#endo supportive

[otaku-kin]

Tf you mean google.

[pkmn-trainer-yellow]

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︵ 🌸 Yellow ⥌

 ✱ she/he/they • fictive + trauma holder maybe

  ⋆   Nonbinary 🤍 Unsure on sexuality

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︵ 🌺 about me ⤾

 ✱ traumagenic sys ‣ Pokespe fictive

  ⋆ ♥ woods/photography

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︵ 🌷 interaction ✶

 ❘ random @'s: Sure

 ❘ dms: Open if bodily an adult

 ❘ discord reqs: Ask in PM

 ⇂  sourcemates: Sure

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︵ 🪷 do not interact ✧

 ❘ syscourse (I support any origin, anyone can int if you're not here to argue though)

 ❘ radqueer/transID

 ❘ pro-israel

 ❘ nsfw blogs

 ⇂  Under 18 just don't PM, you can follow

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> ⟲ " I cradle the disconnection between my past and my present "

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🎨 Pfp by @leminaus, template by @symbiote-templates

I haven't touched my source in awhile, so I don't remember it really.. but do plan to reread it.

[entesi]

A big thank you to our friends @fatepek for doing such a gorgeous commission of Van and I ❤️

[didwho]

so bold of so many anti-endo systems to both assume that i do this for haha funsies, feeling silly rn!!! and that most of us make prosecutors out to be shit people.

1. why would i do this for funny haha? for attention on a dumb fucking app that isnt even truly RELEVANT? yeah because i genuinely LOVE having to hold in accents and mimic the personality of another headmate that mades friends with a singlet and doesnt know we’re multiple fucking people. its so fun having one of our ‘bad’ prosecutors pick a fight, and struggle to get them to fucking stop! it’s TOTALLY normal to be arguing and have voices in your head screaming at you to stop, pleading, pushing you to the ground and holding you down while someone fixes the mess you just fucking made. yes let me intentionally put myself through suffering and constant ‘mood swings’ for hehehaha funny.

2. man! wow! i dont think prosecutors are bad people. i understand why they exist, especially mine. i understand where they stemmed from and why they feel their actions and feelings are important, but that doesn’t mean i like them! mine personally, that is. i understand where they come from and i empathize heavily with them, but they have ruined my life before! im allowed to be a bit bitter towards them! i know the things they do and they way they react is not intentional and i dont think theyre bad people! just frustrating to handle, and in need of help!

im sorry for so many rants tonight, just,, upset! upset ive had people in my own head ruin my own fucking life, and that people say “no, thats not true!”.

[didwho]

sometimes a little part of me, or someone in my head, despises the mentally ill!

despises ourselves and the things other mentally ill people have pushed upon us and the things theyve made us feel

even if it was our own fault we were in that situation.

we dont truly hate mentally ill people, but sometimes thats how the despair manifests. sometimes we wanna scream and cry, point fingers at others and just be angry!

but it sucks to have that emotion, yknow? “god i fucking hate them, i hate them so fucking much, theyre disgusting”, yet i dont really feel that way.

we dont have the right to feel that way because we’re the exact same that we supposedly hate! i dunno

i dont hate us, or them, but i wonder what my life wouldve been like if i didnt meet the people i had met.