#writers hell

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fr tho having adhd and/or being easily distracted is so fucking funny sometimes- for example, im trying to write an intense angst scene and my brain is googling shit like:

"which language has the most words"

"5 gum marketing tactics"

"where did Josh Ramsay grow up"

"name of the oldest BC Ferries vessel on the tsawassen-swartz route"

"what does gop mean"

"does alberta have an accent"

"history of morphine"

"how do african greys learn to talk"

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making a rewrite to a longfic you wrote 3 years ago is fun until you have to consult the original like its wikipedia every 10 minutes

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did anyone else experience super high view counts for their fics during the pandemic & misses it specifically for that reason???

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Day #3 of no sleep: i have written 3 chapters for my fic (last night's totaling 9,000+ words), i can feel sound and my phone feels like it might be alive but kate bush isn't playing in my ceiling yet so thats a good sign

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i am dying of cramps and im so piSSED CAUSE I JUST WANNA WRITE MAN FUCK

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*sits down to write an intense hurt/comfort/angst scene*

*ends up making a bandana out of a plastic bag*

in other news I SWEAR THE NEXT CHAP IS HALF DONE✨

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✨fic update

its currently 11:42 pm pst and im working on an extended amount of cigarettes & some random pill i found in my satchel to get the ✨drive✨ to continue- expect both chaps by tonight/early morning

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✨️fic update

reworked a bit of the next chap of the rewrite & added some more last night while high on whatever shitmix i chose (cant wait to see how much editing i'll need lmao)

currently on a days-long binge due to my flavourful breakup and have used said binge to tear apart my room with the fire of a Personality Reboot circa 2015™️ so honestly, if the chap doesn't come in the next few days expect it in the beginning of April somewhere lol