#truama dump

[foxxyharu]

Listen to this long rant about...MY TRAUMA

1.the time i nearly got SHOT

So me my mom was going to a funeral for her friends son named..jr? and from what i heard there was some guy really mad he couldnt attend the funeral right? and i was in the car just chilling cause i didnt wanna interact untill i heard...loud cracking noises at first i thought it was fireworks untill i thought "why the hell would there be fireworks at a funeral?" so i look out the car window and i saw BLOOD AND GUTS AND SOME GUY ON THE FLOOR DEAD and my mom was rushing to the car saying "endy come on!" (Btw my nickname is endy) and she got me out but then...we couldnt drive away cause everything was so crowded but then this woman had her door open and said we can ride with her it was kinda cramped she had crutches in there but i didnt care and she dropped us off at a gas station and i was hyperventaliting having a panic attack thinking im gonna die so my mom put my nana on the phone with my siblings so they can calm me down and then we saw the shooter which was the guy who wasnt allowed in get aressted.. oh but i did get lobster after!

2.THE time my moms boyfriend broke her ankle and abused my cat

SO some years ago my mom was dating a guy who i FUCKING HATEEEEEE which is anthony i hope he dies ok but anyways they got into a argurement which was normal and usually he would just kick us out right? but then i heard my pet cat YOWLING in pain so i got my ass up to see what the fuck was he doing to my cat??? and i saw her in the TRASH CAN outside and it was one of those tall ones mind you im just a little girl so it was difficult for me to reach in and grab her so i climbed into the trashcan so i can get her out? which i did and i let her scurry off to the side of the car but then i see my mom in the car and anthony is pulling on her leg trying to get her out and my mom is holding on TIGHT to that stering wheel but one point he yanked to hard and broke her ankle and i saw a metal pole on the ground and i wanted to hit him in the head so bad...(i still regret to this day that i didnt) and then he put my cat BACK in the trash can so i got her out again and just held her so then my mom and i called the cops but anthony's scary ass drove off but we had a picture of his license plate and guess what...HE DIDNT GO TO JAIL!!!..

3.the time when a car crashed into us and my mom went to jail

So i was in the car with my mom and we was driving to wendy's which is like my top 5 favortie fast food and then this car ZOOMS past us and boom our front of the car? is wrecked so we hurry up to wendys and the car follows us and when we both stop my mom and the people in the other car which was this teenage couple and they asked if i was ok which i was then the police came and all and my mom and me took A QUICK BREAK to go get a baconater and fries and nuggets from wendys and we came back finding out something with my moms license was wrong and she had to go to jail...so of course i started begging and crying no i was hugging my mom trying to pull her back to me and when the cops got me off i heard them saying "its always so heartbreaking to see the kids breakdown.." and they let me have 30 minutes with her and she said we can watch my favorite show which was some liar liar vampire and we sat there and watched it and i taught her about it but guess what...since she wasnt there to care for me guess who did...FUCKING ANTHONY and i didnt like that at all and plus the car that crashed into us didnt get even a WARNING ??? and also anthony treated me horrible like he beat me if i ate more then one cookie????

4.the time anthony scared me SO BAD

so i was in the bed with my cat beside me i was watching as my mom and anthony fought right infront of me and he said "Your acting like a child" and THAT pissed me off so i shouted back and said "Shes not a child i am! shes a grown woman!" and he paused and looked at me and his eyes got all wide he looked like a SKINWALKER and said "SHUT THE FUCK UP!" and my mom said "Dont talk to my child like that!" and she shoved him and i started crying under the covers then he kicked us out AND the cat so...yea

5.the time i got sexually assualted MUTILPE TIMES by my cousin

so at a family reunion my cousin i think her name..zoey? we was around 6 or 7 (dont start) and one day in the htoel room we was at she crawled on me and just straight up tried kissing me this also happennded to my sis

[orphi333]

Survival Instincts.

I present myself as a gourmet spread and silently observe as my kin prepare to partake in the repast. While dressed in their most distinguished attire, they commence in the feast – hurriedly reaching across the surface and grasping handfuls of my portions, displaying unabashed inhibitions as they devour.

A pack of wild, starved wolves. Their eyes gleam as they step upon a desolate field and glimpse a solitary sheep. While their legs ache from days of continuous marching in search of nourishment, with a surge of adrenaline and a few wide strides - the sheep is swiftly pinned against the ground and ravaged.

Although innately devoted to their pack, they begin to bare teeth at their kin in a famished craze. Their bodies are tightly packed surrounding the sanguinary carcass, muscles tensed, and hair pricked on its ends. They consume indiscriminately and voraciously, lapping the blood drooling from their lips until there is nothing left but a warm, carmine profile - an act of survival and proof of life, barely acknowledged.

As such, I am left a strew of empty plates and unused cutlery. They wipe their hands clean of myself presented; wolfed with scarce recognition. My kin take their leave and I am temporarily alleviated from the unease of their diminishment until I am solicited to sate their hunger subsequently.

[bearwizzard999]

The original Eyeball people from June 2024

[stariejay]

small town drama alert!

im kinda trauma dumping but whatever, if you wanna hear some drama then stay and read because it's kinda crazy.

(disclaimer: I'm not using anyones real names in the story, I'm replacing just because I don't wanna name drop 🤷 idk it feels worse)

Okay so it all started around march 2024. My aunt has a friend, we'll call her Alice, (Alice was in her late thirties during this and has a husband and five kids, we'll get to that) one day I was invited to go with my aunt to a Cinderella play in my town because one of Alice's children was in the play. I decided to go and afterwards I met the girl in the play, I'll call her Sarah. Sarah was 12 at the time (I was 13, almost 14) and we seemed to get along, so the next day I was invited to her sister's birthday party, and from then on, me and Sarah were best friends.

Now let me say something important to the story. Sarah and her siblings are homeschooled and Catholic, and you can guess how that goes. (I'm homeschooled too but my parents aren't strict). Sarah's parents wouldn't even let her have a phone, she didn't have a phone until we started to hangout and her phone didn't even do anything but have games on it, she would have to text me through her mom's phone, and she didn't know anything about puberty or sex.

Anyways, we were pretty much inseparable, I would always be at her house. I stayed with her for weeks on end. I was pretty much apart of their family, her mom said I was like her sixth daughter and she loved me like I was one of hers. And I felt so lucky to be able to hangout with them and be with my best friend. We even went to the beach together for a week during like May.

One day there was an annie Jr play and we signed up for it (I haven't been in a play before that so I was really excited for it). This was around may-june 2024. When I was there I met someone named Phoebe.

Let me tell you about Phoebe. She was 13 at the time, also homeschooled (most kids there were homeschooled because it was kinda a homeschool program), and her parents were also very strict (wow a pattern here 😭) but Phoebe knew a lot more than Sara because she went to camps and knew a lot more people her age.

anyways, since Phoebe was the only other girl our age, I became friends with her, Sarah thought I was leaving her out, which we weren't, we tried to include her but she would always back away and not join us, which sucked, because I wanted us to all be friends.

Oh yeah, another thing: Alice and her husband Rowan did trivia nights and we would obviously go sometimes (me and Sarah). This will be important in a moment.

Okay so the instructor (Nara) of the play was in her early twenties, so it was kinda like a young teacher like how they are more friendly and easier to relate to, so we were cool with her. She had a fiance, and Sarah had a crush on him, and I did too because we were just dumb boy crazy 13 year olds. Nara didn't like the fact that I liked him, but she didn't care Sarah liked him... Because Sarah hadn't gone through puberty yet, and I had. So she would never bring her husband around. And apparently, behind my back, she would tell Alice about that and act like I was a whore or something just because me and Sarah said her husband is cute.

Now in Alice's point of view, she thought I was leaving Sarah out, and she thought I was being weird about naras husband. So she was starting to not like me anymore. One day we were at trivia, and I saw one of my dad's friends, so I said hey and gave him a hug (mostly because he was going through something tough and recently a lot of people in town have been commiting or doing substances because they're going through something hard, so I thought a hug would help), and also I was hanging out with my aunt and uncle and their friend (a man).

Alice apparently saw that and was gossiping to Nara back at the play rehearsal place, saying I was running around with random men, hugging them and talking to them. I didn't know they were talking to me until Phoebe told me they were talking about me (full grown women btw) and I was like what the fuck? And now Alice and her family were avoiding me.

After the play I told my mom and she called Alice, asking her if what Phoebe said was true and Alice didn't deny or confirm, she just seemed nervous and didn't give a straight answer, which was obviously saying she did say that about me because otherwise she could've denied it.

Anyway, now I'm just friends with Phoebe, and I'm hanging out with her a lot. Her parents already didn't really like me and I could tell, even though I didn't do anything wrong.

So let's skip a bit, it's probably about june-july now, I have my first boyfriend. Phoebes parents didn't like him even though they never met him. Phoebe also told me her mom would say shit about me like I was going to get pregnant or something like that. (I wasn't even seeing my boyfriend much irl anyways, also that's gross to say about a 14 year old behind my back)

Phoebe had a crush on a guy from her church and she wanted to know if he liked her so she made me text him and I would send her the screen shots. Her mom found them and was angry about it.

Also when we were at dairy Queen after church one day with some of the other people that attended the church, pheobe asked me to sit in her lap so I did, because we were best friends and that's normal obviously, and some guy sitting beside us said something like "there's a free seat right there" and we both looked at him disgusted and I just say down in the seat, me and pheobe pissed off because why was he even talking to us like...

A little while later Phoebe told me her mom thought I was a lesbian (and obviously her parents are homophobic... gross) and her mom didn't want me to be too close to Phoebe because she thought I was going to do something weird. (? Also behind my back again). I thought this was weird and random, so I was just thinking... and I realized that guy probably told her parents I was sitting in her lap, even though pheobe literally told me to, and that's normal for girls.

Now pheobes mom doesn't like me, the screenshots, the lesbian allegation, my boyfriend... so she banned Phoebe from talking to me, which is fucking ridiculous. Even if I was lesbian why do you fucking care, you're Christian, you're supposed to love everyone right? Hypocrite. Also your daughter is doing shit behind your back and has been way before we were friends, I'm not the bad influence.

I tried to text her mom but she had blocked me and made Phoebe block me.

It actually disgusts me how they spoke about me. Like you're calling me a lesbian but also you're saying I'm a whore just because I have a boyfriend. You're saying it all behind my back so I can't even defend myself, all when I was 14 and they're 40+.

I texted Alice and explained how I was hurt and missed my best friend, she didn't even say sorry and denied what she said again. She said we could talk it out but we ended up not even talking, this was in july 2024 on my birthday. I think she's still friends with my aunt and we were supposed to talk to her and clear it up but we didn't get the chance yet, hopefully we will get to and I'll see her again. And maybe I'll get to see pheobe again.

I'm not trying to trash talk anyone, especially my ex friends because nothing is their fault. I'm just venting and telling what happened because I'm still upset about it and I need to tell someone about it. I understand Alice was just misunderstanding everything but she could've just talked to me to clear it up, and she didn't have to talk about me to the PLAY DIRECTOR Instead of my own mom or aunt...

[strxn-2]

trigger warning btw

how would you guys feel if i did a trauma dump but turned it into a fic😛 (btw what i mean is very serious topics like sh , suicidal thoughts , sa etc..)

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[cassbtw]

This body is my home

The only one I'll ever own

How dare you come in

Without my consent

Took what you wanted

And claimed to be my friend

-cassbtw-

[paigebueckersmommy]

hi everyone so this is me lore dumping from like soph year of highschool

so basically first day of spring semester there was this girl in my art class (i knew nobody else in that class) that was in my science the previous semester and we like sorta knew eachother so i say next to her and was like hey… i don’t really know anyone in here lol (we’ll call her ashley)

and we ended up getting really close then flash forward to febuary there was this guy in our pe (we’ll call him christian) and i had kinda thought he was cute but i didn’t say anything to anyoje

so me and christian followed eachother on insta and tt for awhile and one day he responded to my insta note and we started talking and i texted ashley to tell her bc i was excited and we were bsfs yk? well the next day i go to school and in art she’s telling me about the things he’s talking to her about on snap and i was like oh… you guys snap? (this was a few months agter i had deleted snap)

and she was like yeah he added me on sunday (me and christian started talking on a friday..) and the flash forward like a few weeks she was showing me their messages and i was like oh what time was like and she aid 12am and i was like oh! he told me he was going to sleep at 10..

mind you he also told her goodnight and not me

now stay with me

ASHLEY HAD A BOYFRIEND. THE WHOLE DAMN TIME. THEY HAD BEEN TG FOR 2 YEARS.

so i was obviously like sobbing every night at the thought he liked my bestfriend and mh best friend was feeding into it

flash forward a few weeks and she’s telling me she broke up with her bf… and i was like oh

then a few days later i was scrolling thru this girls spam post and christian was there on what appeared to be a ft call so i asked christian are you and ___ talking and he said no not like that and j said oh okay

and he said “yeah i have a gf” (we ere on ft the night before for 2 hours) and i literally felt sick to my stomach and i said who and he said…

ashley 🥰🥰

i literally couldn’t go to school the next day bc if i saw them talk to eachother in our pe i would cried!

turns out ashley is a fat liar to everyone and she was texting her ex the entire relationship and christian is a man whore who just wants people to feel bad for him

(ashley was also a grade above me and christian and she was in all soph classes and even some freshman classes 🥰)

ok thank you for listening

[liminalsspace]

The worst part about being me is I want to forgive people who have hurt me. Who have lied and wanted to ruin me.

But I guess that’s just the child in me wanting to be happy again.

But I know I will never be as happy as I was before “the incident” before my symptoms and everything was ignored.

I hate my actions growing up. I hate what I did to be where I am today. But I’m finally able to see the bright colors I saw as a kid. The bright greens and blue of the world. And the way the sun dances on the leaves. I missed it for…15 years. After the abuse, and hurt I went through I think I finally made it.

And I’m happy for the friends that have come and gone. The friends I never message anymore, the friends who stood by me no matter what day I went through.

And I’m thankful for the loving partner I have who has seen, every panic attack, every trauma response I have had and every mental breakdown/ breaking I have been through. And honestly I don’t know where I would be with out them, or the friends I have today.

And all I have to say is thank you.