Yesterday I spent the day with my best friend, Jenny. We spent the day in Saugatuck MI chillaxing at the beach, climbing the dunes, and checking out the local shops full of beautiful art and homemade goods. My heart is so full. I need to make it a point to spend time with people I care about more often but my first instinct is to isolate because that’s what I’m most comfortable with. I need to stop doing that though because I’m missing out on making precious memories!
Also, this was my first time wearing a bikini at a public beach!!! I felt good in the moment but when I looked at this picture I started picking myself apart thinking I look bloated and I should have done better with my diet before letting the world see my body. But that’s not what life is about man!!! I’m not gonna hold myself back just because I don’t think my body looks perfect because my body is never gonna look perfect and I’m gonna do what I want and I’m gonna own it.
My weight is 167 right now. It’s not the end of the world. I don’t hate myself, I’m not mad at myself, but I need to start making better choices for my health again. Party time is over, it’s time to get back to training for the inevitable zombie apocalypse 💪🏻
