moves, like sit and ‘watch me’. But I will try it out.

The two-treat method is great because it’s a quick and positive way to move the reactive dog away from the trigger. If you are still below threshold and get a look back, treat that and move backwards immediately for the second treat. I find this works really well.

During that class we also introduced distractions. My instructor placed down some stuffed dogs near our areas to practise being calm. I did not think Luca would care about this, but I was shocked that he cared a lot. So I was unprepared for that and he reacted to a stuffed toy. I also didn’t feel like I was getting a lot of direction on how to deal with the toy at first and I confused myself by allowing Luca to get close to it and realise it was not a real dog. So yeah that was kind of botched.

Between that class and last night I had barely any time to practise. The day after class I was on a shoot for 12 hours and did no training when I got home at 9pm. Friday I took Luca to the beach with his friends instead of doing a reactivity session walk, because we both needed a breather. Saturday morning I was busy doing things before I worked another 9 hour shift at a music festival, which meant by Sunday I was so tired and lazy I did nothing until a leashed walk in the evening. My hands-free leash had arrived, so I took that out hoping to test it out on other dogs. The reason I got it is to eliminate any tension I might be adding to the leash inadvertently. We didn’t actually pass any dogs though, so I didn’t get to really see if it made any difference (probably wouldn’t have anyway because Luca was still getting used to it).

So! By Monday I arrived to class and admitted I had done no practise at all. But the class went surprisingly well. We brought them in one by one as usual, passing by the people and rewarding for no reaction. Luca is not people reactive in the slightest, so he was fine there, but I still felt awkward “performing” in front of everyone, I suppose.

We added a new tool to the belt last night too: go sniff. This is essentially the method of tossing treats on the ground so the dog has to sniff and find them, then slowly adding a cue with the goal later being that you can just say the cue and have the dog sniff around regardless of treats. My cue for this is “sniff sniff” because I already use “go” in a different cue, but “sniff sniff” is surprisingly difficult to say consistently! It’s almost a tongue twister. I thought about using a cue he already has which is “What’s this?” but that really means “I have a treat for you” when “sniff sniff” is supposed to just mean “go sniff”. Anyway so I’ll be practising that one.

The biggest success of last night though was that we took the leap and worked out where the threshold is exactly for each dog. We did this by having one dog at one end of the building, focused on its owner with its back to the room. Then the other dog would be led slowly toward the trigger and rewarded for calm behaviour. This was an exercise I’d been wanting to do for a long time and this controlled environment was perfect. On his first go, Luca reached his threshold at around 10m, but he was never actually completely over because his bounce-back time has improved dramatically. I was able to lead him away, reward him and try again a little while later. He got within 2m of another dog without a reaction! I was so proud. He did so good.

Apart from general improvement, I think a big part of last night’s success was due to the rewards I had. I had bacon on me last night and while he probably ate too much overall, his interest in the reward was always greater than his interest in the triggers. So that really confirmed for me that I have to have really good rewards at this stage and I’d been skimping and expecting better results. That’s one of the key things I’ve got from BAT 2.0 so far (gosh I’m behind on reading it. I haven’t passed chapter 4 yet, I’ve been so busy): We want our dogs to change their behaviour without changing our behaviour or their environment. I can’t go around expecting Luca to just be better, I have to be better first.

[otaku-hotgirl]

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