I have decided that the same way there are non binary lesbians (and I love you all) I can be non binary and gay !! and that's a perfectly valid way to describe my identity !! and I'm not gonna keep worrying about not having a term to describe me more accurately !!
I've been searching for a term to describe my attraction for years now. I usually say I'm asexual and aro-spec (which is true) and ignore telling people specifics about the attraction part. I used to say I'm biromantic, but since I realised I don't really like women (being greyromantic makes it hard to know, but I'm pretty pretty sure I'm only atracted to men and nonbinary people) I've been searching for a good term to describe that. I'm nonbinary, transmasculine and agender, so I'm not really a gay man, but obviously not straight either.
Toric, viramoric, torenromantic, androromantic and uranic sound cool and are kinda accurate, but they are too obscure to use on a day to day basic.
And I do identify partly with masculinity, my attraction feels gay to me because I often find myself liking people with a gender and gender expression similar to mine.
So gay is it!! I'm just a little queer in love with my little gay boyfriend, we have an achillean toric enbian relationship and I love all my fag transmasc friends.