School sucks and I care way too much about what other people think. I was just minding my own business today in English when I realized that I forget to turn a note into the attendance office (it’s a note from a parent that allows me to sign myself out of school in order to sit and eat lunch with my dad in the car. I know it’s lame but I’m forced to do it) anyways, I forgot so out of an instinct I facepalmed and said something like “oh dang it” idk lol, and then just tried to continue doing work, but then I heard these two friends start whispering (kinda) about me. It was definitely about me because they mentioned a girl talking to herself which had to have been me, it was just too convenient. So I got embarrassed and tried so hard not to listen to what they were saying but it was so quiet, so I kept listening and feeling worse about myself. Then I guess they must of noticed how bad I felt and they KEPT talking about me, like wth? I guess the girl friend must have felt bad or something based on what I heard, but it doesn’t stop there because I had her for the next period too. I just spent the rest of class feeling bad then in the next class I had her in, I became too paranoid and accidentally made eye contact with a guy, which he talked about with his friend, then the girl from the last class came and started talking with a group of friends the guy was in about what happened to her and how weird I was acting. Them continuing to talk just made me feel worse and made it hard to focus and they had to have caught on to this so they just kept talking about me for almost the whole class. They basically were just saying how weird I was acting (even though I was just trying to do school work) and how I was probably depressed or had schizophrenia? What?? Idek man I just wanted to be left alone… so then I left and continued to feel bad about the whole thing. I felt like the time I kinda acted weird was when I head a hard time focusing on work because I mostly just stared at the screen and using my hand to rest my head. I think I might be over this…but I just wish people didn’t see me this way. I already worry all the time about little things I do how and how others perceive them, so this really isn’t helping me at all. I just don’t get why people think it’s ok at all to talk bad about someone else they don’t even know, and who did nothing to them especially when they’re literally in the same room as them. Hepl? Actually never mind I know I’m taking this way too seriously probably, but still it hurts :(….