[A]Lex(I)'s house of horny

AFAB Genderfluid. Weird mix of kinks. Beautiful Prince Disorder. She/Her or He/Him || Lexi (Fem) or Alex (Masc). Alexis also works. [Older than 25. This is as specific as I will be]

[thatonemouse]

After careful consideration

I have decided to become worse. I am going to try to start using this for anything other than lurking

[thatonemouse]

When I have orientation play fantasies, I often run into a problem: I don't really want a guy to "fix me" or "fuck me straight" or anything else. Not even with things like hypnosis, brainwashing etc in those fantasies.

I want to feel like I've betrayed myself. If it's being forced upon me, that my body is betraying me by cumming as a man breeds me. If subversive elements like mental tricks are used, I want it to be explicitly a manipulation of me. I can keep going, but it ultimately comes down to one thing - I want to be forced to enjoy it.

Your cock isn't going to make me straight. What it is going to do is give me the most humiliating sexual experience of my life. That I came my brains out while a man was fucking me.

I also want him to know what he's doing. Know that I'm into other women. Know that I'm, as far as he's concerned, a lesbian. And yet he's still getting to use me. He's getting to make me perform for him. He's getting to cum in or on me. And no matter how much I protest, I can't stop the fact that this man made me cum; or made me so worked up that I behaved like a needy whore.

But importantly: once it's done, my orientation isn't changed. My preferences aren't changed. But now I'm going to have that memory of this event gnawing at me. Chewing at me. Making me feel guilty. Making me doubt myself. And it's going to consume me.

I don't want you to fix me, I want you to fucking break me.

[thatonemouse]

For what it's worth: none of this applies to women doing orientation play to me.

I do that less because of various reasons.

But ... yeah the caption of a defeated heroine being brainwashed into a lesbian by the villain who captured and defeated her burned itself into my brain for a reason. So did the doujin pages with a girl being forced into a bisexual situation with another woman (the text was in Japanese so I am admittedly cheating by filling in my own story.)

Oh poor innocent Alexis is just so malleable. So easily corrupted. There definitely wasn't any feelings I was trying to work out with these.

[thatonemouse]

When I have orientation play fantasies, I often run into a problem: I don't really want a guy to "fix me" or "fuck me straight" or anything else. Not even with things like hypnosis, brainwashing etc in those fantasies.

I want to feel like I've betrayed myself. If it's being forced upon me, that my body is betraying me by cumming as a man breeds me. If subversive elements like mental tricks are used, I want it to be explicitly a manipulation of me. I can keep going, but it ultimately comes down to one thing - I want to be forced to enjoy it.

Your cock isn't going to make me straight. What it is going to do is give me the most humiliating sexual experience of my life. That I came my brains out while a man was fucking me.

I also want him to know what he's doing. Know that I'm into other women. Know that I'm, as far as he's concerned, a lesbian. And yet he's still getting to use me. He's getting to make me perform for him. He's getting to cum in or on me. And no matter how much I protest, I can't stop the fact that this man made me cum; or made me so worked up that I behaved like a needy whore.

But importantly: once it's done, my orientation isn't changed. My preferences aren't changed. But now I'm going to have that memory of this event gnawing at me. Chewing at me. Making me feel guilty. Making me doubt myself. And it's going to consume me.

I don't want you to fix me, I want you to fucking break me.

[thatonemouse]

I'm getting a bit too in my own head about a fantasy I was having this morning.

Yes, this probably is some means of reprocessing of minor trauma and taking control of a general atmosphere that caused me some distress.

But also there's just something hot about the idea of doing something you probably shouldn't be doing while tempting someone else to do something they definitely shouldn't be doing.

[stickyhac]

Drawn by Pole (ppp1409)

[still-trying-to-be-horny]

I don't want a harem just for the sexual gratification, I'm taking the girlies in my harem out for ice cream dates to the Zoo and to the arcade to play Halo Fireteam Raven with all four players.

[thatonemouse]

I know why people like the aesthetics of being dumbed down, but it's never been for me. I do get it on some level. I have some speculations but I might be projecting.

What does get me though? The idea that for as smart as I can be, it did nothing to help me. I was clever enough to recognize that my mind was being messed with, but being clever didn't really help. That even though I was able to see and understand what was happening, I could do nothing to stop it from happening.

I'm aware enough to know that I've been brainwashed. That I'm still being brainwashed. I'm clever enough to see how you're doing it to me. And I can figure out how to escape. But my addled and manipulated mind won't let me do it. The key to the cell is within reach, but my mind won't let me reach outside the bars. Escape is possible, it's right there, but I can't do it.

[th3vi0linist]

More than this, there's also "my own intelligence used against me" or "used as a tool for whoever has brainwashed me" that I find incredibly appealing. It's all still there, but not for me anymore, but as a tool either to continue my brainwashing or to be welded however the person brainwashing me sees fit

[thatonemouse]

Oh yes that can be so fun. That the trap, loop or pattern your mind is trapped in is only possible because you understand what's happening. If you weren't as clever as you were, weren't as observant, maybe you wouldn't have made such a perfect prison for your own mind. Perhaps those words repeating in your mind wouldn't form such a perfect loop if you hadn't noticed. But now, now those words form a wonderful little ouroboros inside your mind, wearing you down.

And you're smart enough to know that fighting it is pointless. Might as well give in. ♥

[thatonemouse]

I know why people like the aesthetics of being dumbed down, but it's never been for me. I do get it on some level. I have some speculations but I might be projecting.

What does get me though? The idea that for as smart as I can be, it did nothing to help me. I was clever enough to recognize that my mind was being messed with, but being clever didn't really help. That even though I was able to see and understand what was happening, I could do nothing to stop it from happening.

I'm aware enough to know that I've been brainwashed. That I'm still being brainwashed. I'm clever enough to see how you're doing it to me. And I can figure out how to escape. But my addled and manipulated mind won't let me do it. The key to the cell is within reach, but my mind won't let me reach outside the bars. Escape is possible, it's right there, but I can't do it.

[thatonemouse]

It's a subby femlexi post. We love a subby femlexi post, don't we?

It's vain of me to say this, but I like to think of myself as intelligent. Or at the very least, I like to think that I'm clever. I'm not going to keep listing off ways to talk about how smart I think I am.

And yet there's a little factoid that sits in my brain and nags at me. One that might not be true, but sure is degrading to think about.

I have more tits than brains. More of my body mass is taken up by my chest than my brain.

That doesn't make me stupid. But god something about it just feel shameful. That for as clever as I am, that for all that I know and all that I've learned, on some base physiological level I have more tits than I do brains.

And I'm smart enough to know that it doesn't matter. That I can be both smart and have great tits. That there isn't a contradiction here. But some depraved, needy part of me is delighted by the fact that my body is built so that I have more tits than brains.

[thatonemouse]

It's been a minute. I just haven't been in much of a mood lately. But the mood will swing back at some time.

[roecomplex]

dragged into the woods by feral wolves! (-2hp) (-2hp) (-2hp) (+wolf ears!) (+4hp) (+wolf tail!) (+4hp) (+pregnant!) (+4hp)

[thatonemouse]

"But I don't want to cum"

That's just too fucking bad, isn't it? ♥

I want you to cum. I want to force that orgasm onto you. I want you to feel it, and I want you to know that I made you feel that way. I might even want to make you do it over and over. Keep a little score to myself on how many times I can make someone cum before I'm spent.

You're not cumming for your pleasure, you're cumming for mine.

[thatonemouse]

Every so often I'll encounter people who don't seem to grasp what the appeal of a kink is - at least for me.

Today's example will be broadly referred to as defeat. This will be anything from corruption to hypnosis to orientation play to all sorts of other things.

Every so often, when trying to build a scene with someone, they'll want to skip past these parts. Get to body parts being pressed into one another. And don't get me wrong, that's a lovely part of things.

But that's not what we're after here. What we want here is to savor the defeat, to go through the mechanisms of an inevitable loss - even if there's glimmers of hope until the very end. Or how by when you reach that point, you've already been ruined enough that you simply surrender and let your chance of victory slip away.

"*click* and you're hypnotized now" is rather dull, isn't it. So is "I shoved my dick in you and now you're straight." Or anything else of that nature. The process is the point. The process of being hypnotized is slow and methodical, at least at first. The orientation-breaking is about slowly wearing you down. While it can be fun to smash cut with an instant loss, that short cutting implies an entire process where you went from powerful and overconfident to face down in the dirt.

[mastersoverminds-6]

Aww, your tits look great sweetheart. Keep sending them. Your job is to be my porn, remember?

[thatonemouse]

I haven't been feeling the same kind of energy as I have been. I want to post something unhinged at all of you but things aren't quite aligning.

Looking forward to when I can next make you all squirm though, I promise~.

[thatonemouse]

I hope you enjoy the notifications of someone liking every single one of your posts and then following.

I certainly enjoyed reading.

I adore it.

[thatonemouse]

Ahegao is for twats, and you sir are a cringe twat!!! 🫵🏻🤡

Awww, look who's being a pissy little bitch over hentai tropes.