The Silly Turned Into Mental Illnesses

🐚Hi there, fellow Neurodivergent!🐚 🌙Welcome to my brain.🌙 🍄‍🟫I'm Rhysand, also called Rhys.🍄‍🟫 🪲I'm a very much Neurodivergent queer guy, and this blog is for my neurodivergency and my special interest in it!🪲 💫Hope this can be a safe space for you too, and have an awesome day!💫

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

♬⃝ Introduction Post ♬⃝

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Hi there, Neurodivergent! I’m Rhysand (pronounced Reese-Sund), also called Rhys (pronounced Reese). I’m a Queer, Nonhuman, and Reality Shifting Neurodivergent. This blog was made for my Neurodivergency, my special interests and my hyperfixations, and everything else to do with my neurodivergency. There will be positive posts, silly posts, relatable posts, negative posts, and more here.

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About Me

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Neurodivergency

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I’m undiagnosed AuDHD (Autism + ADHD), ARFID (Avoidant/Restrictive Food Intake Disorder), APD (Auditory Processing Disorder), SPD (Sensory Processing Disorder), and Pure O OCD (“Purely Obsessional” Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), medically recognized (but undiagnosed) PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) and SAD (Social Anxiety Disorder), and diagnosed MDD (Major Depressive Disorder) and GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder).

I’m also undiagnosed BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder), Trichotillomania (hair pulling/picking disorder), Excoriation Disorder (skin picking disorder), and Misophonia.

I’m undiagnosed PMDD (Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder) and/or PME (Premenstrual Exacerbation), and hopefully soon can be diagnosed.

Questioning POTS, HSD or EDS/hEDS. (NOT claiming to have this or self-diagnosed as of yet, I am still doing research, but I do have lots of signs that point to these things.)

My special interests are Wings Of Fire, Harry Potter, Dragons in general, and Neurodivergency.

I have no current hyperfixations that I’ve noticed, and I’m extremely low on dopamine because of it. /silly /srs

I have verbal shutdowns, shutdowns and meltdowns in general, I mask without realizing it a lot, and I’m usually in burnout. I also have severe imposter syndrome that I deal with literally 24/7.

Tone tags are very much appreciated when talking to me, so PLEASE use them! If you aren’t sure what they are or what they mean or how to use them, please just ask and I will happily let you know! <3 /gen

I used to cope by using maladaptive daydreaming, so I relate a lot to maladaptive daydreamers a lot.

I struggle with violent and horrible intrusive thoughts (due to my OCD) and have for years now since I was a kid.

I have lots of trauma, both remembered and not remembered, so beware.

I’m a SI and SH survivor and in recovery.

Little banner my friend ( @/lavenderkittycat ) made me:

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Queerness

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I’m a bit of a gender hoarder, but I don’t use that as my label. I usually call myself a Genderfluid Genderflux Non-Binary TransGuy, but just think of me as a mash of all the genders I experience.

Currently, I don’t know what gender I’m feeling.

I use He/It/They/Xe/Ne/Ze/Love/Wolf/Star/Moon/🌙/Sun pronouns + any/all neopronouns, nounself pronouns, xenopronouns, and emojiself pronouns. Basically, everything EXCEPT She/Her.

I’m AroAce, Aromantic and Myrsexual (Neuroasexual, Nebulasexual, Dreadsexual, Acorsexual, Apothisexual, Falsaesthsexual, Bellussexual, Rosesexual, Requiesexual, Placiosexual, and Merosexual), and I’m Homoalterous, Omniqueerplatonic, Panexteramo, Pansensual, and Panaesthetic.

I’m Ambiamorous with no preference.

I’m also a Lesboy and T4T-leaning.

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Nonhumanity

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I’m a Polytherian, Otherkin, Otherfix, Otherhearted, and a Fictionflicker.

I have a Vancouver Coastal Sea Wolf Theriotype, a Red Fox Theriotype, Nurse Shark Theriotype, Snow Leopard, Norwegian Forest Cat, Maned Wolf Theriotype, Coyote Theriotype, Side-Striped Jackal Theriotype, and a Canada Lynx Theriotype.

I have a Fiction Kintype (Dark Fey, Forest Type, from the Maleficent movies), a Dragon Kintype (SeaWing/SilkWing hybrid), another Dragon Kintype (Night-Light Fury hybrid), Angel, Silver Fox, Avian (humanoid with wings and tail) and a Raccoon.

I’ve had Fictotypes for Hylian, an OC species of mine, Orphinki, Sable, and Owl (all).

I have a Whale Shark Hearttype.

I’m transspecies, humanfluid, pseudohuman, sunnonhuman, and voidpunk.

I fluctuate between Nonhuman and Human, although am always on some level both, just other times are stronger for one and the other not so much, but I refer to myself overall as just Nonhuman. My soul is a combination of human and nonhuman.

All of my Nonhumanity is due to a combination of Past Lives, Fate, and Neurodivergency. I believe I was all my ‘types in past lives, and only found out about it in this life due to my neurodivergency.

I’ve been awakened for only a few months now. I want gear, but I don’t have any right now. I’m making my own wings currently, and I hope to have them done soon if my ADHD brain will allow me.

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Reality Shifting

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I’m a Reality Shifter, which means I move my consciousness from one reality into another one.

I do believe in the multiverse.

I’ve known about reality shifting since around 2020 or 2021, and started my journey then.

I spent a lot of my time trying to shift, even though I didn’t have the proper mindset or knowledge to shift.

I took a huge break after trying for only a month or so, only trying to shift occasionally.

I’ve come back to it in 2024 after finding shiftblr, having more knowledge, a better mindset, and more motivation.

I’ve shifted once to a parallel reality, where I relived/redid a day.

I have way too many DRs to count, and I’m thinking about permashifting to my Better CR DR.

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Links

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@rhysandshiftingthespectrum - My account for my experience with Neurodivergent Reality Shifting, pretty active on there

@neurodivergentshiftingcultureis - My ask account for Neurodivergent Shifting Culture, pretty active on there

@theverynothumankai - My main Nonhuman account for everything Nonhuman, active

@malakaitheyappingwolf - My account for my Vancouver Coastal Sea Wolf theriotype, active

My Tagging System

My Queer Labels

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Other

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I’m taken by my amazing boyfriend ( @itssiryapsalot ), and he’s also neurodivergent, nonhuman, queer, and a reality shifter! (And a lot more, too!)

I’m Agnostic, slightly spiritual, and very respectful and interested in others’ religions. (Although, I do have negative experiences/trauma with Christian and God/Jesus Christ focused religions, and if your blog is heavy with that, I would prefer if you didn’t interact with me! Thank you!)

I’m celiac, have a dairy intolerance, have a dust allergy, pollen allergies, and probably some more that we aren’t too sure about yet! Basically, my nose is constantly stuffy and I have to be careful what I eat.

I have a few hobbies that I’m learning to be involved in again, because they make me happy and I’ve kinda lost touch with them. They are: drawing, writing, painting, coloring, reading, and more.

I stand with Palestine.

I’m pro non-offending p@raph!les and etc., who are in recovery/getting help.

I love receiving and answering asks, so always feel free/unafraid to send one in for infodumping, questions, or anything else! <3 /gen /pos

Let it be known that any and all kinds of neurodivergents are welcome here. Diagnosed, undiagnosed, self-diagnosed (with lots of research, of course). Autistic, ADHD, ANY kind of personality disorder, ANY cluster A disorders, ANY cluster B disorders, ANY cluster C disorders, ANY other unspecified personality disorders, ANY kind of any disorder, those with anxiety, those with depression, ANY AND ALL OF YA!

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DNI

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(I’ve just copied this from my other account’s DNI list and pasted it here, so that’s why there isn’t much/any difference to it.)

Any queerphobes (including those against intersex, mspec lesbians and gays, lesboys, turigirls, gaybians, etc., just basically any contradictory label), Radqueers, TERFs, SWERFs, racists, sexists, proshippers, those who sexualize age-regressors and pet-regressors, ableists (including those who demonize personality disorders), those against physical alterhumans, those against furries, offending MAPs and P@raph!les + supporters, pro-ED, pro-SH, pro-SI, those who romanticize any sort of mental illness, neurodivergency, and/or disability, anti-shifters, those against permashifters, respawners, and race-changers, those against endogenic/non-traumagenic/etc. or mixed origins or unknown origins systems, those against people who self-diagnose after research/with research, those against Palestine, those who’s blogs are Christian or God/Jesus Christ themed heavy (nothing against y’all, just have trauma with it), those who directly send NSFW stuff towards me, those who can’t respect boundaries, JK Rowling supporters, and just about anybody else that makes me uncomfortable. I will block incredibly freely, so beware.

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[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

Hey how you doing?

hey Bee 😭 i’ve missed you tons <3 and i’m so sorry i haven’t been that active

life has gotten SO COO COO, and mental and physical health is just wonky as hell lately, i’m in the process of getting lots of things diagnosed, and figuring out so much about myself, so i’m stressed, depressed, exhausted as hell, all that jazz

i’m doing okay but also nottt 😭 progressing with things that i’ve been wanting for so long but also that comes with processing them and that is something i somehow never thought about happening

so to sum it all up, i’ve been alright, but also processing much more than anybody should be processing at once, and i’m missing you and everyone else sm

how you doing???

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

i have a doctors appointment tomorrow!! i’ll have to get another booster for something, but we’re mainly going there to figure out some stuff with my blood sugar (?suspecting diabetes? hypoglycemic? hyperglycemic? not sure yet, but there’s something there) and then also to figure out and/or diagnose what’s going on with me physically (suspecting hEDS or HSD and POTS) and then see if i can get physical therapy to help with all that.

i’m so excited, but also really nervous.

i have prepared folders about hEDS and HSD, and also POTS, and have all the info that i can have at this point about it. i have written down my symptoms, the criteria i have (i do meet the criteria for hEDS pretty much, i think, but if it turns out i’m wrong about some of it, then it’s likely HSD), so hopefully it goes smoothly and we can take another step in the direction of answers and possible diagnoses!

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

i talked to my doctor and everything, and they definitely think i’m on the right track.

we’re going to schedule an appointment with a cardiologist to check for POTS, and then also schedule with a metabolism ?center? or something to check for the hEDS/HSD.

i’m also going in for bloodwork to check for the diabetes/hyperglycemia/hypoglycemia (whichever it is, if it is any of that) tomorrow, and also going to get something to track my heart rate and/or blood pressure to help bring evidence for when i go to the cardiologist to diagnose the POTS.

eeee i’m so excited!!!

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

i have a doctors appointment tomorrow!! i’ll have to get another booster for something, but we’re mainly going there to figure out some stuff with my blood sugar (?suspecting diabetes? hypoglycemic? hyperglycemic? not sure yet, but there’s something there) and then also to figure out and/or diagnose what’s going on with me physically (suspecting hEDS or HSD and POTS) and then see if i can get physical therapy to help with all that.

i’m so excited, but also really nervous.

i have prepared folders about hEDS and HSD, and also POTS, and have all the info that i can have at this point about it. i have written down my symptoms, the criteria i have (i do meet the criteria for hEDS pretty much, i think, but if it turns out i’m wrong about some of it, then it’s likely HSD), so hopefully it goes smoothly and we can take another step in the direction of answers and possible diagnoses!

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

LOVE YOUR USERNAME

TYSM TYSM TYSM <3 (AHHHH THIS IS MY MOST FAVORITE COMPLIMENT AND IT EXCITES ME SM CUZ I LOVE MY USERNAME TOO 😭)

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! once you are given this award you're supposed to paste it in the asks of 8 people who deserve it. if you break the chain nothing happens, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out!!!!

awwww this is so sweet and appreciated!!!!

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

might be getting to go to a chiropractor and psychiatrist sometime in the near-ish future.

chiropractor for helping to pop back in all of my very dislocated joints (not that they won’t pop back out later anyways, still though yk), and psychiatrist to maybe diagnose some of my “minor” things, like SAD, PTSD (?c-PTSD?), and OCD. i’m not sure yet if i’ll be able to, if we’ll be able to get a chiropractor yet, if the psychiatrist can diagnose some of those things, but if we can, that would definitely help some. :]

[lupusbaby]

Being chronically ill is like

“It’s fine”

“It’s fine”

“It’s fine”

*complete mental breakdown because you can’t do this anymore*

“It’s fine”

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

when i get my appt. with the resource we have for diagnosing all my neurodivergencies, we’re also gonna try and see if they can help us with getting me evaluated for the EDS and/or HSD, and the POTS. i’m super excited to start being able to move forward with all this and find answers for things! i really hope they call us back SOON so we can set up the appointment ASAP! :]

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

we’re still waiting on the call back from them. cmon everyone, lets manifest they call us back SOON!!!

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

got an email yesterday from them, got an appt. for November 4th. i’m glad that it’s all set now, and i can’t wait for it. let’s manifest the days go by quickly.

[rowansrealm]

Yay! I’ve got a referral to see what’s up with me and hopefully get a diagnosis but my parents have been really busy and haven’t set up an appointment yet.

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

i’m glad that you’ve got some progress with that too!!! that’s so exciting! and i hope you guys can have some free time to set that appointment up for you and you can get your answers and diagnosis!!!

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

when i get my appt. with the resource we have for diagnosing all my neurodivergencies, we’re also gonna try and see if they can help us with getting me evaluated for the EDS and/or HSD, and the POTS. i’m super excited to start being able to move forward with all this and find answers for things! i really hope they call us back SOON so we can set up the appointment ASAP! :]

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

we’re still waiting on the call back from them. cmon everyone, lets manifest they call us back SOON!!!

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

got an email yesterday from them, got an appt. for November 4th. i’m glad that it’s all set now, and i can’t wait for it. let’s manifest the days go by quickly.

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

ADHD is being down in the dumps (really low emotionally and mentally) and there, in the background of my mind, is just:

✨“i aLwAyS FeEL LiKe SoMEbOdy’S wAtChInG mEeeeee”✨

[kittykatkattoo]

WAIT WHAT!? THATS AN ADHD THING??? WHATWHAT WHAT HOLD ON YALL SUDDENLY IMAGINE HORRORS JUST OUT OF YOUR EYELIINE TOO????

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

NOOOO!!! I WAS TALKING ABOUT THE SONG GOING THROUGH MY HEAD!!! BUT THAT SOUNDS MORE LIKE PARANOIA TO ME WHICH COULD BE FROM TRAUMA OR ANXIETY OR OCD OR A MIXTURE, OR COULD JUST BE THE OCCASIONAL PARANOIA

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

when i get my appt. with the resource we have for diagnosing all my neurodivergencies, we’re also gonna try and see if they can help us with getting me evaluated for the EDS and/or HSD, and the POTS. i’m super excited to start being able to move forward with all this and find answers for things! i really hope they call us back SOON so we can set up the appointment ASAP! :]

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

we’re still waiting on the call back from them. cmon everyone, lets manifest they call us back SOON!!!

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

this is so off topic but I love your username

THANK YOU SM OML /gen /vpos (i’ve been waiting AGES for someone to say something about it, cuz it still genuinely cracks me up tbh)

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

0-0 my therapist informed me today that my ex-boyfriend very much did gr00m me, it will take me ten thousand years to process this now 💅

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

when i get my appt. with the resource we have for diagnosing all my neurodivergencies, we’re also gonna try and see if they can help us with getting me evaluated for the EDS and/or HSD, and the POTS. i’m super excited to start being able to move forward with all this and find answers for things! i really hope they call us back SOON so we can set up the appointment ASAP! :]

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

guess who’s doing research on chronic illnesses and discovering things??? (my boyfriend also has added some of his very helpful knowledge on the subject) and now i will probably do a bit more research and then mention something to my mom sometime soon so that i can get an appt. somewhere to start figuring this stuffs out

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

i feel like there’s a lot of pity and shame about having divorced parents. like people will say they’re sorry and shit like that, and like, okay, i get it, you don’t know what’s going on with that, but also at the same time, i always get so angry and shit like that.

like no, it’s not something to be sorry about that. this was NEEDED. it’s a GOOD thing they’re divorced.

so, this goes out to the kids with divorced parents who are sick and tired of getting pitying looks, non-understanding sympathizers, and other shit like that, and are fucking grateful and happy that they have divorced parents.

yall are valid and not cruel for hating the parent that left. yall are valid and not cruel for not missing all the goddamn fights every day. yall are valid and not cruel for being happy that you don’t have to live in constant fight-or-flight anymore. yall are valid and not cruel for being so grateful that they got divorced and now you can live a lot more easily. yall are valid and not cruel that you’re happy the bad parent left and now you can grow your bond with the good one some more finally. yall are valid and not cruel for having a bucket load of anger and hate towards the one that left. yall are valid and not cruel for not regretting they left or not missing them at all. yall are valid and not cruel whatsoever.

and i’m proud of yall. yall are doing a damn good job. and your feelings are entirely valid. <3