#valeriianz

[virgo-dream]

After a considerable amount of speculation online, Dream decides he’s done with all the questions. He and Hob have very different ways to break the news.

3rd and final part of the yellow sweater controversy 💖 based on @valeriianz’s amazing fic Bolt in the Blue 💙⚡️

[rexwrendraws]

spotted on the wall behind the white horse theater!!

Happy one year to Bolt in the Blue by @valeriianz ! Truly the best band au fics I've ever read, I am Endless' #2 fan forever (#1 is Hob, of course) 💙🎸✨

+ alt. colors for the flyer & other scans:

i love taking advantage of my art uni's massive (MASSIVE) scanners for literally anything i can. it's got the most gorgeous grit and scan banding that photoshop trickery cant replicate (though i try lol). so, yes, i literally printed out the b&w flyers, scanned them in, then added color and printed them again to stick on my wall haha.

when digitally adding color, i wanted it to really feel like black ink on colored paper instead of trying to print on color paper and then scan it again (i have done this before idk). i think the xerox-y look is pretty convincing! the green, pink, and purple are my personal favs.

an irl friend suggest i try non-black-ink versions to see what i liked. i think they look cool but some of the text gets a bit lost. still, i like the pale yellow+red ink one. (this almost makes me want to try riso printing this to see what it'd look like 👀👀).

^ this is what the white horse metal barrier edit looked like before I added the Huji Cam filter lol. it wasn't feeling convincing enough like this, so i actually took a photo of my laptop screen with the filter and somehow that looked more real than the actual shot from the show lol. (also, because i've stared at this screenshot for so long, the orange/yellow June 12th poster? is everything on it a reference?? loll)

anyway, had a lot of fun making this!! feel free to print if you want!! READ THE FIC EVERYONE GO READ BOLT IN THE BLUE RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[cuubism]

i adore just the simple chemistry you create between Hob and Dream. i love how they banter during sex, how easy conversation flows between them, even when they are strangers in an au. you manage to write dialogue between them that is so natural, it just clicks. i am so often inspired by the way you write them just talking. it's great <3

aw thank you this is so sweet 🥺 dialogue is my favorite thing to write. i love playing with character voice and the rhythm of a conversation. i only wish i could hold conversations IRL too! 😂 but as it stands i can only do it in scripted form, alas.

[gabessquishytum]

Hello love! I’ve been having thoughts of Dream and Hob exploring their sexualities in… potentially unhealthy ways. I don’t think I’ll ever write it, so I’m tossing my scattered thoughts your way in the hopes you’ll be inspired, or perhaps someone else will be ;)

I was listening to “One of Your Girls” by Troye Sivan and was smacked in the head with the concept of young Dream going to a club and meeting Hob– who’s a very straight man, for the first time.

Hob is very much Dream’s type: warm and soft, an easy smile, strong yet kind,  but something devious in his eyes. Especially with the way he’s been eyeing Dream from across the room. Dream saunters over to him and turns on the charm. He’s openly flirting, lightly touching Hob’s arm, complimenting how handsome he is, all to Hob laughing and blushing and acting almost… shy? Finally Hob, while not outright pushing Dream away, reveals to him that he’s flattered, but not interested in men.

Undeterred, Dream hums casually, taking a long swallow from his drink (making sure Hob watches), and leans fully into his space to speak sweetly in his ear.

“Are you sure?”

And when Hob turns his head to meet Dream’s gaze dead on, they are close enough to feel one another’s breath on their lips. Close enough that Dream can taste Hob’s anxiety mingled with excitement as his lips part and his eyes flick down briefly to Dream’s mouth and back.

Dream’s eyes flutter shut as Hob’s hand cups the side of his face, fingers soft under his jawline, and slowly leans in for a kiss that is so soft, so god damn careful, it nearly makes Dream shake.

Because, underneath his cool and confident facade, Dream is insecure. He’s young and is desperate to be loved. Hob isn’t the first straight man he’s fooled around with. Dream has always told men, and himself, that it was okay. That his body could be a safe space for them to explore their curiosities… even if it did leave him feeling strangely empty afterwards. The thrill of being the reason a straight man was questioning himself wore off pretty fast when they didn’t stay the night, didn’t call him back, or even indulge in a kiss.

But the first thing Hob does is kiss him. Slow, gentle, with his hands holding Dream’s face like he’s something precious and it shatters something in Dream. He almost whimpers as Hob pulls back, thumbs caressing his sharp cheekbones.

It was just a chaste thing, lips only, but Dream instantly wants more. 

“Did you like that?” Dream asks, already dying to go back for more.

But Hob pauses, seeming to really consider it.

“I’m not sure. That was my first time kissing a man.”

So from here… we could go two directions:

Hob has his bi-awakening. Dream shows him everything he’s been missing. It’s sweet and they fall in love afterwards.

Or, my personal preference, angst.

Hob continues to be unsure. Dream and him spend more time together, but it’s more as friends. Dream lays off trying to get him into his bed, but it’s still very obvious he’s into him. Like, really obvious (lots of staring, “casual” touches, more experimental kissing that as they indulge in more and more, Hob breaks away with a loud gasp or frustrated sound because he’ll get his hands on Dream and feel his flat chest, the stubble on his face, or Dream’s low growl and shake his head “This isn’t working…”).

And finally Dream kind of breaks down and is like, “I could be a girl for you.” and dresses up in drag. He makes a very convincing woman and it’s almost embarrassing how into it Hob is, finally getting a proper erection the moment Dream walks into the room, high heels, makeup, wig, tucked and wearing fake breasts. He sucks Hob off before blindfolding him while Dream crawls up his lap and impales himself on Hob’s cock.

It gets messy from there. Dream developing feelings and Hob feeling even more confused about his sexuality than before. It’s like Dream, his friend, is a completely different person than the Dream that presents himself as feminine. 

Maybe Hob grew up conservative and he’s still fighting back old repressed morals/values. Maybe he has internalized homophobia. 

As you can see, my mind is everywhere. Not sure where to take it, and I don’t think I have the confidence to properly tackle this brainworm. So. here ya go *upends box all over the place and runs away*

First of all hello my love!! So great to see you here!!! And second of all, one of your girls is such a banger. I just have share my favourite line with you all: You should insure that waist / With the highest policy you can get

Iconic.

Anyway, this ask hurt my feelings so much but I LOVE IT. Repressed queer Hob is so interesting to me because it feels quite close to canon? As a character Hob is quite conservative/goes with the times. I think he's right about himself, he does have to make a big effort to change! Which is not a bad thing! But can be painful, I guess.

It definitely makes everything more complicated because Dream seems to be two different people. He's still Hob’s friend, his buddy, someone he trusts and respects. But he's also... someone else. A pretty thing in drag who knows exactly how Hob likes to be sucked off and who Hob fantasies about when he jerks off. It's not really Dream he's thinking of, but it kind of is? Those are Dream’s thighs wrapped around his waist, those are Dream’s lips, his tongue, his pert little arse.

Hob feels like a horrible person and like he should stop the whole thing, but every time he tries, Dream pouts his pink glossy lips and slides his freshly shaved thigh between Hob’s legs to rub against his cock. And Hob thinks well, one more time won't hurt. And the cycle continues.

Dream feels utterly destroyed by the fact that he just isn't enough for Hob. Because Hob is so nice to him! He never laughs at Dream, he's a proper friend to him, and a good lover too. It would be such a perfect relationship. But Hob never gets hard when they're curled up on the couch together in the daytime. They still try kissing sometimes, but Hob sometimes pulls away with his look on his face that just cuts Dream to his core.

So he keeps dressing up. Being Hob’s pretty little girl isn’t so bad. Hob is worth it. He's nothing like the other straight men who've tossed Dream away after one night of curiosity. And he really, genuinely isn't! He loves Dream, its just that the love is weighed down by all the stuff inside Hob’s head that tells him that he can't. He can't be gay. Not even for Dream. He can't open that door because he's fucking terrified of what's behind it.

I'm a sucker for an eventual resolution so I propose this: Hob finally does the right thing and breaks off the pseudo-relationship with Dream. He requests time apart and Dream is devastated, but resigned. Hob will move on and find himself a proper woman, he supposes. But Hob does not! He goes to therapy!

It's nearly a year until Hob shows up at Dream’s place. He apologies for everything that happened before - he was old enough to know better. Being fucked up by other people isn't an excuse to do fucked up shit. And he would like a chance to try again with Dream, but he doesn't expect or feel entitled to anything. It's not up to Dream to fix him.

Dream tries to take time to think it over, but the answer was always going to be yes. He's done some growing up in the last year, and he knows what he deserves: a loving, dedicated and respectful partner. He knows that Hob can be all of that. No more pretending and hiding. They're going to make it work.

[seiya-starsniper]

🚬🚬 lets see that angst lol

Excellent, I'm making good headway on this wip. This snippet takes place directly after this one!

“Van—” Silco tries to say but Vander shakes his head. “Don’t—” Vander cuts him off. “Don’t try to say it’s okay. It’s not. You’re still—” “I’m not afraid of you!” Silco yells. He’s not. He’s never been afraid of Vander. Except— Except Silco’s entire body is trembling and the only person who can make it better is also the only one who could make it worse. The only arms he wants to find solace and comfort in, are also the same ones that shattered Silco’s sense of self-worth and safety. Shattered everything good that had once been between them.  Silco is tired of smelling nothing but blood and rot. He’s tired of feeling like his lungs are full of water and lead. He’s already long forgiven Vander for all the things that have passed between them. He knows Vander will never hurt him like that again. So why doesn’t his own body believe the same thing? 

Make me write Ask Game!

[magnusbae]

Tagged by @cuubism , previously known as single line game, now is: slap an entire paragraph in game. I swear it was a paragraph before I broke it down.

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He could create a dream to be her.

He could shape it out of sand, pour in every fragment of her memory, channel all that still lives of her within him.

He could create the perfect image of her being.

It would live and breathe... however.. — it wouldn't have her soul.

For all his power, he cannot reproduce those, he cannot create a human soul.

He can reshape its form in the dreaming, can manipulate and play and bend, yet he cannot create it, cannot make it out of sand.

He cannot remake Jessamy.

Wouldn't dare dishonor her in trying.

I'll just tag you back again so you post one more from a different au @cuubism, also @valeriianz , @hotcocoabuns , @notallsandmen

As always do it if you wish, it's all for fun 💕 if you do it though, please make in a new post 💖

[aziraphales-library]

Lost fic post #40

1. so I'm looking for an ineffable husbands fic. The scene I remember (and I might not have all the details quite right) involved Crowley angsting and confessing his love for Aziraphael and Aziraphael taking it in stride because he knew, he can feel love and he says he loves Crowley too. Crowley doesn't believe him, Aziraphael had thought Crowley must know because he can sense desire. Except Crowley doesn't turn this sense on all the time. So, at Aziraphael's request he turns it on.... tbc pt 2: And he can sense Aziraphael's desire/wanting (forget how it's phrased) and is all confused. And Aziraphael says something to the effect of "desire is a perfectly normal thing to feel for someone you're in love with". Like that scene is the only part of the fic I remembered and I can't find it and it's driving me nuts ahahah ~anon

2. I seem to have lost a fic. All I really remember about it is that every time Crowley tried to say I love you to Aziraphale, he would instead spit out black goo and get really angsty about it. Thanks! ~anon

3. I was wondering if you could help me find a fic I thought I had bookmarked but lost? It takes place when Adam is fixing everything, but Heaven tries to stop him in the middle of resetting things back to normal. A&C step in to defend him and get caught in the middle, which sends them to a bunch of different universes with different versions of A&C before Adam is able to pull them back and fix their own universe. ~anon

4. Hi! Does anyone know of a fic that takes place at Aziraphale's discreet gentleman's club with Crowley and they're mingling with some of the guys there. Crowley gets desperate trying to get Aziraphale's attention and plays gay chicken with another guy, and they end up having sex while everyone watches? Thank you in advance, sweats;; ~anon

5. So, im looking for this fic... its another pining through the centuries i think but i remember at one point crowley and azira get a portrait done of themselves and crowley slips a poem love confession in the back of azira's portrait before sending the painting to him. They also, near the end, go to a fair in Buffalo NY of all places lol i cant find it! Thanks! ~ @valeriianz

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[nancykali]

your bi post: when the girl breaks nancy's heart jonathan is all fired up and wants to get revenge and steve is all "absolutely not!" but jon scoffs "nothing crazy, was just gonna egg her house" and of course nancy is on board and steve is running a hand through his hair and nancy tells him "i need this." and steve ends up caving and they all go and teepee her house instead (they came upon a mutual agreement, mostly cos steve doesnt want to waste his eggs). idk they just need to teens sometimes

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YAY Stoncy headcanons!! Thank you!!! This totally supports my hc that Steve is a total pushover when it comes to anything Nancy wants and Jonathan is the super protective one who will do anything, including break the law, to make his gf and bf happy. 

Also yes Nancy on revenge missions. If anyone even looks at her boyfriends wrong she’s planning how to make them suffer within the next 24 hours. Someone yells a slur at them in public/at a bar? Nancy will keep track of that fucker and find a way to screw up their mode of transportation (flattening tires without anyone noticing is her specialty), or pick-pocket them (I headcanon she learns this, bc omg can you imagine how easy it is for her? her little cute 5′4″ self flirting the socks off everyone she deceives I love it), or ruin their chances at hooking up with someone if it’s at a bar. My Nancy is a fan of vigilante justice.

And the next girl Nancy hooks up with, they’re just friends with benefits but this girl is on the same page as her and so they call each other when they need to get revenge on some asshole and need backup. Nancy house-sits for this girl and babysits her dog sometimes. Jonathan gives her leftovers. Steve, just like he does for Nancy, protects Nancy’s friend from getting creepers coming onto her at bars when she joins them on nights out. 

Just. Nancy getting a bunch of girl friends (two words) who are okay with her bfs and they just become these regulars in the ot3′s lives. I need Stoncy to have lgbt friends I just need it.