“unrequited, terrifying” | k. taerae
desc. | loosely based off the song “from the start” by laufey. where (y/n) cannot bear to be just friends with kim taerae.
pairing | kim taerae x male!reader
genre | angst? into fluff, songfic
warnings | unrequited love kind of
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i get quiet when there's no one else around?
me and you and awkward silence
it was another instance where you and taerae were left alone in a room together. you hated these times because of how you felt towards him. you could never work up the courage to talk to him while he would do whatever. for the both of you, it was awkward silence.
don't you dare look at me that way
i don't need reminders of how you don't feel the same
everytime taerae smiled at you, with that stupid, amazing, wide, bright smile, you wanted to scream. everytime he flashed that smile at you, once you got past the part where you mindlessly yell in your head, you thought about how he smiled at everyone. he wasn’t into you like you were into him.
listening to you harp on ‘bout some new soulmate
“she's so perfect” blah blah blah
when you were hanging out together with friends, taerae would always talk about his girlfriend. it was like he would purposely yell it directly in your ear to make you jealous. you wanted to meet this girl who he described as “so amazing at everything she does!”
oh, how i wish you'll wake up one day
run to me, confess your love, at least just let me say that
every day, you daydreamed that he would run to your house in the rain. he would bang at your door, drenched in water. you would open the door to see him, and he would rant about how he just broke up with his girlfriend because he realized that he couldn't lie about his feelings anymore and how he loved you the entire time and then he would go in for the kiss.
when i talk to you, oh cupid walks right through
and shoots an arrow through my heart
“hey (y/n), what are you thinking about?” taerae said, snapping you out of your daydream. the two of you were hanging out. in fact, it was the first time in a few months. he was looking at you through his disgustingly adorable glasses, with his signature shining smile.
“that i could go for a bite..” you said quickly, which wasn’t a complete lie. you were a bit hungry.
“honestly, me too.. wanna get lunch?” taerae asked innocently.
it would be absolutely foolish of you to say yes. practically insane! but before your brain even processed this, your mouth started to move.
“i would love to have lunch with you!” you said cheerfully.
“oh great another awkward lunch date with him,” you thought to yourself.
shortly after though, you gained some resolve. if nothing was going to happen, why bother even trying to like him. of course, it was much much much easier said than done, but you weren’t going to let your unrequited love for taerae determine your relationship with him.
even if he would never date you, it would be alright.
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it was time for your lunch date with taerae. you had spent some of the time getting ready, but most of it was trying to shove your feelings for him even further down than they already were.
taerae honked at your door and you exited your home, preparing for what would most likely be a hard night.
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the car ride was actually quite bearable, all things considered. sure there were moments of silence, but the two of you mostly bonded like you used to. you were doing a good job at hiding your feelings.
the two of you actually managed to talk for the whole lunch and even managed to get a few photos together. it was now right after lunch, you and taerae were outside the restaurant.
taerae looked at you and gave you his million dollar smile, “thanks for today! i had a really great time.”
you smiled back at him, “yeah i also had a really great time! do you wanna do this again sometime?”
the two of you locked eyes, before taerae pulled you into a hug. “i had a really good time (y/n), it feels like forever since we’ve talked like that.”
and that was all it took for all your feelings to come rushing back to the surface. it hit you fast that you couldn’t be “just friends” with him. it hurt too much to hear him talk about his girlfriend, to not be the one that holds him.
you softly pulled away from the hug. “taerae.. i can’t do this anymore.”
he had an expression that was a mix of confusion and concern. “what do you mean?”
your eyes darted nervously, before your mouth opened to confess your thoughts, “taerae, i’ve liked you for so long, and i can't just be friends with you. i tried so hard to accept that you were dating this girl, but it hurt to hear you talk about her. i wanted to be her, desperately. and i could never explain this to you! i didn't want to completely shatter our relationship!” your eyes locked on his eyes.
as you prepared to get shot down you saw his priceless smile.
“(y/n).. i broke up with her a month ago. i broke up with her because i realized that.. that, i was in love with you. i've wanted to tell you for so long, but i thought that you wouldn’t feel the same.”
your lips were just slightly parted, surprised by the information you just received.
taerae grabbed your hands, wrapping his hand around your fingers and holding them out in front of you. “i would love it if we could hang out sometime? as not friends.”
you closed your mouth before grinning, “does this mean you’ll be my boyfriend, kim taerae?”
he let go of your hands before interlocking your fingers with each other. he kissed your forehead before saying, “of course, boyfriend.”
you were practically jumping up and down when you gave him the biggest smile you could physically create.
“well then will you drive me home, boyfriend?” you asked, a hint of sarcasm in your tone.
“what kind of a boyfriend would i be if i didn't?” he replied back, also joking.
the two of you hurriedly went back to taerae’s car, speeding back home.
i know i've loved you from the start.
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a.n | this took a while to write because i just didn’t have motivation 😓😓. it’s here now though! i love taerae and this song is just too good to not get inspired off of. go stream it before bewitched comes out tmrw!!