#tos kirk

[vulcandog]

having is not so pleasing a thing, after all, as wanting

[ismellvinegarandfries]

Solar eclipse this, solar eclipse that. What you're actually witnessing is literally just Spock passing by the Captain verrry slowly.

[ismellvinegarandfries]

A long tangent about Kirk's Nexus in Generations since I just finished the movie.

I took a break from watching anything Star Trek related and haven't rewatched TOS yet like I planned to because of how busy I was. So excuse me for not connecting any dots or providing examples in this tangent.

When they showed Kirk's vision of a place where he wants to be (in the Nexus), three things came to mind.

First was that it could've been the very place where Spock, McCoy and Kirk had their shore leave in TFF. The cabin is vacation house that the three of them invested in, but that doesn't seem to be the happiest place he could be in so I scratched that out.

Second was that this was a childhood memory, a trip or a moment in some random Sunday morning that Kirk has been longing for. His family is well and alive and they all get to see each other grow old, to him it's another beautiful day of taking a leave and chopping firewood for tomorrow.

But that lacks something still.

Third assumption. Perhaps this could be Kirk's idea of retirement, will he have kids like Picard? Is he really alone?

The scene finally lays itself out and we are introduced to Antonia and I find myself conflicted. Sure, Kirk isn't so blessed in the relationship department. This vision still lacks something to portray the weight of what is it that Kirk desires, something simpler and I can't put my finger on it.

Originally, he wanted to go back to Starfleet and it crushed his relationship with Antonia. The next scene shows him entering the room where Antonia is supposed to be but she isn't, it quickly becomes apparent to me that Kirk will always choose the other option.

I can't speak for the character himself (and the numerous beta canon stuff that could've trumped my tangent), but Kirk's idea of retirement is similar to a respondent who's just waiting for a call, a call that's desperate to get him on board. Maybe, his Nexus could've been getting one last call, for a mission, a duty, or anything that will put him back in command.

Then with Picard by his side while they are in a ship or in a scene where Kirk gets a call, he finally remembers the day he presumably died.

No snarky jokes, nothing lighthearted comes out of Jim, unlike the original scene.

He has been gone for 80 years and cold sweat and a pit in his stomach swallows him whole. He needs to get back, to have a proper death, after all he could die alone back home or surrounded by those who are the closest to him.

And that's all I can say and think of as I look at my screen with a frown on my face when I saw the ending. I know not all deaths need to be grand, I know Kirk has been implied to be dead so that's his fate the moment he left Nexus, but it could've been so much more for Kirk's character and send off.

Oh, well, it is what it is and I'm just going to lie down and stare at the ceiling at how Spock and the rest who are still alive 80 years after might've felt.

I also wanted to get this out of my chest because I believe Kirk could've had one last laugh at death's face before facing it.

[beeblesqueeble]

ji(zz)m ref sheet 🤤

AGAIN PEAK ASF

[ismellvinegarandfries]

Okay wait, it's either Kirk got his hair professionally straightened out during his younger days so it poofed back up naturally when he didn't care anymore when he became Admiral OR he decided to get a perm, why? I don't know what goes on in a diva's mind to be honest with you.

[ismellvinegarandfries]

Kirk likes to hum songs and dance along a tune, he hasn't been caught yet or at least he doesn't know it yet (Spock and Janice both backed away in different instances, his live performance with a hair comb as mic was too fascinating to disrupt.)

[ismellvinegarandfries]

Oh Kirk looks soft to you? Think again, when the Captain goes in for a hug, best believe it feels like a hydraulic press made up of pure solid muscle.

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Thinking about who would be the best cook among the triumvirate.

Spock is precise, so the food tastes how it exactly looks but he knows how to present and add some color to it to entice you. 8/10, healthy and would probably set your body's clinical chemistry values to perfect levels. If he feels like it he knows how to make a good batch of sweet treats.

Kirk, oh boy, it's either he makes you a hefty meal or a rushed BUT filling meal. 7/10 for presentation, he likes drawing flowers on his omelettes with ketchup. In fact, he even arranges his garnish to look like flowers.

McCoy, for someone who talks a lot about diet and nutrition this man eats meals that can give you an indigestion. He knows how to cook, but get ready to get heartburn and food coma. 9/10 the first bite feels like home, the second sends you to heaven.