#vent again

[kyumyu7]

errr some art i made just now, i was (still am) pretty opposed to posting it but im doing it anyway... i was trying to vent via visual art but im not the best at turning my emotions into cohesive or good drawings. i tend 2 just write them into songs, literature, or musical compositions

[carlthehedgehog]

A vent, you’re welcome to ignore it, I just need it lol🥲

I feel like I’m losing ppl slowly. I’m losing their love, their energy, their kindness and more. I mean idk if I deserve it.

You know, people always tell me “we always love and care about you”, but as time goes on I’ve come to the realization that this saying is a place holder. A bittersweet saying that is intended to make ppl think they helped. I believe this saying is indeed a false statement. Then, when ppl see that I think I’m not loved or that I hate myself, they say “nooooooo don’t hate yourself, you’re awesome!!”.

It feels REALLY forced. It’s like people don’t truly mean it, they say it in order to just seem like a good person with dignity. But it doesn’t really do it.

Maybe I do deserve all of this loneliness, pain, suffering. I’m a messed up person, a destructive hurricane in people’s lives, a fifth wheel, and any other fancy metaphors that may help express my situation.

I can’t be alone. I’ve been alone for a month. I haven’t seen the people I love for soooo long, I haven’t been in school, which sucks ngl, because I know that this year, which was quite fine, is passing, and soon all the people I truly love will actually leave.

One by one, no one stays until the end. Slowly people will start seeing through my skin, my mask, and reveal my true self. And that is where they will leave. Because everyone leaves, no one fucking cares about you in the end of the day, where you get buried after surviving a so called “life”.

Man, I’m tired. Tired of doing this shit, of going on, of everything at this point.

I just need a hug.

[silentredpierroty]

Sorry if I'm venting too much here, but I created this account because I think having a profile to post whatever I want is better than staying in a fandom that hurts me, and I'm still sad about leaving that fandom

I liked the characters, but literally nobody liked me. At first they hated me because of yumeship, and then that boy decided to spread around that I'm a horrible person. I hate how I can never stay in a fandom without something bad happening

[mentally-ill-loser-rants]

Is my trauma really that bad or am I just overreacting

[takingmytimeonmyride]

I just have to find my Ushka of something (a masochist to match my sadistic ways)

This is related to yesterday's post about me being romantically sadistic btw

[soggy0lampshade]

I hate when my parents are openly trans/homophobic around me, it just makes me feel so much worse about myself knowing they wouldn’t actually care about me if they knew.

[hanniblr-com]

not even hannibal would want to eat me, why is that making me so sad

[xxrandom1girlxxxx]

Life is killing me

Me if I keep thinking about his ex who is still into him 𓆩♱𓆪