not pro, just suffering

20 / queer / tw: ed

[tea-clementine]

stats ✨

cw: 60.5 kg // bmi 23.9

hw: 63.1 kg

lw: 52.6 kg

ugw: 46 kg // bmi 18.2

on track for 0 days

[tea-clementine]

spent waaay too much money on clubbing tnght it's 2am & I'm drunk af. ate a TON of junk food at double team night (aka both the footvall players & the cheerleaders hanging out) and them also got fries at a fast food place after clubbing. I have work ymrw ughhh but it's not until 1pm so it's gonna be fine

[tea-clementine]

i'm back home again, let's see if i can stop binging again 😩 literally ate sandwiches four times yesterday for no reason as well as a huge bowl of popcorn and half a bag of chips with dip, on top of normal meals 🥴

[tea-clementine]

it's 7:30pm and i've literally just laid in bed watching tiktok all day long

[failed-apple]

go drink some water you bitch

Based on the fact that youre dehydrated!

[tea-clementine]

april 16th ✨

black coffee // 2 kcal

yellow lentil spaghetti with pasta sauce, fish balls, spinach and nutritional yeast // 682 kcal

sugar-free pineapple soda // 3 kcal

peach & passionfruit curd // 90 kcal

sugar-free energy drink + strawberry & raspberry protein bar // 207 kcal

sugar-free energy drink + mint caramel bcaa shake // 185 kcal

pineapple bcaa drink // 15 kcal

total: 1200 kcal, 93g protein

tdee: 2750 kcal

fasted: 11h30

[tea-clementine]

gym log // april 16th

you can tell i've been eating like shit for the past week bc i was only able to jog for 10 mins at 7 km/h (dist: 1.17 km)

focused therefore on the machines and did ten reps of each for two rounds

glute press - 14kg

leg press - 40kg

rotary torso - 9kg

lower back - 27kg

abdom - 18kg

chest press - 16kg

shoulder press - 7kg

vert row - 25kg

leg curl - 25kg

leg ext - 11kg

finished at 00:09 so technically i've been to the gym twice this week lol

[tea-clementine]

it's 23:19, i jsut arrived at the gym & realized i forgot to pack an athleisure top so i'm forced to workout in a basic high-neck long sleeve shirt 🙃🙃

[vxmitbxnnie-deactivated20230301]

I’ll be like “I’m so gross and fat, I wish I was smaller and could restrict properely” then eat 3 servings of cereal

[vxmitbxnnie-deactivated20230301]

i’m wasting my youth with this stupid disorder and i can’t even do it right

[hoecemetery]

Is that an eating disorder or am I just on a very restrictive diet that makes me cry 4 times a day, makes me hate myself and prevents me from going to restaurants and eat bread

[fatpotatosaysmoo]

things I'm good at

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being insane

[tea-clementine]

i start an 8h evening shift (6 of it in self-checkkout) in 15 mins and it's busy af, i'm gonna go mental today

[tea-clementine]

2.5 hours in & my voice is nearly completely gone for some reason?? whyyy

[tea-clementine]

i start an 8h evening shift (6 of it in self-checkkout) in 15 mins and it's busy af, i'm gonna go mental today

[adampvrrish]

my fatal flaw is that if i don't want to do something i just won't do it like mama raised a quitter for sure.. i'll be doing something and suddenly be like damn what if i just didn't 🤔. very freeing but also i suffer so many consequences

[chickey-alfrede-deactivated2023]

As soon as i loose 100 pounds, stop picking at my skin, buy 10000 dollars worth of pretty clothes, and get a therapist its over for all yall bitches

[catboyaoi]

wow this cannot be good for me *keeps doing it*