I am an artist, writer, teacher, and lifelong student (at the time of writing this, I'm two weeks from graduating with my second degree). I've been writing since I was a kid, starting with fanfiction like many of my age; however, I didn't start writing seriously until 2022. I was tired of never finishing a single project, so I told myself I couldn't write fanfiction or start another project until I finished my primary project (Nightmares + Serenades). Romance and fantasy have always been the genres closest to me, but the dark Gothic side of life has grasped me in its cold embrace. One word that many peers and betas have used to describe my writing is "immense."
I'm a writer who loves:
🩸 All things Gothic: Horror, Romance, and Fantasy
There's something about the Gothic and Romantic era of literature, I have discovered in my studies, that so uniquely describes the human condition in earnest without shying away from what ugliness lies underneath. Gothic works, like Gothic Horror, Romance, or Fantasy, excavate the coffin from the earth, and even in the face of death, they hold the truth with such tender embrace. The most inspirational authors to me are Mary Shelley and Nathaniel Hawthorne.
💀 Themes on Identity, Corruption, Memory, Beauty in the grotesque, Forbidden knowledge, Worship, devotion, and sacrifice, Multiplicity of truths, and Moral ambiguity
🧛 I adore the arts: writing it, studying it, annotating it, reading it, creating it, listening to it...
I’m fascinated by:
🕷️ Mythology; Psychology; Theological worldbuilding (specifically Pluralistic Polytheism); and Philosophy
I devour:
🕸️ angst with payoff; complicated characters making terrible choices; dangerous romance; soft moments amid brutality; poetic gore; dark academia; and slow burn (painfully slow)
🕸️corruption arcs; vampires / fae / celestial beings; morally gray love interest; and enemies to lovers
On this blog you’ll find:
🌑 writing thoughts
🌒 excerpts & worldbuilding rambles
🌓 aesthetics & art
🌘 personal notes & inspiration
If you’re here, welcome. I hope you find something worth staying for.
I've had the most terrible urge as of late to begin a new story from dissatisfaction with the one I've been working on for 4-5 years now...
I don't know if it's because I've been in such a slump and unable to conjure what it is that needs to be done to merge gaps, or if it's the lack of energy (though I do desire to write and have had ideas to extend or create a new short story), or some other, secret option Ii do not yet know....
I do feel I need a hard reset to wash away the built up stress of 3 long, continuous years of non-stop work, but that can only go so far.
My nerves are so strained I don't even listen to music, and I just want to sit in a suspended silence.
Since I only have 3.5 books left (not counting Dracula bc I'm really not that far in it) I figure I'd add the rest of my TBR (aka the books I own but haven't finished or read yet) (and actually, I dont even own Cursed by the Dawn saurrrrrrrr............. 2.5 books lol) in no particular order
Phantom of the Opera
We the Animals by Justin Torres
There, There by Tommy Orange
Lone Women by Victor Lavalle
I really like Romantic/Dark Romantic/Gothic books, so if you have any recommendations, let me know. I've been considering The Count of Monte Christo, but I know it's crazy long...
I'm currently reading Phantom of the Opera and it's so much more easier to read having finished Dorian Gray and other older classics. It's a lot more modern comparatively, while when I had first tried to read it, maybe ten-ish years ago, it was too difficult.
So far, I'm nearly one - third of the way through it. I love the Phantom; he's really funny and sassy.
I've had the most terrible urge as of late to begin a new story from dissatisfaction with the one I've been working on for 4-5 years now...
I don't know if it's because I've been in such a slump and unable to conjure what it is that needs to be done to merge gaps, or if it's the lack of energy (though I do desire to write and have had ideas to extend or create a new short story), or some other, secret option Ii do not yet know....
I do feel I need a hard reset to wash away the built up stress of 3 long, continuous years of non-stop work, but that can only go so far.
My nerves are so strained I don't even listen to music, and I just want to sit in a suspended silence.
I have not worked on my novel for over a month because of a lack of inspiration, know-how to bypass my current plot issue, and surrounding accountability (I unfortunately thrive and, pretty much, require a body double).
Three movies I've watched recently (all between 1940-90s)have sparked some inspiration in me; however, not for my current work. Though this is an issue, the MORE SERIOUS issue lies in, even though I have an inspiration, I still cannot connect any coherent plot or story idea despite those films being quite familiar.
I am completely in a creative drought. If anyone has a way out, please lmk.
At the back of my journal, I’ve set up a Sleep Tracker and a Mood Tracker.
I take medication and continuously change the dose for my migraines and sleep that affect my mood pretty drastically.
My doctor just recently upped the dose again in hopes of giving me a more positive experience, so I figured I’d track it all to see if it helps me any.
Perhaps I’ll make a migraine tracker and see if I can measure how productive I am on one of them.
