#walking my path

[bolontiku]

Just scared a man two feet taller than me at the bookstore.

I didn't move from my path and he continued to walk into my way, I didn't move. He nearly ran me over but apologized profusely.

The brother is not amused.

[witchinthenight]

Whenever I ask my spirit guide to help me with a tarot reading the results blow my freakin’ mind!

Like, as in, the results are correct on a multiple levels. Over and over again I see how the cards were right and I’m just sort of in awe about how on point my guide is. 

[glitchedpup]

For some reason my Ankh feels better in my hand than on my neck

It’s weird. I noticed it the other day when i took it off to look at it (I usually only take it off to clean it) .

On my neck it is rarely noticed

It feels like an old friend in my hand. A snakey silver necklace friend.

Strange..but welcome.

[glitchedpup]

I am saddened I will miss the eclipse due to work

My dreams are slowly returning to "normal" (normal for me often includes demon banishing and screaming relatives. Woot!) I am still remarkably sleepy and tired lately. It feels ties to the eclipse but perhaps I am making unwarranted connections. After going to a peace protest yesterday I felt drained from being in the sun so much (odd for a worshipper of Ra but quite expected for me. Prolonged sun exposure has always tired me) which I counteracted with way too much caffeine, which naturally kept me awake most of the night, which led to me sleeping all day today. I am, all-around, okay I think.

[glitchedpup]

Dream updates.

So, still having dreams involving blow outs with my family which i think are my subconscious version of releasing anger over things i cannot control.

More interesting is the sea village i ended up in in one dream. I think I’ve been there once or twice before. It’s made out of tons of piers and floating houses and docks on the ocean.

Well.. I decided to look for “hidden places” and well, I found some!

Each of these little holes or canals i found led to a seemingly different water world.

Some were friendly, some were hostile, some had poisonous algae, others had a built in roaming filtration robots that kept the environment in balance... that particular place was very about being in balance with nature.

Eventually, I met up with a couple and for some reason I had to go into this house where the first level was almost entirely underwater . I was looking for someone who wandered off.

I eventually found them but they were exhausted and it was getting late and cold so we stayed  on this risen up platform that had a furnace on it burning very...very low.

I realized if we were going to be okay i needed to get it going, but being underwater everything was soaked...and anything I fed it was quickly consumed to ash.

I left my partner there and went exploring... eventually reaching a means to the second floor which was dry.

This entire house had an...ethereal vibe to it. I remember roaming around and looking for awhile at things until.. a stuffed animal called me to it. (I think..it was a penguin)

It took my hand and kept rubbing it, softly at first and then more briskly. It may have hurt slightly but i was more transfixed at the fact my skin started glowing and a bindrune of sorts appeared. (I think Isa was one of them..i remember that word being in my mind) and then it sent me off to light the furnace.

Meanwhile I, subconsciously fighting with myself about Isa being ice related and here I am commanding a furnace to produce flame....

It worked... It /really/ worked. I held my hand to the furnace and it flared to life, heating the area with no extra fuel and providing a cooking surface so I could make some food for everyone as well (at this point theres like...three or four of us) 

Later on in the dream (or maybe a separate dream) I was hosting a sleepover of sorts in a similar (if not the same) house

I dont remember much of that dream except that I brokered an interview with someone and a demon...and the demon was going to end up with the winning side.  

It’s hard to keep dreams seperate when i kept getting woken up briefly before drifting back.

[glitchedpup]

It was  a rabbit or raccoon that dashed in front of me outside..and that yipping is a fox or coyote... it has nothing to do with the fact i was walking outside to leave a seasoned peach pit and flesh outside while thinking of Fae and land spirits...

[glitchedpup]

There is ringing a tuning fork.. and then there is watching someone elses dream from year ago nearly verbatim quote battles i have held with myself.

,,,You give me hope I can get through it

[glitchedpup]

Todays report

I spent some more time outside. Tried meditating, tried napping but was too restless. so, I ended up telling a story to a tree...and babbling a lot. I still dont speak tree so for all i know i gave it a plant version of a headache...still, i tried.

I wiped down my altar quickly for tomorrow and wiped the statues with blessed water/ ( I use the wiccan holidays to clean the altar and write them a letter. It helps me keep a pattern. I did miss Litha.....)

I came in and took a shower expecting to feel.. well.. renewed a bit.

I dont. I feel... slightly sad. Maybe im just tired from my horrid sleep habits the past few nights? I just know i feel heavy.

I harvested some mugwort, mint, and sage as well. I was going to clip some yarrow for the altar but all of it was burned from the sun lately.

I;ll try to go to bed earlier tonight.... maybe I just need more sleep.

Happy Lammas