#trauma ig

[sins-of-sodom]

i worry about posting things im serious about on this blog but honestly it should not be shocking to anyone that a woman at these many intersections would have experienced so much trauma that this is how she would present publicly. am i not a palatable enough speaker for you? im sorry. that is unfortunately what years of physical, emotional and sexual child abuse, bullying, child sex trafficking, brainwashing, mind-breaking, religious abuse, torture, rape, enslavement, grooming, domestic violence/intimate partner violence, harassment, disability, illness, isolation, exclusion and constant unfiltered oppression will do to you. i will not be a good little mutt for you and constantly speak like im writing a novel or not express my weird fucking emotions and expressions because a lot of them come from this bullshit. if you don't want to hear it then DO something and stop people like me from experiencing it.

[viviyapsaboutlife]

Like dang guys you can laugh istg

[cadencesys]

Bad decision making 101:

text the person who hurt you so badly that you couldn’t handle touch for months and still barely can and made you have p@nic attacks and g@sl1ghted you into thinking that what she did to you was your fault

[ribbitflings]

everything someone would want their partner doing to them for affection (such as hugging, hair grooming/petting, light touch) is something i do to myself and no one else is allowed to do it

i fucking hate being touched and my hair being messed with but i just caught myself petting my own hair. i hug myself or my pillow, sometimes i wake myself up lightly touching my own arm.

i have a partner and most people like their partners doing that, but i cant even bring myself to hug or kiss them at all, much less doing that. i always end up feeling trapped or crowded or start overheating and i hate it, but why do i do those things to myself and i cant simply translate that over to my partner

[angelbvn]

my head is killing me.

[possibly-emu]

Anyone hhave any advice on how to move on from a toxic friendship?

I got out of a really bad and toxic friendship almost a year ago and im trying to forgive them because I dont want to hold on to hate. Things ended badly and I really just want to feel better but idk how. Every time I see them I get so mad and can't just forgive them. If anyone has any advice i'd really appreciate it because I just am finding it so hard to forgive them for hurting me.

(Also PS i see them almost all week every week)

[didwho]

sometimes a little part of me, or someone in my head, despises the mentally ill!

despises ourselves and the things other mentally ill people have pushed upon us and the things theyve made us feel

even if it was our own fault we were in that situation.

we dont truly hate mentally ill people, but sometimes thats how the despair manifests. sometimes we wanna scream and cry, point fingers at others and just be angry!

but it sucks to have that emotion, yknow? “god i fucking hate them, i hate them so fucking much, theyre disgusting”, yet i dont really feel that way.

we dont have the right to feel that way because we’re the exact same that we supposedly hate! i dunno

i dont hate us, or them, but i wonder what my life wouldve been like if i didnt meet the people i had met.

[starf4wn]

I checked yestarday the instagram of one of my classmates I haven't seen since 2019 and SHE GOT THE FUCKING BIGGEST GLOW UP??? IT TOOK ME 15 MINUTES TO KNOW IT WAS HER