what do i know

soph, she/her, 30s, 💖💜💙, I've been here far to long // fandom stuff, sometimes sports or whatever else I'm obsessing about currently.

[shaneposting]

oh you want me to play a character that isn’t a beautiful yearning bottom? no problem let me just put in my Topping Contacts 👁️➡️🔵

[laferrarii]

opening Tumblr is like a cigarette break

[ferrettaur]

So like an hour ago I just lear🪨︵︵ned that— what the fuck was that. Someone just skipped a rock across my post did you see that

[kikmessenger]

sits on my own blog like it’s the edge of a lake wistfully

[kikmessenger]

skips a stone over a few posts

[thatsnotthetruth]

been feeling really weird™ the last few days and I'm thinking it might be one of the meds i take

[whitebuttondowns]

hudson williams plank until failure. hudson williams connor storrie mic’d up plank until failure. Google show me hudson williams armpit picture

[tomb-mold]

have you noticed that everything depends on various factors

[aslongasitsblack]

i know david hollander loves telling his colleagues that he’s meeting his son in law for lunch i know he loves getting a white americano and hanging out with his sons husband ilya

[philcollinsenjoyer]

explained to an 8 year old that once a fruit is ripe you only have so much time until it rots so you have to eat it soon and she said so i'll never be able to keep it perfect like this forever? no and there are about a million pieces of art for you unrelatedly

[comingatthecottage]

AND ANOTHER THING

re my conspiracy theory that the stupid plane crash was supposed to be a suicide attempt, in addition to the plot and pacing and causality issues,

is that actually a lot of shane's bizarrely self-effacing behavior makes sense if instead of a plane crash that didnt' happen the crisis was a suicide attempt. like when would you reasonably feel like you need to completely shut down your emotions about all your worst nightmares coming true as you're being forcibly outed, having your career destroyed, and being abandoned by all of your friends? and why would shane, who is not a pushover, not expect ilya to show up for him and check in on him? why would he accept ilya mocking him about it?

on the page as written it kinda seems like the answer is "because your partner doesn't care" or "somehow you don't have any emotions about it?" but it would actually make a ton of sense if the answer was that these things happened under circumstances where it had recently gotten so bad with ilya's mental health that he attempted suicide. then it makes sense that shane is downplaying and erasing and minimizing his feelings, and that everyone else is too.

because if them coming out and moving in together is life or death for ilya then what right does shane have to complain. and it explains why ilya is making so many mean bitter jokes at shane's expense because he's still trying to push him away, trying to prove that shane doesn't care about ilya the way ilya cares about him, because anything else would mean that ilya's death would hurt shane the way irina's death hurt ilya and ilya can't bear that and why shane is taking it all uncomplainingly, because whatever he's going through ilya is going through worse

[comingatthecottage]

after all i put him through enough, right? he was so miserable he wanted to die and he says that's not my fault but what if it was? even my mom thinks i might have been being selfish. so now i have to be happy and then he'll be happy and we'll be happy and it'll all be okay. and luckily i am the best in the whole world at pretending to be okay!

[sapphyshipseverything]

Ilya-electrons orbiting the sh-ucleus

[shanesloverboy]

Wyatt Hayes noticing that notorious ladies man Ilya Rozanov added a fancy ring to his necklace:

[jesterlesbian]

world's loudest Good For Her

[larval-tear]

you called my favorite media… slop? like… for a pig? is that what you think i am? *gets on all fours* is this what i am to you? *snorts* you think i’m a pig? *snorts* *starts sniffing the ground* you think this is funny? huh? *starts squealing* WEEE WEEE WEEEEEEE… you like this? huh? huh? WEEEEEEEEEE *gets up* whatever. just forget it. i don’t care anymore.

[tofixtheshadows]

Do you think Naomi Novik ever looks at AO3

sees some incest mpreg

and whispers to herself “I never wanted this.”

[astolat]

No. :)

[alphacrone]

pulling yourself up by your strap-on or whatever they say

[creamsiclemelt]

girl help my horny little coyote in heat is looking at me with fondness