anti-endo will & margot !!

[that-original-lifeline]

✮⋆˙ introduction ⋆｡°✩

★☆ will & margot || he/him (w), she/they (m) || (bodily) 18 ☆★

✮ about us ✮

we are will & margot, cohosts (& fictives/protectors) in an osdd system. this blog is… basically a combination of syscourse and what functions as our own personal blog (separate from main so we can actually post as ourselves).

basic dni criteria applies (queerphobic, terf, pro endo, radqueer, pro generative ai, pro ice/cops, etc. etc.), and keep in mind that we are autistic and have other disorders that may affect our communication.

i (will) tend to type in lowercase and margot uses uppercase. neither of us particularly enjoy using proxies. however, if we do, the 🐾 or 🦌 emojis are what i (will) use & margot uses ☔️.

[antiendosoap]

can we all get more positive about source attached alters

[syscultureis]

sysculture, specifically when you're prone to splitting and having fictives, is "I really like this character, I wonder why I don't have an introject of them" and then guess who's there

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[that-original-lifeline]

i enjoy how margot scheduled our therapy appointment for 11 am today and didn’t tell me i think that was really considerate (who the fuck schedules an 11 am appointment)

[that-original-lifeline]

update this was a great session, we talked about (checks list) hannibal nbc, the haunting of hill house, backrooms (the movie), quantum mechanics, and liminal spaces ☝️

[that-original-lifeline]

i enjoy how margot scheduled our therapy appointment for 11 am today and didn’t tell me i think that was really considerate (who the fuck schedules an 11 am appointment)

[that-original-lifeline]

synesthesia is really funny. i adore being called will, but i despise william. not because i hate the name itself, but because i hate the taste (as compared to just will). william is slippery cold noodles that aren't supposed to be consumed cold, and will is warm oatmeal chocolate chip cookies

[syscultureis]

Sysculture is when the one fronting wasn't really following the conversation but the cocon one was/fronter forgot a word and cocon remembered it and says it/fronter messing something or other and cocon is trying to walk them through it and cocon jyst fully getting ignored. Like, guys, please. We'll look like far less of an idiot if you just listen to my advise that they'll never even know you're cheating off of

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[telamonstance]

I honestly find the "sysmed" label so weird.

Comparing systems with transmeds and queer identities has always been weird imo.

[the-golden-gates-system]

Shout out to systems this disability pride month. We all deserve a nap with zero nightmares

[syscultureis]

autistic system culture is coming to front and seeing that one specific alter has been fronting for three days straight and eating nothing but one specific sandwich so much so that he keeps buying the ingredients for it again. and also someone blew 50 bucks on a microphone yesterday and busted our lip open

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[million-with-a-b]

Reblog if you are a safe place for people who used to identify as endogenic/tulpas before realizing they were either a) a DID/OSDD system or b) not a system at all

im trying to see something

[that-original-lifeline]

whispering are there any other systems of color on this site

[anti-willo-firefist]

Happy disability pride month to symptom holders

depressive symptom holders

anxious symptom holders

bipolar symptom holders

sleep disorder symptom holders

au/dhd symptom holders

neurodivergent symptom holders

cluster a symptom holders

cluster b symptom holders

cluster c symptom holders

schizoid symptom holders

eating disorder symptom holders

ocd symptom holders

derealization symptom holders

depersonalization symptom holders

hypersexual symptom holders

holders who have multiple disorders they keep

holders who are brainmade

holders who are littles

holders who are nonhuman

holders who are fictives

holders who are fictives and had symptoms in source

holders who are fictives and this their first time experiencing anything like it

holders who didn't or haven't realized they're holders

holders that are overwhelmed

holders that don't feel like their doing enough

holders that resent their role

holders that have multiple roles

holders that are persecuters

holders that only experience symptoms in front

holders that suffer constantly

happy disability pride to symptom holders

[snowys-system]

Shout out to all systems

Shout out to known systems

Shout out to unknown systems

Shout out to P-DID systems, OSDD systems, DID and C-DID systems and other CDDs systems

Shout out to systems who know their trauma

Shout out to systems who dont know their trauma

Shout out to questioning systems

Shout out to covert systems

Shout out to very obvious systems

Shout out to atheist systems

Shout out to religious systems

Shout out to systems with large alter count

Shout out to systems with small alter count

Shout out to systems in therapy

Shout out to systems not in therapy

Shout out to Queer systems

Shout out to non Queer systems

Shout out to systems out of their abuse

Shout out to systems stuck in their abuse

Shout out to disabled systems

Shout out to non-disabled systems

Shout out to systems with high fictive count

Shout out to systems with low fictive count

Shout out to systems who want final Fusion

Shout out to systems who want functional multiplicity

Shout out to all systems for surviving

Systems are so cool. Especially after all you have gone through, you're here. Im glad you're here.

[clusterbrush]

comparing sysmeds to truscum is dumbb

you cannot be a system without trauma

you can be trans without gender dysphoria. the question isnt "are you miserable living as your agab" its "would you be happier living as another gender"

[that-original-lifeline]

being a system is so isolating. i’ve only existed for a month (little over that but about a month) but i think i have more or less taken over as a host and it’s like… i swear our friends don’t like me as much as our other host and i am also unintentionally distancing from them because it’s just so overwhelming trying to figure out how to act and react around them

[that-original-lifeline]

i need to just relearn joy and whimsy and then it will all be okay!

[that-original-lifeline]

being a system is so isolating. i’ve only existed for a month (little over that but about a month) but i think i have more or less taken over as a host and it’s like… i swear our friends don’t like me as much as our other host and i am also unintentionally distancing from them because it’s just so overwhelming trying to figure out how to act and react around them