LOCATION : FOREST PARK, QUEENS
STATUS: OPEN NOW CLOSED TO NEW THREADS
WITH: TORIN O’RILEY & YOUR MUSE
Unknown to many tourists attracted to the bright city lights, Queen’s Forest Park was a place quite the opposite of the bustling city. The eastern portion of the Forest Park had very few hikers this time of year and that made it the perfect place for Torin to get some peace and quiet. Recent events that had caused a disturbance within the supernatural community had him a little on edge. The paranoia instilled into him as a child by his father could cause him to be cautiously suspicious of most at the best of times but now it felt like almost everyone was a threat.
He was a skilled hunter, but his work with knives was a bit rusty lately. He’d perhaps gotten lazy relying on other skills and guns with wooden bullets. A few feet ahead the towering white pine was taking the brunt of his target practice during the sunset. The breeze ruffling the leaves and occasional animal scuttering by were the only sounds around him, so a nearby crunch of a fallen branch had stood out. There were no animals here big enough to cause a break in a fallen branch that sounded that big. Knife in hand he spun, focused his aim and instantaneously threw the knife in the direction of the other.
Warnings: Blood and Gore, Sam Drinks Dean’s Demon Blood, Anal Sex, Not Canon Compliant
Content: Chasing your baby brother around the bunker with a hammer is fun, right? But what if you tickle his thing for blood?
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Dean’s most effective weapon is not the hammer he destroyed the door with. The hammer that’s stuck in the wall now beside Sam’s head. It’s not his physical strength, radiating like utter heat from his body, showing in the tension of his neck, the firm grimace of his mouth, his pretty mouth. It’s not the First Blade. A blade powerful enough to kill anything and anyone, but Dean himself.
Sam’s only weapon is a lousy knife. A demon knife, that will barely leave a scratch on a Knight of Hell.
“It’s all you”, Dean says, leaning in the knife, leaning into Sam’s half hearted attack.
The way Dean looks at his brother, it’s tearing Sam apart in so many ways. Ways he thought he’d buried under guilt and hunts and lore and his shame. Sam gives in and takes the knife away, he will regret it so bitterly, he knows. Of course he knows. He can’t even lay a single finger on Dean. The demon in front of him wears the face of his brother but there is nothing left of his soft side for Sam. His voice, how he calls Sam, how he says Sammy, the hair, the determined look, the tongue against his teeth. Like he’s a predator and Sam’s the prey.
Dean’s eyes turn black.
It’s a whooshing sound and it darts Sam’s ears the moment he thought he’d surrender and then, the First Blade, fast as an arrow lands in Dean’s hand. There is not a blink for Sam to react before Dean looks at him with a triumphant smirk. The knife glides through Dean’s smooth skin of his throat like it’s warm butter. Blood spills.
Blood
Spills
Blood is Dean's most effective weapon.
Its smell is so familiar, so luring. So intimate and so…powerful. Sam turns and runs. He needs to go. He needs to get away.
“Oh Sammy, baby brother, don’t run away!”, Dean mocks.
Shit, he’s right behind Sam and Sam’s judgement clouds already. He isn’t even fast. It feels like running through molasses. The air feels thick and strong, pressing Sam down, and the smell of iron and lust and Dean, oh my God, it’s Dean’s blood! - He needs to get away! Sam manages to worm through the destroyed door to the electrical room, but he catches several splinters. Some even bite his face and he gets stuck with the cast of his elbow. Spraining the right elbow, why, Sam, why did that happen? Everything’s against him.
Memories of Ruby appear in his head. Of the smell, the taste, her body, the sex. The grunting and the mind blowing orgasm, the banging against walls everywhere they went. The power, the trip. His increasing power, a stimulant better than any human known drug. It resonates all within him with the odor of Dean’s musk and his blood. He can smell its potential, its strong taste. Sam even imagines how it would make him feel. Running away never felt so hard like right now. He remembers the withdrawal and the pain behind his eyes blinds him as he trips in the hallway and tumbles against a wall. Stinging pain in his arm, in his head and his legs feel heavy. It’s like he has Dean’s breath in his neck all this time. Even though he can’t hear him come close at all. It sounds like Dean is far away, in another world.
“Come on, Sammy, I know you want a sip of it. Makes you all giddy, doesn't it? I can smell you. All of you.”
Sam yells something, but he can’t even make out what he says.
“Keep runnin’ if you must, but you know I gotta find you sooner or later. It’s my home, too!”
The alarm is blaring again and Sam has no idea how far he can run. There won’t be any walls that might hold Dean back. He’s regaining strength, the human blood wears off. Even that Sam can smell. How much stronger Dean gets with every minute.
“I taste delicious, Sammy. Just fuckin’ delicious.”
Oh, yes, Sam bets he does, that’s exactly why he needs to keep running. The smell gets even more intense now and Sam wonders how much Dean can cut himself up with the First Blade. He should’ve given the damn thing to Crowley when he had the chance to do so.
“Stay away”, he croaks.
There’s another hallway, one leading deep into the intestines of the Forbidden Bunker, how Dean and him called it jokingly, when they discovered it. An area full of locked doors made of the weirdest materials. Only one chance is left for Sam, when he finds that one door he unlocked in these months without Dean. He had learned a lot about witchcraft since Dean left this note on his bed, when he left Sam for Crowley and a life as a demon. When the only way to save himself from Dean was to hide himself in a panic room again, hallucinate again, he would have to do it. He rather sees Lucifer again, Mary, Bobby, all the victims they couldn’t save than to fall for Dean’s lure. Drink his own brother’s blood. This was perverted, disgusting, twisted. Even for them. The monster hunters, the monster fuckers, the monsters themselves.
“The longer you run, the harder I bleed, brother!”
Sam tries every door on the way, but none opens. Sam’s eyes sting from the smell. What the hell is Dean doing? Covering the walls in blood? That would be insane. Even Dean would faint at one point. It must be impossible to drain a body so much before it dies. Dean isn’t possessing a body, he still has his own, whatever that means for him and his physis then. Sam trips again, he falls, on his right arm of course. He tears up from the pain that fills his chest, his arm, his shoulder. He can’t survive that long if doesn’t find a hide-out.
It seems to be near, because Sam still can read the signs on the doors and when he finds room 616, he pushes the door open with a long and agonizing cry and slams it shut. It’s the door he unlocked already, a room, bleak as an empty tomb. Cold and pitchblack, there’s no electrical light, just candles, but Sam won’t be able to find them. He can just hide in here, pressed against a wall, praying to Castiel, to Hannah. He even cries for Crowley inside, someone needs to help him.
Footsteps.
The smell of blood. The First Blade scraping on the tiles, Sam knows it’s that.
“Gotcha! I really thought you’d be a bit cleverer than that. Where’s the fun when you cage yourself like a mouse?”
The door bursts open, way too easily. None of the sigils and runes seem to be an obstacle for Dean. And when light shines in the room and Sam can see not only Dean’s silhouette but also his face, he knows. Dean is covered in his own blood. His face, his slit throat, still pumping blood in long and rhythmic spurts from the wound. His arms are drenched in blood and now, with a biting smile, Dean looks at Sam and the Blade carves an S in Dean’s arm.
“Come here, Sammy. Come to your big bro and lemme get you something real good
The stench is so intense now that Sam first vomits in violent jerks and then faints. The last thing he sees before the world turns completely black is Dean’s triumphant, sweet smile and his eyes. His normal green eyes.
When Sam awakes again, he is tied up. Bound to a chair. They’re in the dungeon again, how did Sam come here? His head aches like it’s been run over by a stampede of bulls and his mouth tastes like vomit and blood. He tenses immediately as he’s present enough to realize his situation. Dean has tied him up here, and now he’s sitting on the desk in one corner, right beside the blood donor box that Sam got from the hospital. His legs swing and he hums a strange melody.
“Oh, look who’s up.”
Dean jumps on his feet. Sam can see the First Blade, the damn Blade, resting on the table. Then Dean takes the syringes of human blood and starts spilling them.
“You won’t need them anymore, Sammy. I think I won our little chase.”
“Dean, don’t do that… please. I can still…”
Dean hisses. His eyes turn black.
“You can still what, brother dearest? I already told you. I am what I am now, I am free. I’m finally free. Of humanity. I’m strong now. Efficient. Deadly.”
Sam winces when he moves in the ties. The ropes cut in his flesh and Dean removed the sling on his arm. His elbow hurts so much, it’s taking his words away.
“You were deadly before already. The Mark made you powerful.”
“But guess what, I’m even better now. Dean Winchester 2.0 - I’m all in for my upgrade. You see it as a bad thing, but what I see is … potential. Chances. Oh Sammy, I can conquer the world. Hell. Heaven. You really want the boring Dean back, huh?”
Sam shakes his head but that makes him feel dizzy, he stops.
“I want my brother back. The brother I loved.”
Dean’s black eyes target Sam like he’s prey again and he hates being looked at like this. It makes him feel less human, less Dean’s brother.
“I am your brother. Nothing ever changed that. But I told you to stay away from me, I told you not to look for me. But you did. You plotted against me, with Crowley, with Cas. You tied me up in this chair, you tortured me with human blood. Against my will. For someone who’s all over the place with autonomy and respecting boundaries you violated mine just perfectly.”
Sam squirms. The problem is that Dean is right. But Sam did it for the greater cause, didn’t he? Dean becoming human again was the best for everyone!
“You make me sound like the bad guy here, that’s not fair”, Sam mutters.
Dean laughs and it’s a deep, rough laugh that makes Sam’s skin crawl. This is so much Dean, even darker than usual. And it shakes Sam to the core.
“Good, bad… Who cares. Human categories, bullshit. Nothing’s fair, Sam.”
“I need something to drink”, Sam says faintly now.
He won’t make Dean untie him, that’s for sure, but maybe Cas will come to the rescue soon, he can maybe delay things. Also he needs to get rid of the taste of old blood in his mouth. Dean doesn’t reek of his blood that bad anymore, Sam is very much aware of the pink line across Dean’s throat. A scar. The blade will cause scars. Or at least the weapon delays even Dean’s healing.
Dean smiles.
“Sure. But why waste water on you when I kill you anyway?”
Sam’s heart sinks.
“Will you?”
Dean shrugs as if he doesn’t give a shit at all.
“Thinking about it. But you’re my brother, as you keep on reminding me. Maybe I should give you a chance to redeem yourself in my eyes and let you live?”
“And how would you do that?”, Sam asks, winding in his ties.
Dean goes away. Doesn’t say another word. Sam is stunned and damn, holy shit, he’s afraid. Dean will kill him. But what is it with the possibility of letting him live?
The smell of iron. Like a perfume, soft and silky. No. No no no.
“Dean? Dean!”, Sam cries and fights the restraints harder.
He did it again. He slit his fucking throat, Sam knows it. And this time, he won’t be able to run, he won’t be able to fight back. He’s tied up, he’s in pain, he’s weak. It’s not like with the other hunters who wanted to force him to drink demon blood. He could fight them off, but now?
Emaciated. Sick. Depressed. A broken arm. Hungry. Tied up. The addiction is pulsating through his veins, giving him the chills. It’s hot and cold at the same time. Like crackling in the air, the heavy scent of blood and Dean, he can only say no.
Dean won’t take a no, why should he? He’s a Knight of Hell. Sam is human. His brother is back, his throat cut deep enough to see the structures of muscles, veins, nerves, his trachea, the pulsing blood. Sam vomits all over his shirt, but there’s not much left except bitter, yellow gall.
“You’re sick, huh?”, Dean coos in a voice like he did when Sam was younger. It’s meant for comfort but now it just feels like mockery and Sam wonders how he deserves to see his brother slit his throat, twice, just to seduce Sam to drink it. It's so fucked up. It’s low, even for lean, mean Dean. Human Dean would’ve never provoked Sam’s demon blood addiction.
Sam nuzzles against the hand that’s stroking his face, his eyes squeezed shut. His lips tremble.
“Let me make you feel better, don’t pull away, Sammy…”
Sam cries out and some ugly big tears fall down his face. Is it so easy to break? He’s gone through so much pain already, through torture, rape, withdrawal. He was betrayed by everyone he loved, especially Dean. Dean’s hand is warm, but his skin feels like marble when Sam leans in, rubs his face in the palm of Dean’s hand. Is this still his brother? Is there any humanity left?
But what would that change? They’re here now. In a bunker soaked with demon blood, Sam is tied up, Dean reigns.
“Hush, hush”, Dean purrs, both of his hands holding Sam’s bobbing head. “It’s gonna be alright… Sammy, just give in. There will be no more pain, just us. You and me, against the world. Like it used to be.”
Sam opens his eyes but all he sees is blurry and red, it stinks of iron and vomit and Dean’s black eyes…
“I wanna see your normal eyes”, is all Sam can say right now.
A smirk.
“Anything for you, Sammy.”
And Dean’s eyes flash back to green and Sam can have the illusion of his brother just for a moment longer. Thick dark blood is pulsing out of Dean’s cut on his throat.
“It looks disgusting, Dee.”
Dean only laughs.
“It’s not supposed to be beautiful.”
Dean cups his hand before the dripping wound, collects a tiny lake of blood in his hand and then, gently presses his blood covered hand against Sam’s lips.
The world turns upside down. Sam feels the spinning, the spinning, the spinning!
The taste makes him want to barf, violently, but the old creature, the blood sucking monster was waiting patiently beneath the surface. Patient but greedy. Now it’s unleashed it bursts out and the first drops, he swallows. His lips limp and curled in utter disgust, but now, oh now, there’s a jolt running through his body, he sits straight up, first ties grinding, the ropes won’t last. The shackles won’t last.
“Come on, sweet baby boy, you want more…” Dean sings, eyes black as the night.
And slowly, very slowly and enjoying, Sam’s lips brush Dean’s hand, collect the blood, a tongue, pink, hot sneaks out, licks the offered hand.
The ropes break. The pain in Sam’s arm fades. It’s a movement even Dean didn’t see coming when Sam bursts out of all restraints he put on him and grips Dean’s hand tight, as tight as possible and sucks three of Dean’s fingers dry.
The Knight of Hell rejoices, pulls Sam close, closer than they’ve been for a very long time.
“That’s it, Sammy, yes, that’s it, let me take care of you… such a greedy boy…”
Dean’s voice is distant to Sam, distorted and hollow, he remembers their youth, the motel rooms, the flickering lights, the old tv, how Dean smelled of whiskey and beer. John’s passed out in an armchair, stained in blood, piss and vomit.
He remembers Dean’s care. The kisses at night, the stealthy handjobs in the shower, how Dean ‘taught’ him how people do it.
Make love.
Sam was twelve. Dean was sixteen. And he was a grower.
A slut.
All of this drenched in velvety red tint.
The ritual.
“Let me take care of you, Sammy…”
“I love you, Dee.”
“Never tell anyone.”
And Sam never had told anyone (but Lucifer knew - he knew everything) and deep down, buried in his mind, these feelings were in peaceful slumber, violently dragged across the floor now, kicking and crying,
A W A K E
Sam is awake.
He remembers the awkward, painful, dry fuck in the back of the Impala after they killed the Wendigo, so long ago, and how they never ever said a word.
Spit is shitty lube.
So is blood.
It roars. The monster roars in Sam’s chest. It’s in agony, it’s in joy, it’s free!
And Sam is just a puppet, always been nothing more than a puppet. He watches himself suck Dean’s fingers, then sticking his own fingers in the wound, stir it, stir Dean’s insides. The gurgling, the retching. Dean’s satisfied moans, his hands all over Sam’s now healed body.
“Yes, Sammy, let it all out, come on… Let it all out.”
Sam only hisses. This blood, Dean’s blood, the blood of a demon, of a Knight. It’s so much more potent than Ruby’s or any other demon’s he’s ever drank and tasted. Dean is delicious. Demon tend to taste like rotting meat, titan arum aroma.
But Dean tastes of all the good things. Dahlia, petrichor, amber. His musk makes Sam’s blood boil and his pants bulge.
“Sammy.”
“Dean”, is the first thing New Sam says.
What Monster Sam says. His voice sounds low, rough, barely in control. His body is shaking, too much force is withhold now.
“Brother.”
The wound on Dean’s throat is closing up again already, the healing ability is really incredible. Sam will bite it open very, very soon, but first…
Dean doesn’t protest, he doesn’t fight back at all when Sam slams him down to the ground like he weighs nothing. There’s the crunchy sound of maybe, bones breaking, or just getting sprained, but even that, Dean will heal in no time. Dean lies on his stomach, attempts to get up.
“Sammy-”
“Sammy is not here right now.”
There’s no surprise, no scare in Dean’s voice. Sam stomps his bare foot in Dean’s back and Dean stays, doesn’t even breathe. The adrenaline rush in Sam’s ears makes him deaf for most other things and seeing demon Dean down on his stomach, defeated so easily, it’s almost an insult. Sam crouches down, one foot still on Dean’s back, pressing him down.
“You surrender?”, Sam asks, eyebrows raise.
“I didn’t mean to fight you at all.”
Dean chuckles, his voice raspy
Sam drags Dean on all fours, rips apart his shirt (the pretty red shirt, ruined with blood anyway) and Jeans and when he holds Dean’s hips, bends over and bites Dean’s neck, Dean hisses “Come on, Sammy, that’s it.”
That’s it.
Sam tears apart skin, Dean’s blood gushes in Sam’s mouth, warm and silky, smooth and delicious.
“Is that what you wanted?”, Sam says in a breathless moment, before he starts sucking the wound dry, the bleeding will stop soon, way too soon for Sam to be satisfied.
Dean growls deeply, pushes against Sam. Pleading. Sam pushes two fingers inside Dean, but feels very quickly, Dean doesn’t need it. He doesn’t want it. He needs Sam. He rips off his jeans, down to his knees and when that’s not giving him enough space, he just tears it to shreds completely. Dean’s ass is perfect. Round, juicy, firm. When he gives it a slap - a hard one - he enjoys the noise Dean makes. And then he thrusts completely inside, without hesitation. No foreplay. No gentle feeling ahead and preparing Dean’s wonderfully tight and delicious ass. He feels amazing, hot, tight, smooth. Dean hands grip Sam’s wrists tight while he fucks into him, raw, without anything to soothe the pain, make it easier, make Dean nice, slick and wet. But he doesn’t complain at all.
“That’s it”, Dean chants, in his low, low “Let’s finish this game” voice. That’s it, over and over.
This is no sex Sam would ever have if he was in his right mind. Covered in his own vomit, Dean’s blood, on the cold floor. Not that he has fucked any guy after he fled off to Stanford anyway. Dean is all he knows. He only knows what Dean taught him about fucking ass.
Dean starts getting slippery with his own blood, Sam’s blood infused spit and finally, cum. Sam loses the feeling of time and space, all he can do is fuck Dean until one of them passes out, and if Dean passed out, Sam would continue anyway.
The adrenaline rush plummets too early for Sam’s taste, the haze clears up and he’s getting aware of his ripped off clothes, the shreds of Dean’s. The fluids, the smell, the feeling. Crust everywhere. Dean is still on his knees, head sunken on the floor, his arms stretched out, breathing heavily. There’s no sign that he’s in pain. But Dean’s a demon, right? He will be fine.
Sam drags him up, and the cocky smile, the perfect hair, it’s all gone. Dean looks like he’s had the same otherworldly experience. It’s a sight that makes Sam chuckle.
“What are you laughing at?”, Dean asks, coming on his feet, gently swaying, but finally his wounds are closing up.
“You threatened to rip my throat out. With your teeth.”
“Not there yet, Sammy. Not yet.”
The situation is unreal, Sam feels unreal. He knows he will never be the same. Something’s broken inside him, crumbled - yet ready to expand again, into unknown territory.
He doesn’t remember the coercion, Dean’s betrayal - or was it Dean’s way of deliberating Sam?
Sam, leaning on the table, watches Dean come close and he leans in, a hand in Sam’s hair, gently pulling. Their kiss isn’t gentle, nothing will be gentle for a while. Teeth clash, the table scrapes along the floor and the throbbing of Dean’s pulse makes Sam rise up again. Dean bites Sam’s neck, sharp pain - and Dean drinks. The feeling is satisfying and roughening Sam up at the same time. He pulls his Knight close, closer, grabs him and bends him over the table, both still bleeding, Dean high from Sam’s blood.
“For a Knight of Hell, you’re very pliant”, Sam growls in Dean’s ear.
Dean chuckles.
“I just bend the knee to my King.”
Sam frowns.
“What do you mean?”
Dean hikes up and drags Sam to the mirror in the Dungeon.
“Take a look”, Dean hums, rich and satisfied in tone, “acknowledge who you are.”
Breathe in. Breathe out. First, Sam’s mossy eyes just look glassy, clear, beaming with desire for Dean.
Knives is one of my favorite episodes. We get a glimpse into Londo’s life and who he is outside of the context of B5. Londo’s friend Urza Jaddo comes to the station to appeal for Londo’s favor now that our Ambassador’s star is rising in court. Meanwhile, Sheridan gets attacked by a dead man, resulting in scary memories of his past rising up to haunt him.
I took a running commentary of Knives so I’ll lead with what I liked/liked less and then post my impressions below.
What I liked
Everything. As I said, this is one of my favorite episodes. I love any time we get a glimpse into Londo’s true self. I love him bonding with Vir in the beginning and learning about his past in the war. I love the contrast of his opinion of recent events to Jaddo’s and Jaddo’s reality check when he challenges Londo to duel. I love how clever Jaddo is and his horribly tragic backup plan. In the end Londo has a moment when he looks like he’s going to start making better choices. Unfortunately his spine is in the cartilage stage still.
What I liked less
Sheridan’s plot is almost self aware with how much less interesting it is than the A plot, which sucks b/c its actually a very telling episode for Sheridan. We get to see his parents, learn a bit about his past, see some actual fallout from the previous episode where the stress is overtaking him. It would have been a great A plot if giving an episode of its own, but because it’s shoved in here and the Centauri plot is so emotional, personal, and compelling it kinda recedes into the background. Of course this might also be because i’m such a huge londo fan and if he breathes during an episode it’s my favorite part. Still, I would have sincerely liked the B plot if it were an A plot somewhere else.
Okay Impressions:
B5 epsidoe treatment
Knives
Baseball
Singing is the best
“By all the gods!” as a curse word
Garibaldi completely disrespectful to the murdered Markab name. Dick.
“Why make history if you fail to learn by it”
hug #2
Valtoo
We see a window out the back of Londo’s quarters with a view of what looks like hydroponics. Have we ever seen that before? Is it a screen?
Sheridan is tripping out. Attacked by a Silent Hill monster. It’s okay Tron is used to fighting computer enemies. He blew up his artwork.
BLACK LADY COP! Does she have a name? She needs a name? Rita. I’m naming her Rita.
he’s got oranges in his room. Running gag.
“I once saw a whole chorus line of purple wombats in my bathtub, but I was pretty drunk at a time.” G
Londo brings up Adira as his love.
I love him and Urzah hanging out. Glimpses into the past. Lives. Malachi is the prime minister… also the last prophet of the old testament…
First mention of Cartagia?
Urzah’s house is being disgraced by politics.
“I’ll do what I can”
I thank you for the fine brivari and your friendship
“Do you always worry when things are going well?” Sheridan
“I don’t have time to worry when they’re not.” Susan
Franklin - “I know a good Markab doctor I’ll talk to him”
Sheridan’s having a mental breakdown… aren’t we all?????
“You’re just like your father” F- “Thank you.”
Londo stands hard for Jaddo. Refa puts the political whammy on him but he doesn’t back town! Vir is even proud of him for sticking to his guns. And he’s like “don’t compliment me, I’m trush. Get me drunk” Oh Londo I love you, you break my heart.
Jaddo is so disappointed in Londo for working with Refa. “You cannot build an empire based on slaughter and deceit. Turhan knew that. I thought you did too.”
Coutari fighting sword. “It is magnificant but I cannot accept it.”
Jaddo “THEN ACCEPT IT IN YOUR RIBS!”
Londo: “AND YOU!”
Sheridan’s eyeball effect is actually not that bad. I mean it is bad, just not that bad.
He sees his mom and dad and leaves all his stuff.
“Disgrace is preferable to death”
“There was a time I would agree with you.”
“This is insanity”
“Insanity is part of the times. Learn to embrace it.”
I love the Centauri dueling outfits.
Londo actually smiles while they fight. Having fun? I think living the trhill. Jaddo is way better at this than him. Vir is going to pass a bladder stone.
Sheridan vomits up a time person. Lucky Garibaldi was there. Doe she have a personalized helmet? Looks like there’s decoration on it.
Babylon 5 this is Garibaldi. Bringing our wandering Captain home. Keep him on a lead next time.
I love that Jaddo falls into Londo’s arms. The scene where Urzah dies, Vir is blurry in the background. It’s perfect.
Sheridan has a party in his quarters wearing a hideous sweater. It is also perfect.
Urzah’s sacrifice changed Londo’s heart. I think Londo’s almost jealous. Urzah found love, stood up for his beliefs, protected his family, and put everything before himself. Londo probably thought he was doing that with Refa but here comes someone Vir is trying to help. Londo’s in the acceptance state of mourning. “Go now Vir, I want to sleep. If I can”
