Oct 4, 2024
Really at the lowest place in my life and I can only talk about it on here cause I pushed away all the people who care about me. All I want to do is hide nowadays from everyone and everything truly just wish I could fade away. I sit in bed in the dark day after day with nothing to look forward to. I’ve felt empty for so long I forgot how it is be full of life. Nothing is exciting nothing is anything at all every day is just blurred into the next. The only time I feel anything is when I’m fucked up. I’ve created life three times this past year just to destroy it. I’m destroying myself too. I wish I could go back to who I used to be but I can’t find her anymore
