Disconnected from Reality

21 | He/she/they/it | Idk what's wrong with me, but there's definitely something

[the-villain-protagonist]

Slowly accepting the fact that maybe I won't get a good ending after all

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Lurking around in groups for people with pds but then they shit on other people with other kinds of pds they do not like (mostly people with cluster b disorders) is absolutely dog shit to me. You are not any better. We all went through very bad things. We are all disordered here. There's no such thing as evil disorders™ type of crap smh

[the-villain-protagonist]

Finally had a relationship that mattered enough to me to break through the indifference and apathy barriers. I thought I finally met the one, but now that broke down epically. Never realized how deeply lonely I am until now and it hurts, badly.

[the-villain-protagonist]

I've always been so fucking numb. I don't feel my body, my mind, my reality. I feel nothing, genuinely nothing. Some people feel like they are their body, others feel like they are their mind, I don't feel like I am either. I am some sort of unknown entity that all it does is observe this body walk around and perform tasks all day and night. Every thought, every opinion, every talk, every gesture, every everything feels performative/fake. If it is all a performance then who's behind it? No damn clue, I don't have a self.

[the-villain-protagonist]

Being alone is just better, can't find peace in any other way