rafe cameron x fem!reader
warnings: rafe almost cheats on reader, reader and rafe are kinda toxic, rafe is impulsive, reader destroys stuff, swearing, rafe begging, brief mentions of sex and murder (sarcastically mostly)
a/n: this is heavily inspired by blank space, better than revenge and imgonnagetyouback by taylor swift and the characters could be a bit out of character, sorry for that, but I hope you like it!
Rafe had texted you that a meeting was holding him late in the office, again. You sighed as you changed into a slip dress, putting on a movie. Rafe and you had been together for a couple of years now, you’d move in within a few months of your relationship. You knew all about his past, you were a friend of his sister before being his girlfriend, you knew all the things the Pogues had to say about him, all the things Sarah said to scare you away and beg you to not fall for him. But you did, you helped him, ‘created a better man out of him’ he’d say. Halfway through your movie, your phone pinged. You opened the text from Sarah, your eyes widening, the movie long forgotten.
‘I’m sorry but you had to know.’ Along with the text, a picture of Rafe Cameron, your boyfriend, making out with another girl, a bartender from the country club, you recognised. Emotions coursed through you at high speed, confusion, denial, betrayal, sorrow and lastly fury. Your eyes burned with rage the longer you looked at the picture.
You clenched your jaw so hard that it hurt, you looked around the room, the room which belonged to Rafe and you. All the memories, everything you’d done for him, all the nights he’d loved you, made you feel special, made you feel loved came back to you, only adding fuel your in your burning rage. You laughed dark and hollow, at how naive you’d been, everyone had warned you, everyone had told you exercise caution around Rafe, to not trust him, but your stupid fucking head was blinded by your heart and feelings. Thinking back at how over the last few weeks things had been a little off, you guys had been arguing, going through a rough patch.
You out of the bed, destroying everything that had him on it. The vase on your nightstand shattered, the pictures and frames came next, the TV on which you were watching the film also shattered, you moved on to his clothes next, the fancy designers and labels being ripped apart my your nails, the ones that wouldn’t bulge under you were dumped in the fireplace. You moved through his house, leaving the destruction behind as you went. His house represented the state of your relationship by the time you were done, broken, shattered and a fucking mess. You looked around, dropping to your knees, the tears spilling free, as you cried your heart out, clutching your chest.
You heard his car before you saw the flashlights, the anger making its way back into your body. You didn’t want to face him, not yet, you wanted him to be left in the dark, just like you were, so you hid in the bathroom.
Rafe’s eyes widened panic hitting his chest as soon as he opened the door, he called out your name, rushing upstairs, trying to find you. When he reached the bedroom and didn’t find you, he checked the balcony. He found you, standing in the driveway, his golf club on shoulder as you glared up at him, the anger in your eyes visible to him even in the dead of the night.
You looked him dead in the eye as you swung right on his windshield, the glass shattering around you. ‘What the fuck!’, he yelled, seeing you repeatedly beat and smash his car right in front his eyes. He hurried downstairs, almost falling as he walked up to you.
‘What the fuck are you doing? Baby what the hell happened?’, he yelled, getting closer. ‘What the fuck do you think I am? Huh?’, you yell out, throwing the club on the ground, ‘Am I fucking joke to you? Or just a way to get your dick wet when she isn’t around?’
You could see the moment the realisation hit his eyes, ‘Guess I wasn’t as stupid as you fucking thought.’, you say, chest heaving, heat radiating off your body. ‘Fuck baby, I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean it, she didn’t mean anything I swear-‘, he started rambling nervously, but your laughter cut him off, the same one from earlier, dark and hollow.
‘Is that what you said to her about me? Did you think about me when you fucked her? Or did you think about her when you fucked me?’, you spat in his face, your hands on his cheeks, clawing at his skin. ‘Don’t- don’t say that, I lost my way, I swear she was a mistake, please, just let me explain.’, he begged, his eyes watery. ‘How long, Rafe?’, you asked, letting go of him, shoving his chest as he stumbled back. You ran a hand through your hair, breathing heavily as he rambled on apologies and explanations. ‘Shut the fuck up with your hollow apologies and answer me, how long?’, you yell out. ‘Just once, I promise.’, he breathes out slowly, looking away from you, tears falling down his face. You breathe out, stepping back, the pit in your stomach widening. He lunged forward, dropping to his knees in front of you, holding your waist with a bruising grip, he pressed soft kisses on your stomach, ‘I’m sorry baby, I swear I didn’t mean to, she was a mistake baby, you’re my everything, you’re the only one for me baby, please.’
You leaned down, grabbing his chin and forcing him up to look at you, ‘After everything I did for you? After every shit I tolerated? Was she worth it? Did she feel good? Did she fuck you better?’, you say, your voice firm but laced with venom, ‘You are everything they say you are, you are a psychopath who only cares about himself.’
‘Don’t say that, please.’, he said, his jaw clenching, his watery eyes gaining an angry edge to them.
‘Fuck off, live happily with her, let’s see if she’ll clean up after you.’, you gritted as you pushed him, walking away and getting into your own car.
You drove off, leaving him on the driveway amidst the destruction. Your rage still hadn’t submerged, fury still radiated off you as you went to Sarah and the Pogues. The only place you knew would help you.
The next morning, you made your way to the country club, seeing the girl Rafe cheated on with behind the counter, smiling. It boiled your blood to see her, you walked straight up to her, seeing that she recognised you.
You stepped behind the counter and right in her personal space, ‘You know me? I was the girlfriend of the guy you were fucking last night.’ She gulped and looked away, ‘I don’t know what you want, please I work here, don’t make a scene.’ You scoffed, ‘Don’t make a scene? You seriously have the audacity to say that to me? After you slept your way through what was mine? Well I hope you are happy with Rafe, he’s a piece of work and he’s every bit of shit they say he is.’, you warned before looking her up and down, ‘He’ll get rid of you soon enough, I didn’t know his choice was this trashy.’ You turned but her voice stopped you, ‘He told me about you, said you were boring, quite bitchy and didn’t meet his needs, so I guess I’ll stay longer than you did.’
You smirked, ‘Shouldn’t have said that.’ You turned around, your hand reaching towards the beer bottle sitting on the counter as you hit the top of her head, she screamed, blood dripping down the side of her forehead. ‘You dumb fucking bitch, I’m gonna fuck your life.’, you said and walked out.
You heard your phone ringing, another call from Rafe, he was texting and calling you since the night. You picked up but before he could say anything, you started, ‘If I were you, I’d find and patch up your girlfriend, oh and also, find her a new job, she’ll be fired for making such a scene.’ ‘What did you do?’, he asked. ‘Just got it through her thick head that she’ll pay for stealing what’s mine.’, you said as you hung up.
That day Rafe had found out about you living with Sarah, and he made his way there, begging to talk to you, but you wouldn’t budge. So he decided to be stubborn as well. It had been almost three days and Rafe stayed out there on the hammock, waiting for you. He had shown all the emotions he possibly could, begged and cried on the first day, then he resolved to anger and frustration being Rafe, then he decided to wait and figure out how to win you back. He got you flowers, jewellery, clothes, anything that he remembered you liked, he cleared any repercussions you could’ve faced for whatever damage you did when you were angry, he explained himself through the door every day, sometimes his frustration getting the better of him as he would bang it with force.
Sarah stepped out, bringing him food again, ‘Rafe, go home, she’ll talk to you when she’s ready. You fucked up.’ ‘I know I did, but I’ve gotta get her back.’, he mumbled. Sarah waited for a few minutes sighed and then turned around, walking back inside when Rafe’s voice stopped her, calling out her name.
‘I was pissed at you for telling her, but I don’t blame you, you were a good friend to her. Can you just do me a favour? Just give this to her.’, he said, handing her a small, red, velvet box. ‘Rafe, this is an engagement ring.’, Sarah gasped, surprised as she looked at her brother in shock. ‘It was Mom’s’, he nodded, ‘I got it that night, I was gonna propose has this entire thing planned. It’s so like me to fuck up the one good thing I had going on.’ He let out a self deprecating laugh, ‘i didn’t wanna propose her because I felt guilty, but I realised that no one would ever be her, and I hate myself for the way I reached that realisation, I met that girl during a rough patch in our relationship, and I felt like my life was falling apart and I don’t know I was high and it just happened, I never meant for anything to happen.’
‘Rafe, I’ll tell her all that but I don’t know, you really hurt her.’, Sarah said before walking back inside.
She found you looking at Rafe through the windows. ‘Why is he still here?’, you asked her. ‘He feels bad, said he won’t go until he’s talked to you.’, she explained. You sighed as you sat down on the couch, Sarah sitting beside you. ‘What are you thinking? What are you gonna do?’, she asked placing a comforting hand on your knee. ‘I’m so mad at him, I see all of the shit he’s doing but I can’t forget what he did, I’ve heard the explanation and I know how he gets when he’s high and I know I wasn’t making it easy for him during that rough patch, but it still doesn’t make it better. Honestly? I’ve no idea what to do.’, you admitted. Sarah rubbing comforting circles on your knee. ‘Do you still have feelings for him?’, she asked softly.
You sighed, ‘That’s the worst part, I do. I can’t seem to not love him. I don’t know what to do, I feel so pathetic.’ ‘Hey, come on, it’s fine, everyone could see you really loved him. You need time to figure out everything.’, she comforted you. She slowly handed the small box to you, ‘Rafe told me to give this to you, it was our mom’s. He said he had everything planned and that he didn’t wanna do it because he felt guilty, he wanted to do it because he realised you’re the one he wants.’ ‘Great fucking method of realisation.’, you muttered as you looked at the ring. If Rafe was handing out a piece that belonged to his mother, you knew he was serious, you weren’t doubting his actions about this, but you couldn’t bring yourself to forgive him.
‘Come on, enough of that sad shit.’, JJ chimed in, coming closer, ‘You need to let loose and get away from all this, tonight’s bonfire is the perfect way.’ He grinned at you and Sarah, and you smiled back, nodding as he cheered in victory.
You got dressed and made your way outside, Rafe instantly standing up and walking over. ‘Dude, she doesn’t wanna talk, let her have this.’, JJ said, much to Rafe’s dismay. Rafe glared at him before looking at you, you were glaring at him, wearing a dress he told you was ‘for his eyes only’. He gave a small nod, eyes still fixated at you as his jaw clenched harder, his teeth gritting, ‘Fine, we won’t talk but I’m not gonna let her out of my sight.’
You scoffed rolling your eyes as you walked ahead, Rafe a few steps behind you, all the way to the party.
Rafe kept a safe distance but his eyes never left you, as you enjoyed yourself, drinking, dancing, smoking. He glared at any guy who even dared to look at you. His jaw clenched as he saw you dance too close to JJ Maybank out of everyone on the island. His impulse getting the better of him he walked straight towards you, yanking you away and dragging you to a secluded corner.
‘What the fuck Rafe!’ You can’t do that, I’m not your girlfriend anymore if you forgot, you shouted. ‘You were never not mine, you get that? And JJ? Seriously?’, he spat his eyes burning and dark, but then they softened, ‘Come on baby, just talk to me, please, I’m begging here. Did Sarah gave you the ring?’
‘Yes she did, I haven’t decided yet. I need time.’; you say. ‘It’s yours, whatever you decide. I can’t even think of giving it to anyone else.’, he said, his tone softening for a minute. He ran a hand through his hair, ‘Look there is no excuse for what I did, no explanation. I know I fucked up and I’m here to beg you, whatever you want, name it and I’ll do it baby, just please don’t leave, just give me one more chance, please.’ You could practically hear the desperation in his voice. ‘God I regret it so much, you don’t know, she was a mistake baby. She didn’t mean anything, you can kill her if you’d like and I’ll help you hide the body. I wish there was just a reset button so we could start new but I know there isn’t, I’m ready to work for it, just tell me what do you want me to do.’, he continued pleading.
Just then JJ walked over, ‘You good? Dude, leave her alone.’ Rafe’s jaw clenched harder as his hands folded into fists. ‘Get the fuck out of here Maybank, I’m trying to talk to her. Don’t make me do something that’ll make it worse.’, he spat through gritted teeth. You could see he was holding back, but he was just a word away from throwing a punch and he looked like he wouldn’t stop until he had killed him. ‘I’m fine, I’ll be back just give us space please.’, you said to JJ who nodded and left reluctantly.
‘Seriously Rafe? You were about to hit him. You could’ve gone to jail you know? Or do you just love the handcuffs?’, you hissed at him. He laughed frustratedly, his blue eyes burning with a dark intensity and desire, ‘I don’t care! I don’t care about anything but you. Even if it’s handcuffed, I’m leaving here with you. I need you back.’
You breathed heavily, your chest heaving, you could see the unhinged manic edge in his eyes as he towered you. ‘Then you should’ve done better, I’m so mad at you and I hate you so much right now but I hate the fact that I still fucking love you more. But I’m gonna need time and you’re gonna do better.’, he finally gave in, a bit of anger still lacing your tone. Rafe breathed out, a small part of him relieved, but he still had a long way ahead of him, ‘Whatever you need baby, I’ll do anything to get you back.’