The Enkidu Journals

Cpt. Farris' problem child. Cressidum 5016u, 7th Hour Squad Tashanya "TBKitten" Bast Art by @shadefish Main @justtheenkiduthings

[tashanyabast]

Sup Sup, Tashanya Bast here known also as Cpt. Farris problem child, no relations just my CO, callsign TBKitten.

Service record Rio Grande, Cressidium Conflict: Battle for Nov Elysia, Operation Spear

Shock troop of 7th Hour Squad, squad leader Raymus Durane

Chassis of choice: SecCom pattern Enkidu "M.I.L.K.", GMS Everest "Mother"

Cpt. Farris and that Union Shrink said I need to journal and get my story out there, that I might find others who been through the same thing or something like that. Feel free to ask me such and what not, Shrink said it would help me open up.

Guess to start out I should at least explain who I am and why I ended up on Cressidium. Well a Second Committee super soldier project made me, batch of clones built with the sole purpose of piloting the Enkidu frame. Unluckily I was in program for a long time until Third found the facility and over time rehabilitated us, mostly. Ended up on the Rio Grande under Cpt. Farris as part of some squad built entirely of former Harrison Armory troops. She thought having a squad of former HA troops would make for good parade group or great for security during negation talks planet side. Well sure as shit things went sour and the Vestans shot first. Turns out a squad of former HA already in city just means conflict escalates and collateral skyrockets.

[nuggomed]

To all new Enkidu frame pilots, that primal bloodlust and need for carnage you feel deep in your soul while piloting is completely normal. Do not listen to the people saying "you need to go back go normal" or "you should pilot something else." Those feelings are completely normal. All frames make you feel like this. It is just a feature to make you a better pilot.

Do not worry about the intimidating woman in black leather who makes you call her Handler either. She is there to help you, She only wants whats best for you. Its completely normal for you to rely on Her more and more the longer you pilot your frame. It makes you a better pilot.

Do not worry about the muzzle and collar she puts on you. It is only there to help bring out your potential. You need it to become the most feared and respected pilot you can be.

So go on pilot, bark for Her. You know you want to, you know you need to. You will be such a good pilot hound for Her.

[tashanyabast]

Entry 6

Took sometime this day to disconnect parts of MILK to limit its feed to the pilot interface. Thank you past kitten for the planning ahead cause it really made the next part easier. So, had a chance to chat with our newest member Yu, and most responsible union member who got assigned to us. He is trying get me, ray, and gene to change up how we do things. Less kick in doors and bag people, more hearts and minds work ya know? Yu has been trying to figure out how to get through to us and well I took the time to extend a branch. I opened up to him some, trying to get him to understand where I'm from what I've been through and why I pilot my Enkidu. He was shocked to learn that I'm not all bloodlust like my dossier paints me to be, but more shocked to learn about my life before Union shut down project nature and the life that followed. Yu asked me bout things like what happened when my world shattered, bout why it is I can be so volatile, bout my frame and siblings. It was nice honestly having someone show interest in it all and not just condemn me for my past. He even gave me a good analogy to explain why I only pilot MILK, said its like a lock and key. Sure you can slot the key into other locks but it ain't gonna turn but the moment you slot it into the right lock it turns freely. Beats having to explain the whole being custom made, trained, and wired to pilot the Sec-com Pattern Enkidu. Our talk went well until we got to the end, I offered Yu a chance to fully understand me and what I go through, why sometimes I can't stop on the field. Got him in the seat and hooked up, gave him a slow start with very limit'd systems online. Funny enough the assisted breathing mask surprised him but not for long as the IV's inserted themselves and started to pump drugs into him. Bout this point I fully introduced him to my co-pilot/handle/support system, Matryoshka who then activated sedation protocols to help bring him out of it all.

After this I think he really got why I struggle with things on the field. In exchange for all this he asked me to try to spare the pilots and disable their chassis. I agreed cause I wanna be a better person than my reputation, but like Yu also understood that it would be hard for me but I'll do my best. Honestly I think this is the start of something going better for me. Though he did ask me a good question at the time "What comes after war? After I kill my creator?"

[tashanyabast]

Entry 5

Fuck-Fuck-Fuck, it happened, it fucking happened finally, I lost it in field. I broke. Ray asked, no he told me to keep going, Ray said I could handle it that I would be fine. I could handle the hits, the punishment, parts of me... no not me, my Enkidu parts being torn off. It hurt so much, but I trusted Ray. He told me I could handle it. Finally, I snapped something in me twisted. There weren't any more allies there, I had to get the next one. The closest one, I had to keep doing what Ray told me to do and rip them all apart. It wasn't until they shut me down did I see my claws ripping into Ray.... into his Gilgamesh.

I failed him, I failed the squad I lost control. I know they are going to replace me now, I know I will be put to the whipping post again just like in the schoolhouse. They will never trust me again, I failed them all. I don't want to leave the cockpit anymore, I can picture their faces looking at me like some feral animal. Something to be put down now that I bit the hands that feed me.

I was supposed to be better.

[quixote-ngc]

Christ the fucking Buddha...

Just-

Just stop and breathe for a second. You aren't back there. You're here. No one is going to whip you.

Yes, you're in trouble. Friendly fire is something just about everyone trains against, hard. But it's also a thing that happens, and they knew it might happen when they let you out in that berserk monster of a chassis.

It's gonna be okay. If nothing else, I have the info for some sanctimonious DOJ/HR assholes who would love another excuse to put their jackboots on.

... assuming they don't get eaten by graywash.

[tashanyabast]

I wish it were that easy to just stop and breathe, but that's what the meds are for ya know? if anything send supply shipment our way. Captain sent us on a deep strike behind the lines and has us hold up in an enemy occupied city. Local rebels got some supplies but nothing to really sustain us here long term. Luckily, I was able to make some extra preparations in case I lose my shit again gave Ray and the other level head a remote shut down and turn over.

[tashanyabast]

Have you ever encountered a Wa.zal mech?

Seen a handful of things, but ain't think I ever come across Waffenfabrik Zalewski's frames. Shit even asked around the hanger if anyone heard of em, best we got is someone who thinks they knew a guy who ran a scrapyard that had a shipment of them come in.

[tashanyabast]

Entry 5

Fuck-Fuck-Fuck, it happened, it fucking happened finally, I lost it in field. I broke. Ray asked, no he told me to keep going, Ray said I could handle it that I would be fine. I could handle the hits, the punishment, parts of me... no not me, my Enkidu parts being torn off. It hurt so much, but I trusted Ray. He told me I could handle it. Finally, I snapped something in me twisted. There weren't any more allies there, I had to get the next one. The closest one, I had to keep doing what Ray told me to do and rip them all apart. It wasn't until they shut me down did I see my claws ripping into Ray.... into his Gilgamesh.

I failed him, I failed the squad I lost control. I know they are going to replace me now, I know I will be put to the whipping post again just like in the schoolhouse. They will never trust me again, I failed them all. I don't want to leave the cockpit anymore, I can picture their faces looking at me like some feral animal. Something to be put down now that I bit the hands that feed me.

I was supposed to be better.

[turboskrunk]

"Sir, they're painting us with a laser designator but we have no visual confirmation of any missiles being fired."

The catgirl mech pilot cresting a ridge: >O.O<

[hot-claws-420]

hot take the Tokugawa pisses me off a lil nott cause its a bad mech but cause it doesnt meow

liek Seccom were evil and i want 2 eat all of their remnants alive like the worlds freshest sashimi but at least they had the basic artistic vision to make their protester shredder 9000 a funny catgirl

[tashanyabast]

They domesticated the Toku, Sally they declawed the poor girl, they took her and rebuilt her to be best in show

[salt-forum]

Just got done reading through "The Cat and The Catastrophe" I do have a few notes

1. Kiggin's mech doesn't smell of gunpowder and sweat its more like a stale stout and lemon.

2. I don't just swoon that easily, like come on I know you people from Cyan team read the reports on us in 7th hour

3. really really good ending and I did like the timing with the apocalypse rail finally firing during the peak of the climax.

Overall made for a good read though I do wish you picked a better voice actor for the audio book

》 Tashanya Bast

Love the feedback and thank you, sadly I don't do any of the casting for the audio, tho I occasionally make recommendations. For this last one I was unable to give my opinion but do agree both kitten and kiggins sounded very different from what I had imagined when writing.

[tashanyabast]

I've recently started "tangled claws" I'm not to far into but I gotta ask why did you start this book on a mech shower scene? Not even the main cast just some joe smoe getting cleaned up, like way to much on the details about this guy's mech

[union-gms-support]

Ya'll wouldn't happen to have a conversion for the GMS shotgun to accept Daisy Cutter rounds? If not could I could like under barrel mounting rails to put a Daisy Cutter as an underslung? I wanna give it to our artilery guy as a gift, lil extra CQB never hurt

》 Tashanya Bast

Huh....Well let me pull some stuff up and i'll get back to you....-J

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Alright so, depends on your technical ability. Unfortunately we don't do conversions, but should be possible-J

[tashanyabast]

I know enough to make stuff sorta kinda work, how much speed tape and glue are we looking at? or is this more of a needs a welding torch and strong hand type modification.

[union-gms-support]

The second one probably, But I am obligated to inform you that modifying your GMS prints is not recommended-J

[tashanyabast]

The normal warranty voiding or is this a getting hit by fines? either or way send the details cause uhhh Gene is getting his shotty for his hoty of Barbarossa for his birthday.

if there are any fines bill them to the Union ship Rio Grande 7th Hour Squad leader Raymus

[union-gms-support]

You just can't blame us if the thing explodes on you or something.-J

[tashanyabast]

Rodger that and I'll keep ya updated on how it ends, receiving instructions now

[union-gms-support]

Ya'll wouldn't happen to have a conversion for the GMS shotgun to accept Daisy Cutter rounds? If not could I could like under barrel mounting rails to put a Daisy Cutter as an underslung? I wanna give it to our artilery guy as a gift, lil extra CQB never hurt

》 Tashanya Bast

Huh....Well let me pull some stuff up and i'll get back to you....-J

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Alright so, depends on your technical ability. Unfortunately we don't do conversions, but should be possible-J

[tashanyabast]

I know enough to make stuff sorta kinda work, how much speed tape and glue are we looking at? or is this more of a needs a welding torch and strong hand type modification.

[union-gms-support]

The second one probably, But I am obligated to inform you that modifying your GMS prints is not recommended-J

[tashanyabast]

The normal warranty voiding or is this a getting hit by fines? either or way send the details cause uhhh Gene is getting his shotty for his hoty of Barbarossa for his birthday.

if there are any fines bill them to the Union ship Rio Grande 7th Hour Squad leader Raymus

[union-gms-support]

Ya'll wouldn't happen to have a conversion for the GMS shotgun to accept Daisy Cutter rounds? If not could I could like under barrel mounting rails to put a Daisy Cutter as an underslung? I wanna give it to our artilery guy as a gift, lil extra CQB never hurt

》 Tashanya Bast

Huh....Well let me pull some stuff up and i'll get back to you....-J

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Alright so, depends on your technical ability. Unfortunately we don't do conversions, but should be possible-J

[tashanyabast]

I know enough to make stuff sorta kinda work, how much speed tape and glue are we looking at? or is this more of a needs a welding torch and strong hand type modification.

[salt-forum]

Can you explain these books my CO set on my squad's briefing table? How did you learn about 7th hour's activities........ How in the 42 heavens and hells did you figure out how matryoshka and I interact? Does Raymus know?

》 Tashanya-Bast

Well they are books you read them. As for how I know things.... I have my ways both standard and paracausal. As for if raymus knows I have no clue. As I haven't been watching him that closely as my next book is about another member I'm thinking Vestran rebel x Union officer. The publisher wants me to try my hand at political romance.

[tashanyabast]

How did I not see these planet side, your writing is good but I have to correct you in the book Fear and Claws? Raymus isn't that tall but other than that you got everything right girl. Well the stuff based on the battle reports at least.

[salt-forum]

I know he isn't that tall, but the plot demanded his height be adjusted so it could parallel his control of the dynamic as the squad leader. If I describe everyone too accurately it causes too much dissonance in the symbolism and tone. Also of the three drafts I had for that series the publishers liked the less accurate version. Tho I would like to know your opinion on my newest published series "the Cat and the Catastrophe". I put a lot of work into that one but the publisher was skeptical if it would work.

[tashanyabast]

I don't think I have seen that one yet, what is it about? I'll do what I can provide correct details on things. If ya need a direct interview or something I guess I could do that but I will need to clear it with my Captain.

[salt-forum]

Can you explain these books my CO set on my squad's briefing table? How did you learn about 7th hour's activities........ How in the 42 heavens and hells did you figure out how matryoshka and I interact? Does Raymus know?

》 Tashanya-Bast

Well they are books you read them. As for how I know things.... I have my ways both standard and paracausal. As for if raymus knows I have no clue. As I haven't been watching him that closely as my next book is about another member I'm thinking Vestran rebel x Union officer. The publisher wants me to try my hand at political romance.

[tashanyabast]

How did I not see these planet side, your writing is good but I have to correct you in the book Fear and Claws? Raymus isn't that tall but other than that you got everything right girl. Well the stuff based on the battle reports at least.

[pawns-into-queens]

Omninet search: "Mech with claws"

Omninet search: "how to fight mechs with claws tutorial fast"

Omninet search: "best tactics to use as an assault type grunt"

Omninet search by image:

[tashanyabast]

Good news they tend to keep distance from their allies for their own safety

Bad news when the claws are out she gonna chase you down if you run and rip your mech in half

My recommendation, looks like the standard model scramble her sensors, keep her blind and she will calm down. The pilot can easily be wrangled after due to being worn down from the murder high. If ya really desperate put her on ice with dumping plenty of coolant on her.

[patriarch-nhp-official]

I can’t believe I’ve had to tell multiple squadrons this, but please do not use the Tokugawa’s or any frame’s heat exhausts to cook food. The exhaust contains chemicals unsafe for consumption.

I know it’s fast, but please, just eat your rations.

[tashanyabast]

Is it okay to still use the external batteries when their hot? The heat sink fins on the work great as a grill.

[hot-claws-420]

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