TheADHDoni

I'm Doni, a flannel and Khakis tomboy that woke up in a male body after fighting a cryptid in Olympic mountains

[theadhdoni]

so I went off of estrogen to help figure myself out a bit more and I guess the timer ticked for testosterone to kick back in cus I suddenly feel like I'm made of lightning and somehow this is even better than estrogen but specifically when reframed as a girl harnessing the power of testosterone

boutta be the most kickass girl boss transfem tomboy there ever was

watch out world

[theadhdoni]

[theadhdoni]

Interrupting everything im doing to read an anthology of chinese spooky fiction

I wanted to know exactly WHAT Kit was so i had a bit more ground to base my OC on Cheng refers to Kit as a "Painted Skin" https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Painted_Skin The Painted Skin is a story that appears in an anthology of chinese stories called "Strange Tales From a Chinese Studio" https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Strange_Tales_from_a_Chinese_Studio This antholgy contains literally HUNDREDS of critically acclaimed stories from china that were written as social commentary in the form of supernatural fiction. Here is the free ebook

Strange Stories from a Chinese Studio (Volumes 1 and 2) by Songling Pu

Free kindle book and epub digitized and proofread by volunteers.

[miinxxo]

This is for all the artists who don’t feel like scrounging the character designers pages for references because a simple fullbody of kit doesn’t exist on google dot com

You’re welcome

[theadhdoni]

thinking about making an OC akin to Kit that literally reskins based on characters I feel gender envy for

[thelastbraincellofthehive]

The fact that "Rumi has no gag-reflex" is an actual canon fact that we learn in the first 10 minutes of the movie will never not be funny to me lol.

[xactodreams]

Things that sound like fanon that are actually canon:

Rumi has no gag-reflex

Things that sound like canon that are actually fanon:

Celine is the CEO of a media company called Sunlight Entertainment

[thelastbraincellofthehive]

This is EXACTLY why I made the post in the first place lol

Like, there are so many facts that sound like they are 100% canon but are just widely accepted headcanons (Zoey being a child of divorce, Sunlight Entertainment having been created by Celine, Rumi being bisexual, Celine having been in love with Miyeong). But nope, the one canon fact is that Rumi can deep throat for days lol.

[theadhdoni]

Rumi is a mood ring. Zoey has ADHD.

[suprememememachinev1]

why does Zoey have so much ass bro

Like what

Girl's got enough of a bakery to feed all of Seoul 😭

[couchcouchcouchcouchcouchcouch]

Yall ever think that Mira and Rumi just watch Zoey Experience™ ADHD?

Like it’s a normal day, they’re chilling. Zoeys puttering around doing whatever tasks. They look up and watch each other every now and again cause, hey their favourite people are right there why would they not look at them?

And Rumi and Mira just watch as Zoey comes in the room, spins on her heel, goes back out of the room with clear intent, comes back, they hear the softest “fuck” as she spins again and goes out then comes back with her water bottle, fills it, sets it down, checks her phone, leaves the room, another muffled “fuck” then she’s back to grab her water bottle.

They’ve learned a long time ago to just let it happen, cause Zoeys brain has a rhythm and disrupting that rhythm can make matters worse rather than better. But regardless, this is not an uncommon occurrence in the Huntrix Penthouse, especially if it’s been a while since she took her meds

[theadhdoni]

Hello!! as someone who keeps making phone notes titled “Side Quests” and then ignoring them, I would love to try your “Side Quest Rail Line” instead, if you’re willing to post it/send it/give me prophetic dreams about how I could replicate it. Thanks!!!

At this point explaining how Side Quest Rail Line works is like trying to explain how Rome rose and fell. Im completely serious.

Because through my creation of side quest rail line I began to create a inner world that helped me organize my thoughts and feelings in a manner that felt safe. Changes to the system were a direct result of self-talks with my thoughts and feelings within headspace. It didnt start out like that, but... essentially by roleplaying it... I created a inner world that more or less just.... FUNCTIONS....???? There was a lot of changes to it that i kept and didnt keep and used and didnt use. it currently sits as a completely unrefined ball of ideas. Theres a bit of psychology and philosophy, a bit of internal system dynamics as an influence. I think what isnt talked about enough is that task management, at least for ADHD, isnt just task managment. its an expression of how you want to organize your thoughts and feelings. I cant say what the experience is for neurotypicals becasue im not neurotypical, but I feel like the reason ADHDers struggle with task management is because we inherently need a creative, self expressive way to manage our tasks. And neurotypical advice doesnt address that. Task management has become a visual manifestation of my inner world. what matters to me the most.

In my journey of creating side quest rail line I was listening to what MY need and feelings are for a task management system. And... throughout it I was carried into a number of other rough but valuable lessons in how toxic I am with myself. Side Quest Rail Line is my system, and it might work for others, in any of its particular iterations. But I think the most important thing about task management is that there is genuine value in making it your OWN. Letting yourself get lost in a little world of magic allows you to whimsically escape from the dullness of chores. Use imaginative fantasy to shape your task system and it will begin to change the way you think about tasks. Its not just plain fun and adventure. It give your thoughts and feelings a space to figure out WHAT it is you are struggling to do and WHY. Thats another thing that neurotypical advice never addresses. YOUR FEELINGS. MATTER. Allow your task system to accommodate your feelings, your mood, your energy level. Mark that on each particular task for what kind of mood and energy level it requires and .... you will see a lot of changes emotionally and organizationally. I need a phd in fucking ADHD psychology or some shit because I have PIECES AND I DONT KNOW WHY THEY FIT TOGETHER

BUT THEY DO

AND IT MAKES SENSE THEY DO

BUT I DONT KNOW WHY THEY DO

[queerasaurolophus]

That makes some quantity of sense to me. If you ever get the chance to explain like. An example of how you use it, that would be really helpful. Either way, thanks!

[theadhdoni]

Probably the biggest tool that helped me apart from a variety of good ADHD youtubers. The Anti-Planner is a collection of strategies that target specific emotional overwhelm so that you arent planning based on rigid task structures but by whatever specific type of overwhelm you have

https://anti-planner.com/shop/the-anti-planner-how-to-get-sht-done-when-you-dont-feel-like-it/

[theadhdoni]

Hello!! as someone who keeps making phone notes titled “Side Quests” and then ignoring them, I would love to try your “Side Quest Rail Line” instead, if you’re willing to post it/send it/give me prophetic dreams about how I could replicate it. Thanks!!!

At this point explaining how Side Quest Rail Line works is like trying to explain how Rome rose and fell. Im completely serious.

Because through my creation of side quest rail line I began to create a inner world that helped me organize my thoughts and feelings in a manner that felt safe. Changes to the system were a direct result of self-talks with my thoughts and feelings within headspace. It didnt start out like that, but... essentially by roleplaying it... I created a inner world that more or less just.... FUNCTIONS....???? There was a lot of changes to it that i kept and didnt keep and used and didnt use. it currently sits as a completely unrefined ball of ideas. Theres a bit of psychology and philosophy, a bit of internal system dynamics as an influence. I think what isnt talked about enough is that task management, at least for ADHD, isnt just task managment. its an expression of how you want to organize your thoughts and feelings. I cant say what the experience is for neurotypicals becasue im not neurotypical, but I feel like the reason ADHDers struggle with task management is because we inherently need a creative, self expressive way to manage our tasks. And neurotypical advice doesnt address that. Task management has become a visual manifestation of my inner world. what matters to me the most.

In my journey of creating side quest rail line I was listening to what MY need and feelings are for a task management system. And... throughout it I was carried into a number of other rough but valuable lessons in how toxic I am with myself. Side Quest Rail Line is my system, and it might work for others, in any of its particular iterations. But I think the most important thing about task management is that there is genuine value in making it your OWN. Letting yourself get lost in a little world of magic allows you to whimsically escape from the dullness of chores. Use imaginative fantasy to shape your task system and it will begin to change the way you think about tasks. Its not just plain fun and adventure. It give your thoughts and feelings a space to figure out WHAT it is you are struggling to do and WHY. Thats another thing that neurotypical advice never addresses. YOUR FEELINGS. MATTER. Allow your task system to accommodate your feelings, your mood, your energy level. Mark that on each particular task for what kind of mood and energy level it requires and .... you will see a lot of changes emotionally and organizationally. I need a phd in fucking ADHD psychology or some shit because I have PIECES AND I DONT KNOW WHY THEY FIT TOGETHER

BUT THEY DO

AND IT MAKES SENSE THEY DO

BUT I DONT KNOW WHY THEY DO

[theadhdoni]

check out my dorky little drawing blog where I will be roleplaying as a ex knight of belethor learning how to draw glyphs to get better at my line work

@theglyphmaker

[theadhdoni]

RUMI STUDY 2 - ACCEPTING THAT IM A BEGINNER OH GOD THIS ONE IS SCUFFED the shape of the face is alright but fuck i could not figure out the shadows until I looked back at the originial scene. They used some goddamn animation magic to make her lit from behind but make the shadow all glowy.

With some pumped up contrast you can see that there is, absolutely, a shadow covering her entire face. but its GLOWY. WHAT THE FUCK. UUUGH I learned for now I will have to stick to stills that have ONE. MAIN. LIGHT SOURCE. Cus i cant freaking figure out the shadows if theres funny shit happening. It also took me actually like two or three hours to figure out what i was having trouble with. crying

[theadhdoni]

RUMI STUDY ONE

I started without the monochrome and posterize filter but it was going way off so I need the training wheels for now. I even needed my dad to point out that she looked conflicted for me to realize i automatically aligned the eyes with her ears, but her face is tilted slightly upward so her eyes are above her ears and her nose is aligned with her ears. I also made the neck shading way harsher at first and when i relaxed the neck shading it looked a lot better. PATTERN COLORS

this is the scene where Celine is giving the girls their mission to seal the golden honmoon. The entire scene is gold and has this sense of grand sacredness. I took the dim pattern color from the girls tan outfit since it was the most neutral color of the scene and gave them all this sense of peace, and the lit colors i used the bright gold and heavy saturated orange for in and out of shadow respectively, the parts that expressed the hope and duty. I chose to make her neck the part that's glowing because that's where the most expression in her stance is. Tensed muscles = glowing. There's a lot of tension in her neck because of the way she's holding the stance of duty and respect. Unsurprisingly the best scene where we get a reference of her bare neck patterns is the bathhouse scene at the end of the movie. After posting im realizing the face patterns could afford to be a little greyer. Or maybe the in light neck patterns a bit more saturated? maybe both.

gonna jump about five minutes through the movie for each reference. Hopefully I get good enough to truly defeat Gwi-ma!

[logansleftshoe]

okay but we're all in agreement that rumi 100% showed up with every intention to sacrifice herself to gwi-ma right? like she had no way of knowing that mira and zoey would snap out of it (hell she may not have even known for sure they were there) so she had to have gone in at peace with the possibility she wouldnt make it home

[theadhdoni]

trying to understand her exact thought process is complicated cus in my mind she wasn't thinking at all throughout the last act. every single action she took was pure instinct and emotion, layers upon layers of the guilt and shame being torn off until she finally reached the conclusion she always wanted. to exist as she was alongside her girls. she knew that's what she wanted deep down... but the chaos of the last act made it happen in a series of emotional impulses allowing her to just unload.

she was throwing herself at gwi ma with 100% heart for the truth that she wanted. to exist along-side her girls the way that she is. and she was ready to die for it. So... did she know she would succeed, or that her girls would join her? no... probably not... but she wasn't even THINKING about that. she was in a state of pure fucking emotion. she wanted to LIVE, in a new world where she could be who she was without shame.

she was in a state of pure BEING

no thinking. only feeling.

[couchcouchcouchcouchcouchcouch]

*yeets part of what I wrote this weekend*

There’s more but I’m not sure if I’m happy with it.

Basic Summary: Magical bullshit de-ages Mira, and now the other two have a 6 year old girlfriend on their hands.

—————

Rumi found Mira on the floor of the bathroom at two o'clock in the morning. She was on her knees, rummaging through the cabinet below the sink, arms outstretched as she looked up at her sheepishly. Like a kid with her hand found in the cookie jar.

A literal kid, to be fair.

Hunters, out of everyone in the world, were the most aware of magic. It was powerful, unpredictable, and always difficult to understand, so when something happened, and Mira ended up two decades younger, they just had to roll with it. Even if she and Zoey wanted to panic, because who wouldn’t when you find your significant other de-aged and unable to remember you.

“What’re you doing up, kiddo?” Rumi yawned, scrubbing at her face. It was late by even Zoey’s standards, so she was genuinely curious.

Mira, her cheeks, chubbier with kid fat, flushed. Her eyes darted around, like she was fighting to maintain eye contact when she really didn’t want to.

“I- um…” Her shoulders tucked up around her ears. “My knees hurt.” The words were mumbled, but in the quiet of the night, Rumi heard them easily.

Rumi hummed in response, her sleepy brain booting up a little faster now that she knew there was an actual problem. Taking a step into the bathroom, she doesn’t comment when Mira scootches back, giving her a wider birth than usual.

In the past, Mira had spoken about how she’d gotten growing pains early. Ridiculously early by all standards. She’d grown in small bursts throughout her life, but each one had been fast and painful until she’d grown to her full height.

In the dark of the night, when they’d all cuddled together, basking in the afterglow, she’d also spoken about how her parents had handled it. Poorly, in Rumi’s opinion. Brushing off the pain that had nearly had their daughter in tears, telling her to just go back to bed, or even scolding her for waking them up. She’d taken to sneaking into the medicine cabinet at a young age, looking for relief.

Now, Rumi opened the upper cabinet above the sink, taking out a bottle of ibuprofen and skimming the label before shaking one of the tablets into her palm and holding it out to Mira. The girl just stared at her in confusion. Like this, Mira was an open book, not yet having settled into her usual deadpan expression of her teen years.

Hesitantly, she clambered to her feet, Zoey’s sleep pants long and bunched around her ankles, making her stumble slightly. Rumi just smiled softly. This Mira felt like an abused puppy, hopeful still, seeking out kindness, but having experienced enough rejection and pain to be wary.

It takes another moment for her to take the pill from Rumi’s hand, and another for her to put it in her mouth. The hesitation from someone who was usually so forward, so willing to take up space, made Rumi’s skin crawl. She knew Mira hadn’t had the most ideal childhood, but she’d never thought about what that meant seriously until it had been forced in front of her.

“I’m pretty sure we have some Tigerbalm that should help, but I’m not sure where.” She said as she returned the pill bottle to the cabinet. “Want me to get you a heat bag?” Mira made a noise of confusion, head tilting adorably. Rumi had to suppress a laugh. God, her girlfriend was such a cute kid.

“Come on,” She holds out her hand for Mira to take, waiting patiently.

[theadhdoni]

Mira magically de-aging and being reparented by her girlfriends gives me so many warm fuzzies I'm drowning in the fluff

[theadhdoni]

I was not expecting my dumbass little horny post about Zoey licking Rumis patterns to pop off I literally just made this account a few days ago.

along with the actual theory segment.

I'm scared.

[theadhdoni]

this fandom is consuming me I'm now going to do face studies of Rumi just so I can draw her patterns as different colors to show what I think they would look like when she has different expressions

I'm not doing this because I want to but because I HAVE TO

[theadhdoni]

more on rumis patterns changing color

(I couldn't resist the Zoey shenanigans as the first interpretation)

the new honmoon was created through the girls energy of being totally honest and unashamed of who they are, but especially Rumi who had fully accepted her demon self. the new honmoon is a rainbow, the many colors of emotion and human experience. rather than we must make everyone happy, it's now we must make it safe to feel everything. Rumis patterns reflect the state of the new honmoon, and I believe it speaks through her. But most of all because she has the new honmoon inside her I believe it serves as a way to force herself to be emotionally honest with the girls after the movie. she's STILL going to be closed off. DUH. But you can't be closed off when you're literally glowing blue, red, yellow, green, magenta, orange, etc. She bears the truth of the new honmoon inside her because she was the one that decided to make it happen but she's also the one that really needs to let it sink in. Being honest after hiding for so long is hard. The new honmoon is helping her become the symbol of its truth.

idk maybe I just like having visual representations of what people are feeling and what I'm feeling because I'm ADHD/maybe autistic and that would make it all so much easier