TW// Major Character Death, Swearing, Crying, Strong Emotions, Yelling, Arguing, Panicking, Blood/Gore, Slapping, Car Crash, Fire, Screaming, Sirens, Ambulance, Hospital
Word count// 2504
Description// Janus is one of the many grim reapers whose job it is to reap the souls of the dead and help them ascend to the afterlife. After one assignment, the spirit they reaped, a 23-year-old nonbinary person named Remus, refused to ascend. Now, Janus is stuck with them following it around wherever they go.
Characters// Remus Sanders, Roman Sanders, C!Thomas Sanders
Pairings// None
AUs// Found/chosen family Creativitwins & C!Thomas, human!sides, they/them Remus, it/they Janus, he/she Roman
Author note// This chapter was also soul crushing to write and I had to take multiple breaks in between writing because I started crying too much. Enjoy!
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It happened a few months ago. The neighborhood was quiet. Some people walked down the street with their dogs, others jogged past. Some people sat on their yards people watching, others did yard work, but for one home, it wasn’t so peaceful. In one home in the middle of the neighborhood, it was violent. Two people stood in the middle of a fight, yelling at each other.
”Oh my god, you’re so fucking annoying!” Roman yelled.
”ME?! I’M THE ANNOYING ONE?!” Remus yelled back.
”Yes!” Roman said.
”How am I the annoying one?!” Remus asked.
”You’re so fucking clingy! I can’t go one day without you on me!” Roman replied.
”I’m just trying to be a good sibling!” Remus said.
”Clinging to me 24/7 isn’t going to do anything to help that!” Roman yelled.
”Oh, don’t act like you’re so perfect! All you ever do when I’m around is talk about yourself! It’s always me, me, me!” Remus yelled back.
”NO I FUCKING DO NOT!” Roman yelled.
”YES YOU DO! YOU’RE SO GODDAMN SELF ABSORBED IT’S INSANE!” Remus yelled back.
”Well, at least I’m not a freak!” Roman said.
”You take that back, now,” Remus said, glaring at Roman.
”What? It’s true,” Roman responded. Remus backed up a little.
”I’m not!” Remus said.
”Yes, you are! You’re always only talking about horror, crime, or disturbing facts. Not to mention all those weird ideas you’ve come up with!” Roman said.
”You always liked my ideas though!” Remus replied.
”No, I didn’t. I’ve never liked them at all. In fact, I wish Thomas never adopted you with me,” Roman said.
”That wouldn’t have happened though! We came as a pair because we’re siblings! We came from the same family!” Remus yelled.
”YEAH, AND I WISH YOU WERE NEVER MY SIBLING IN THE FIRST PLACE!” Roman yelled back.
”I…” Remus started before being cut off by Roman slapping them.
”I fucking hate you so much! I wish you were never in my life. You’re a mistake and a useless waste of air. Now, get out of my house, before I make you,” Roman said.
”Fuck you, rot in hell,” Remus said, pushing Roman out of the way before walking out of the door and slamming it behind them. Roman crossed his arms, tears starting to form in her eyes. Meanwhile, Remus walked down to their car, opening their door and getting in. They slammed their car door shut, starting the car and driving off.
”Stupid Roman. I fucking hate him so much,” Remus murmured under their breath as they drove. Tears started to form in their eyes, making their vision blurry. They drove through the neighborhood and to the windy hill, not noticing their speed continuing to go up. They sped up the hill, not thinking about how they were driving. They soon snapped out of their trance after hearing a loud honk to find themself driving on the opposite side of the road. They lost control of their wheel, desperately trying to regain control.
”SHIT, SHIT, SHIT!” Remus said, trying to regain control. It was too late to regain control as they spun out and crashed through the barriers on the side of the hill, sending themself and their car over the side of the hill. They braced themself for impact, their car falling on the ground and sliding until they hit a tree. The tree branches pierce through the car’s broken glass, scratching Remus’s body. The force from the fall heavily damaged Remus’s head, crushing their legs and peeling the skin off of their head. Remus didn’t know how they were barely alive, but they knew they needed to get out before something else happened. They weakly crawled out of their car through the broken windshield, using their better arm to try to pull themself into the open. They coughed into their hand, their hand turning red from the blood. Remus lost their strength, falling down and laying on the ground. They turned to face their car, maybe their phone was still working. Maybe they could at the very least call their sibling, their father, anybody. Just then, the car burst into flames, the flames getting onto part of Remus’s head. Remus screamed in pain, trying to pat out the flames. The flames on their head subsided, Remus laying on the ground, barely conscious. Remus laid on the ground, their strength slowly going away, scared for what would come next. They soon heard sirens from above but was too weak to see anything. They closed their eyes. Maybe some rest would help.
Roman walked outside her house, looking to see if Remus was still there. Maybe it wasn’t too late to apologize. He looked around, not seeing Remus or their car anywhere. Roman looked down, tears falling down her face. Just then, she heard sirens, looking up to see different types of emergency vehicles driving by. Roman didn’t know why but she felt like he needed to follow the vehicles. He quickly got in her car, turning it on and following the vehicles. Roman got out of her car when the vehicles stopped on the hill. He walked around to find a bunch of people gathered around. She then noticed a woman talking with a police officer. He walked over to the two.
”So, you’re saying you were just driving behind this person when they started driving on the opposite side of the road and then lost control of the wheel?” the police officer asked.
”Yes, that’s correct. Then, after losing control of the wheel, they ended up crashing through the barrier and driving off the side of the cliff,” the woman responded. The officer wrote something down on a notepad, turning to one of the firemen near the side of the cliff.
”Found anyone yet, Greg?” the police officer asked.
”Not yet, sir!” Greg responded.
”Excuse me…” Roman chimed in. The police officer turned around to Roman.
”My name’s Roman Sanders-Kingstone, I’m a resident of the nearby neighborhood,” Roman said, holding his hand out.
”Officer Isaiah,” the police officer said, shaking Roman’s hand.
”Nice to meet you. I was just wondering what was going on here,” Roman replied.
”Car crashed off the edge of the hill into the valley below,” Officer Isaiah said, gesturing over to the hole in the barrier. Roman walked over to the hole, looking below. Roman backed up a little upon seeing the burnt shell of Remus’s car.
’No… That can’t be theirs, right…’ Roman thought, tears starting to form in her eyes. Officer Isaiah walked over to Greg the Fireman, standing next to him.
”Has Larry found anyone yet?” Officer Isaiah asked.
”Not yet,” Greg replied. Just then, Larry’s voice came over the radio.
”Found someone! I just got them onto the stretcher, you’re good to bring them up!” Larry said over the speaker. Greg pushed a button, a pulley pulling up the stretcher. Roman felt sick to the stomach after seeing the bruised and bloodied form of their sibling on the stretcher. The medics rushed over, putting Remus onto a cot.
”No… NO, NO, NO!” Roman cried, running over to the cot. Officer Isaiah grabbed Roman’s arm, holding him back.
”LET ME GO! THAT’S MY SIBLING! THAT’S REMUS!” Roman yelled, breaking free from the officer’s grip and rushing over to Remus.
”REMUS!” Roman cried, desperately holding onto Remus’s cot. The medics checked for Remus’s pulse, finding it faint.
”What’s their status?” Isaiah asked.
”They’re still breathing, if we’re quick enough to stop the bleeding we could save them,” the one medic replied.
”Well, then, get to it!” Isaiah said. Roman tugged on one of the medic’s sleeves.
”Can I please come along?” Roman asked.
”Of course, just get into the back,” the medic replied. Roman got into the back of the ambulance, one of the medics going in the back with him and Remus and the other two getting into the front. They turned on the ambulance sirens, speeding away quickly to the hospital.
Roman sat in the back of the ambulance, holding their sibling’s hand as the medic worked on trying to stop the bleeding. Tears fell down Roman’s face as she looked at her sibling. He looked away, not bearing to look at Remus. Remus opened their eyes weakly, seeing Roman next to them.
”Roman…?” Remus said faintly, getting Roman’s attention. Roman turned to Remus, tears filling his eyes.
”Remus…” Roman replied, putting a hand to Remus’s cheek.
”Roman…” Remus said.
”It’s okay, Remus. You’re going to be okay. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have said all of those horrible things to you,” Roman said, tears falling down his face.
”I’m s-scared…” Remus said, tears starting to form in their one eye.
”I know… You’re going to be okay! Everything’s going to be alright! Just stay awake! Don’t leave me, please,” Roman cried.
”I want Pa…” Remus said, their voice growing weaker.
”I know… It’s okay… Pa will be here soon…” Roman said, trying to comfort his sibling. Remus coughed, blood coming out of their mouth. Roman started to panic, holding his sibling’s hand as Remus’s breathing grew heavy.
”Remus… Please… Stay with me…” Roman pleaded. He moved Remus’s hair out of their face. Remus looked over to Roman, Roman sobbing as soon as he saw the full extent of Remus’s condition. Remus weakly held their hand out to Roman, Roman crying more as Remus tried to comfort him.
”Roman…” Remus said, their voice weak and shaky.
”Remus…” Roman replied, tears falling down his face rapidly.
”I-it’s o…kay…” Remus said, trying to comfort their sibling.
”How could you say that… How could you fucking say that… Why are you trying to comfort me… You’re dying because of me yet you lay there saying everything’s going to be okay… Why…” Roman cried. Tears fell down Remus’s face.
”Ro…” Remus said.
”Rem…” Roman replied, holding his sibling’s head in his hand.
”I… love y-you…” Remus said, before closing their eyes. Roman eyes widened as he started to panic.
”Shit! I’m losing them!” the medic yelled to the others. The ambulance sped up. Roman sobbed as he watched his sibling draw their last breaths.
”REMUS! REMUS, NO! NO, NO, NO, PLEASE! DON’T LEAVE ME! PLEASE! I’M SORRY! I’M SO SORRY! PLEASE STAY WITH ME!” Roman sobbed, desperately trying to get his sibling to wake up, to open their eyes, to do anything. Remus grew limp, Roman holding her sibling close to his chest as he sobbed.
”REMUS, PLEASE! GODDAMNIT, STAY WITH ME! I’M SO SORRY!” Roman sobbed as she held the limp figure of her sibling, their blood getting onto Roman’s clothes. The medic pushed Roman out of the way as they rushed around Remus. The ambulance was soon parked at the hospital, the medics quickly wheeling Remus out and into the hospital. Roman followed close behind before collapsing in the hallway outside of the room where they took Remus into. Roman sobbed in the middle of the hallway, the blood from his clothes staining the floor.
Roman paced around the outside of Remus’s room, walking back and forth throughout the hallway. He looked up, seeing Thomas rushing down the hallway.
”Roman!” Thomas said, rushing over to Roman.
”Pa…” Roman said. Thomas rushed over to Roman, Roman collapsing into Thomas’s arms.
”Are you okay?! What happened?!” Thomas asked, checking to make sure Roman was okay.
”I fucked up, Pa… I said so many horrible things to them… I told them I wish they weren’t my sibling… I said that I hated them… I called them so many horrible things… I…” Roman sobbed, Thomas holding him close.
”Roman…” Thomas said, Roman sobbing into Thomas’s chest.
”They said they loved me… I couldn’t do anything… I couldn’t tell them I loved them back… I couldn’t save them… They died in my arms and it’s all my fault… They were so scared and I couldn’t do anything to help…” Roman cried, Thomas trying to comfort him.
”It’s going to be okay, buddy… They’re going to be safe…” Thomas said, holding onto his kid. A doctor soon walked out of Remus’s room, going over to Thomas and Roman.
”Are you the family of Remus Sanders-Kingstone?” the doctor asked.
”Yes, we are. How are they?” Thomas replied.
”I’m sorry to say, but they have passed. We tried everything we could but we couldn’t get them back. It’s honestly a miracle they were even alive in the back of the ambulance to begin with. With the amount of wounds they had, they should have been dead before even being pulled out of that valley,” the doctor responded. Tears filled the two’s eyes, Roman hiding his face in his father’s shoulder.
”Okay… Well, thank you for trying anyway,” Thomas said.
”It’s no problem. If you want, you can go in and say your final goodbyes before we wheel them out,” the doctor said. Thomas nodded, holding Roman’s hand as the two walked over to Remus’s door. Thomas opened the door, tears immediately falling down his face as soon as he saw Remus.
”Oh, no… No, no, no, NO…” Thomas started sobbed as he rushed over to Remus.
”REMUS! NO! MY BABY!” Thomas sobbed, holding the lifeless body of his child. He let go of Remus, turning to Roman angrily.
”What did you do…” Thomas said. Roman backed up a little.
”WHAT DID YOU-” Thomas started before seeing Roman’s scared expression on her face. Thomas’s expression softened. He walked over to Roman, hugging him. Roman broke down in Thomas’s arms, sobbing as his father just held him close.
”I’m s-s-so sorry, P-Pa! I…” Roman sobbed.
”Shhh, it’s going to be okay… We’re going to get through this together, okay?” Thomas said, holding his kid close. Roman nodded, holding onto her pa. Thomas walked back over to Remus, holding their hand.
”We love you, Remus… We’ll always love you… Don’t forget us up there, alright?” Thomas said, holding Remus’s hand. Thomas let go of Remus’s hand and turned to Roman, hugging her as tears fell down her face.
”Let’s go home,” Thomas said. He held Roman’s hand as the two walked out of the room. Thomas closed the door to the room, nodding to the doctor. The doctor nodded back, going inside the room. The two walked off, scared for what this new future would bring.
Ok like every week around the same time (probably) there’s this really weird siren that goes off and I have no idea what it’s for and I’ve never seen where it’s coming from and I always immediately forget about it until it goes off again and so I’m writing this really quickly before I forget but um this feels very dystopian please help??
It was very alarming at first but now I’m getting used to it I don’t know what’s going on
