terrrible thrills

jack antonoff is very interesting to me

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Made this “blog” or “account” when I was deep into my addiction. I knew I wanted to get better when whiskey started tasting like water, when I got irrationally angry and sad when that sweet feeling wore off. At some point, I started taking painkillers at work so I didn’t smell like alcohol. I just didn’t want to be sober.

Looking back at old selfies I had sent my friends while drunk or high, I realized I was barely hiding it.

I looked like a stranger. Lost and scared.

I’m 845 days sober now and have zero cravings and I see the world differently now. How great the air smells. How blue the sky is. How the sun feels on my skin. How the sidewalk grinds on my boots.

I’m thankful I got better.

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jack antonoff eating

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“Moving all alone

I won't attach now

Growing like a wave

To anywhere far

Crashing all alone

I won't attach now

Pick you up, take you down

Cross our hearts and backbone”

You and I Undercover // Steel Train (2010)

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jack antonoff during his Steel Train era

(just doing shit)

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changed my my lockscreen and homescreen

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1:27 AM - Goodnight to whoever reads this :)

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listening to this while walking on an empty sidewalk at 2am >>>

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a getty image watermark won’t get in my way

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hi :)

i’m just posting pictures of jack that i like here because i’m bored. i don’t expect anyone to find this page but if you do- hello!

btw i don’t actually know how to use tumblr

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