Aug 13
every time I recolor my pink streaks I feel like a capable adult <3
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every time I recolor my pink streaks I feel like a capable adult <3
me: I'd like to speak to the manager, please
brain: yes, what do you want?
me: WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU ?!?!
AAAAAH Oh my goodness 1000 likes already ??? You can't imagine how happy I am, I don't even know why it matters so much to me but it feels good to know that people like my posts apparently *-* Thank you all <3<3<3
How to start considering ED-recovery
this is not a usual "how to start", this is about a consideration phase and a very valid one at that. I went through it, too, for a long time. Here you go∼
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⋮ Watch youtube videos about how to start recovery (for knowledge, knowledge gives comfort) and also some few documentaries about people who are deep inside their ED. You will probably see how miserable they are and feel :(
⋮ List out all of the things you hate about your eating disorder. What does it take from your life?
⋮ Write out what exactly your eating disorder provides you and why you think you can't live without it. Don't be scared to write 10+ things, it's your own list and story! Some of my examples were the control I felt in this chaotic world or feeling special and envied for my body.
⋮ List out the things recovery can give you. If you want to know mine, here is the link to my post: 📝
⋮ Learn to see your body not from your own perspective but from somebody else's, maybe someone you love or just objectively.
⋮ If you want to become / stay underweight, it might help to consider the risks and dangers (yes, I have a long list for this, too, and I recommend reading it: 📝)
⋮ Know that it's never too late and also, it's not impossible to be free forever. Just because some people say you can "never truly be recovered" doesn't mean it's true for you. Nobody can take your life or fate away from you.
⋮ Look around for doctor's offices and specialized clinics in your area, what do they offer, how can they help you once you decided to change?
⋮ Consider how you would approach it. Are you somebody who thinks more black-and-white about their ED or somebody who has to make slow, gradual changes? For me, I'm either black or white, meaning I engage in my ED 100% or I completely resent it. Until I decided to not listen to my ed-voice, I was deep inside it, behaving and listening to it's commands, just considering and considering, but when I finally made the decision to recover, that was the start of my official recovery and I never changed my mind about it. However. I think it's more common to change your behaviours and mind slowly and you should give yourself time and not do impulsive things as this can backfire and catapult you back into your old habits.
⋮ Know that maybe there will never be a "right" time to recover and you shouldn't wait for the "right" feeling
⋮ consider that if you haven't got your ED for a long time, chances of real recovery are higher, so there is no time to lose
⋮ don't forget to think about the root causes of your eating disorder. You don't have to tackle them yet but it can help to know that the ED is "just" a symptom of deeper lying issues (at least in 99% of cases)
⋮ difficult but helpful exercise: how would your life be if you didn't have your ED?
You have to know that recovery is very hard work. I think it's worth it. Furthermore, you have to accept that you might never find one thing that can completely replace it.
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Don't let yourself get pressured, this is your life and your decision. Give yourself time and think this through. I can understand if you reject recovery, I also did for a long time. For most of us it's a coping mechanism to stay alive, after all. I hope you stay healthy as much as possible.
u should change ur name to like valpire fangs cuz like it matches ur actual name and makes it more personal but u still get what it's trying to say yk 🥺
wait that's a very good idea🤯 my only problem is I feel like it distorts the beautiful word vampire too much💔 I'll keep it in mind, though, thank you hehe
can u bite me :3
yes and I'll even turn you
(into a vampire)
ཐཫ Mods on my Nintendo 3DS 🌈 ཀཋ
I'm autistic and made my console more friendly so that certain parts don't distress me. Nintendo didn't leave me any other choice than to modify it.
Disclaimer! I'm not doing anything illegal like piracy (not generally condemning it, though) and I never play online with other people. I run "luma3ds".
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⋮ app to see the exact battery percentage🔋
⋮ muted the (too) loud camera click noise🔇
⋮ lowered the red "battery low"-lights frequency; normally, it blinks very fast and I get kinda panic😅
⋮ a (custom) pretty home screen because I like my things aesthetic and cute🎀 → more familiarity and comfort
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Any ideas on what to add? The list isn't super long but I love lists so here you go!
I love how you're trying to help others while on your own healing journey. You're very sweet and I love your blog 💛
thank you so much, you make me very happy <3<3