#traumatizedrhys

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some random ignorant asshole: “you know you need to forgive your dad one day, he IS your dad after all”

me: *starts ravenously biting and beating the shit out of that person*

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i find it sad that i’m more traumatized than i can remember

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i feel like there’s a lot of pity and shame about having divorced parents. like people will say they’re sorry and shit like that, and like, okay, i get it, you don’t know what’s going on with that, but also at the same time, i always get so angry and shit like that.

like no, it’s not something to be sorry about that. this was NEEDED. it’s a GOOD thing they’re divorced.

so, this goes out to the kids with divorced parents who are sick and tired of getting pitying looks, non-understanding sympathizers, and other shit like that, and are fucking grateful and happy that they have divorced parents.

yall are valid and not cruel for hating the parent that left. yall are valid and not cruel for not missing all the goddamn fights every day. yall are valid and not cruel for being happy that you don’t have to live in constant fight-or-flight anymore. yall are valid and not cruel for being so grateful that they got divorced and now you can live a lot more easily. yall are valid and not cruel that you’re happy the bad parent left and now you can grow your bond with the good one some more finally. yall are valid and not cruel for having a bucket load of anger and hate towards the one that left. yall are valid and not cruel for not regretting they left or not missing them at all. yall are valid and not cruel whatsoever.

and i’m proud of yall. yall are doing a damn good job. and your feelings are entirely valid. <3

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‼️‼️[TW: sewerslide mention]‼️‼️

not my ex pressuring me into trying to attempt su!c!d3 with him, because then we would “be together forever in the afterlife”

😐 like bruh wtf

(this was a while ago, my ex is very much out of my life and has been for months now, i am doing a lot better now and am on my way to better days too, no worries anymore, this is just something i think about and am astonished by and also laugh at [to cope])

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when the fighting and lies start again<<<<<<<<

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@shiftingwithmars mars i feel like you would have some things to say if you heard all the shit my ex boyfriend had put me through 😔

(it’s late for me, so i’m just laughing my ass off at the idea of your reaction to it all)(my ex traumatized me and gave me some of my ptsd 😔)(just so you know, i’m NOT talking about @/thesunnishboy, ze and i are still very much together and he has not traumatized me whatsoever)

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i feel for people with BPD.

i don’t have BPD, i know that for sure, but i’ve showed a lot of the symptoms/signs of it before.

when i was with my (traumatizing) ex, i was so for sure that i had BPD, because of just how many signs/symptoms i showed during that time (and back then, i didn’t have as much knowledge as i do now, so i didn’t realize it was due to my ex being so traumatizing). literally every experience of a person with BPD, i could relate to it. even now, when i look back at those times, and when i see things about BPD, i know i once did relate and i can feel it in my soul.

i remember how extreme i was. how attached i was. how overwhelming everything felt. how much every day was a struggle against my mind and others. and more. and it was the worst time of my life and it went on for so long, too.

so i feel for those with BPD, because that’s their daily life for them. that’s how they are 24/7, and yes, sometimes they can “get better” and go into remission, but that’s not guaranteed. that’s not for everyone.

and i know a little bit just how overwhelming, saddening, and painful that can be.

i wanna say i’m proud of all those who have BPD. y’all are doing a good job, and you’re lovable as hell. not everyone hates you, your favorite person doesn’t hate you, and you’re amazing. take a minute to look just how many things you accomplished today or of late, even if that’s just continuing to breathe. you’re doing an awesome job. 🫶