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[hollanovery]

hello fellow cottage residents!

this is a new main blog i made (my original is @posting-for-the-void) because truly i have too many thoughts about this show to keep in, and a sideblog just wasn't enough.

i'm gonna try to actually finish a fanfic so i made a sideblog (@shilyanism) so i'll post my fic stuff there

check out my masterlist of Game Changers/Heated Rivalry fic recs here!

and just some basics: sadie, she/her, 20, lesbian i guess but not really into labels

[grabmyboner]

to go to sleep my husband puts on YouTube videos of this random guy trying to survive in nature and build things out of his surroundings and that’s so shane coded shane puts that shit on and he’s so intrigued and Ilya has to be like no more baby it’s time to sleep and shane is like But I have to know how to build a tent out of logs and branches in case I am stranded in the woods but he’s like falling asleep saying it and Ilya is like sure baby whatever you say and just kisses him on the forehead and turns the tv off cause shane is already unconscious

[hollanovery]

shane and me both having to put on all of physics explained slowly to fall asleep lmao

[amjjey]

Roselana at the stairs 💍

[heavensenthale]

Ilya comforting his boyfriend 🥺🥺🥺

[hollanovery]

PLEASE if you are going to give Ilya female relatives give them in your fanfic RUSSIAN NAMES 😭😭😭

[a-girl-needs-an-outlet]

Source

So apparently when Shane is with rose and flashing back to what life was like w/ ilya in episode 4 they USED COMPLETELY DIFFERENT FOOTAGE OF ILYA MAKING SOFTER FACES THAN HE DID IN THE SCENES 

[lycheeek]

Roselana but make it PWHL

[hollanovstars]

The unresolved thing about Shane in The Long Game that gets me is his fear about coming out isn't really "I'll lose everything." He does fear his relationship with Ilya will mean he will lose hockey, yes, but the problem is that whether he is accepted or rejected, he will be forever redefined as "Shane Hollander, *gay* hockey player." THAT is the sticking point. Because regardless of whether he gets to continue to play once they go public, that qualifier is always there.

And even after he decides losing Ilya is a worse fate than losing hockey, this fact remains the same. The thing he didn't want, that he was so afraid of he made himself sick and miserable for years, the thing he was terrified of since he was eighteen in a locker room shower after a commercial shoot, is incredibly real now. Shane is STILL struggling with his identity. And I would love to see that addressed in Unrivaled. Because as much progress as Shane makes, this doesn't magically go away.

[wilmvandrr]

just married!!!

[my-2nd-account]

Ilya covering Shane's entire body with his, sobbing all over Shane's chest and clinging to him like a koala, while Shane runs his fingers through Ilya's hair and kisses his forehead after they've just confessed their love to eachother gotta be one of the most beautiful sights I have ever seen on television.

[lavenderprose]

I just know that Shane was one of those kids who didn't speak til three and when he did he busted out a full sentence one day and that sentence was, "Jason stole my FUCKING crayons" followed by a WHAP as Shane hit Jason and Jason hit the floor and Yuna and David were summoned immediately to the school to have an Important Conversation and David sat there the entire time staring at Yuna out the side of his head because Shane did NOT get those "interpersonal skills" from the mailman and Yuna's only response to the entire conversation was, "Well. Did Jason steal his fucking crayons???"

Twenty-three years later Ilya Rozanov dies on a floor in Ottawa after hearing this story for the first time.

[tinylilemrys]

I'm just obsessed with how Ilya, who hasn't known a scrap of fondness or affection since the age of twelve, keeps finding all the queer people in hockey and immediately showering them with fondness and affection. There's a reason 75% of his name is I love you.

[slumped-in-the-arms-of-fiction]

[themoonandmyman]

Every time I see this image

I can’t help but think of this

[all4vans]

[vibrantbloom]

"He's going to worry" is such an underrated moment for showing that Shane knows Ilya's in deep. They haven't taken the leap yet, skirting the edges of whether they're going to do this. But still you have to tell Ilya that Shane's safe, he'll worry.

And woah, does he worry.

[criticaloser]

just saw someone say “shane doesn’t know he’s autistic so ilya doesn’t know either”. y’all. come on. he might not KNOW the word for it but that man is googling “why boyfriend cry when touching velvet” “why boyfriend gag at mushy texture” “boyfriend can’t keep things out of his mouth like toddler” EVENTUALLY he stumbles upon the right combo of words to get “autism explained” search results