life has never been easy, but you make it all worth it
i’ve been searching for someone all my life to love me. after every broken relationship, my expectations changed. my standards and what i was look for in someone changed. i never ever thought i would find anyone who would be everything that i’ve needed. and then you walked into my life. you walked into my life and you opened my eyes. you opened my eyes and my heart. from the moment i started talking to you, i knew you were the one. i just didn’t know how to tell you. i stalked your instagram for the first few days and i would just admire how cute you were. i could feel it in my soul that you’d be the one i was gonna love for the rest of my life. the first night that i started flirting with you, you didn’t catch on. but you were so sweet to me. you always cared about my feelings. you listened to me rant. you helped me heal. you took my broken heart in your hands and you had your needle and thread ready and you slowly sewed me back together. i fell in love with you so quickly. how could anyone not? your presence makes me want to get better. you make me want to be healthy. i want to change for you. i’ve had such bad urges to relapse and you’re the only thing that keeps me strong. you keep me going. i was different before you. i was really really bad in relationships. and although i can’t say that i’m perfect now, i’ve improved. i’ve changed in the best of ways. i’ve changed my entire mindset to be with you, without even trying. and i didn’t realize it until recently. in 87 days, i’ll be moving across the country to be with you. it kind of blows my mind. i never thought i would leave arizona. i never thought i would buy a plane ticket. when we first met, i didn’t even think that i would ever fly out there. not in moving there. in less than 3 months, to spend the rest of my life with you. it’s so crazy to me. it’s so fucking crazy. you’re always telling me how handsome i am. it’s made me love myself. for the first time ever, i actually really love myself. it blows my mind. it’s weird to look at pictures of myself and. actually think i’m cute. but i do now. because of you. you calm me down. you slow my heart. you take the anger out of me. you make me smile. you give me butterflies. you give me chills. you make my heart race. i love you. i can’t wait to go home. i can’t wait to be in your arms. i can’t wait to give you everything that you deserve to be given. i can’t wait to spoil you. thank you for loving me. i know that it’s not always easy. i know that i say stupid things. i know that i get on your nerves. i promise that i don’t mean to. i just don’t have a filter sometimes. but i’m glad you stick around. i’m glad you put up with me. i can’t believe we’ve been together a month. i know it isn’t a big thing for you but it’s a big thing for me. and i’m excited. i’m excited that we’ve made it through a month so quickly. it makes me feel like the next three will go by in a flash. i love you so much my king. i don’t know where i would be without you right now. you are my rock. you are my sun. you are my moon. you are my present. you are my future. you are my soulmate. you are my love. please never forget or question how much i love you. i promise it’s more than you’ll ever be able to fathom. te quiero mucho mi rey 💖😘
