It's been almost a year since I've seen my Mom. Which also includes, her not seeing her grandson for almost a year. What really stings is that I'm not the only one who got pregnant around this time. Two other sisters of mine, got pregnant too. Tessa, my step sister lives in AZ, so seeing her is far & few between. She comes & visits a lot, which is really nice.
My main point is, my little sister Sidney, who shares the same set of parents, had her baby Riley, 2 short months after Kai. My Mom sees her out in Corvallis all the time, which is a much further drive for her than to see me & also sees my other sister, in Beaverton, which is an even FURTHER drive. All to spend time with them & their kiddos. But what about me? What about Kai?
We used to even live in Beaverton and she, my Mom, would come every weekend to see my sister, PASSING my house and still not willing to see me.
This pettiness is ridiculous. If you had told me that it would be this way with my own Mom at 27, I wouldn't have believed you.
If you told me 3 years ago that I would be married to my best friend, my muse, my inspiration, the person who gets under my skin the most & wakes me up at the core -- I would have laughed & reminded you that I was never going to get married.
If you had then said I would have a son & that he would mean absolutely everything to me, I might have laughed in your face, maybe even out loud. KID? That wasnt in the books for me. I would never find someone I trusted enough to even contemplate the idea.
But here I am, waking up to the loves of my life. My husband wrapped around me, my 10 month old crawling all over me with nothing but a huge smile on his face & our dog, curled up behind me or at our feet, with gentle kisses. Despite all the hard moments, these are the ones to really live for.
So what's my point? That this quote is undeniably true for me. There are people, including blood, that just arent worth my time. That negative energy, that conditional love is not for my son & he deserves way more.
The point is, my TRUE family surrounded me this morning reminding me of all the reasons why it's worth it, why I'm worth it, and why life is just damn beautiful.
