｡꩜˚⋆Lucas⋆˚꩜｡

♡Lucas • 26 • He/It • Married to my Soulmate♡ Early Childhood onset Schizophrenia • Legally Severely Disabled • Profile pic picrew: https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/2271385

[theautisticschizo]

꩜˚⋆Hello and welcome to my Blog!⋆˚꩜

Here is my Introduction! :

Name : Lucas

Pronouns : He/Him and It/Its

Age : 26

Relationship status : Married to my Soulmate (Together for almost 9 years and married for almost 6 years)

My identity : I'm grey aroace aka only have attraction and love for my Husband. I'm trans masc and used to be on Testosterone but had to stop due to circumstances. Trying to resume it

My disabilities : Paranoid Schizophrenic/ Early Childhood onset schizophrenia, Late Dx Level 2 / Moderate support needs Autistic person. PTSD. POTS and Heart Arrhythmial

My Special Interests : Mikaela hyakuya from Owari No Seraph/ Seraph of the End and his romantic and soulmate relationship with Yuichiro Hyakuya aka the ship "Mikayuu". Call of Duty Mobile, Harbor Seals. Perfumes, especially high end brands.

I'm fully verbal with occasional Verbal Shutdowns. Thats why I sometimes use an AAC app for verbal communication.

DNI :

If you're going to flirt with me or try to recruit me into Poly stuff or anything like that. I am STRICTLY Monogamous and Married. Stuff like that makes me uncomfortable and is disrespectful to my Marriage!

If you're Homophobic, Transphobic or Queerphobic in general

If you're Racist and support Genocide like in Gaza, Congo etc

If you're sexist, misogynistic or misandrist

If you're a republican or conservative or a trump supporter

If you support Biden and his actions

If you're a Pedophile or a MAP. And if you're into DDLG/B, ABDL, Diaper Lover or anything that sexualizes Age regression or Littles

If you're Ableist and/or a Aspie Supremacist

If you don't believe in Support Needs Labels or Levels

If you're Sanist

If you use your Religion to be anything listed above, esp if you're Christian! God loves all his children, esp use queer and trans ones and anything that is outside of a Cis White Heterosexual Men. If you dont accept that, you're not following God / Jesus. Thats my stance

If you like to do "Schizoposting" jokes or anything Ableist against Schizo-spec or Psychotic people

If you're self-dx with no intensive research or after watching or reading a couple topics about the disorder you self-dx. Also if you self-dx things that can't be self-dx like medical conditions that need testing and a specific psychotic condition

If you attack others for self-dx if they have done it correctly

If you're LSN/Lvl 1 and shit on M-HSN/lvl 2-3 because we're not the same as you or aren't capable of doing the same as you

If you make jokes like "I'm in your walls" or "I know where you live", "I'm watching you through your cameras" etc.

BYI :

Please use Tone Tags! I will try and remember to use them too!

I have really bad memory due to Schizophrenia, so I apologize if I forget important stuff

People have told me I can come across as rude. I DON'T TRY TO BE!! If I come across as Rude, please know I'm not trying to be! Unless I use Insults at you or you do something bad (like stated in my DNI)

Please know that I'm bad in interactions! I try my best but I can be weird or "too much" sometimes

Schizophrenia is also a thought disorder, so sometimes I could do weird Rambles or Word Salads

I'm paranoid 24/7, so I might ask questions that dont make sense or sound accusatory. I apologize for that!

Linktree :

Age : 24 • Pronouns : He/It • Legally Severely Disabled • 💗Married💗

Thanks for Reading!! I will edit this if I want to add more stuff :D

[theautisticschizo]

Happy birthday to me 🥳 I'm 26 now! But i do not feel or look 26😭

[theautisticschizo]

Should I drop out of college for having panic attacks?

Uhhh idk if I'm the right person to ask that. I think thats something you should ask your therapist, friends and family or talk to your school counselor with.

[theautisticschizo]

do you believe that moving to another city, country, state would improve your symptoms?

Well, i have moved quite a lot actually. Especially between the USA and Germany. And I have to admit, my symptoms were worse in the US due to my (justified) delusions that everywhere I go, a shooter is waiting for me and that snipers are constantly after me and the government too etc. I still have them here in germany but now its a little less with the guns and more so knife attacks and SA.

[theautisticschizo]

I've been reading your blog, and really appreciate everything you do. I was confused, though, and wondered if you explain the difference between talking openly about schizophrenia-autism comorbidity and shared symptoms, on the one hand, and not "derailing" posts about schizophrenia by talking about autism, on the other? I've seen you advocate for the first and caution against the second; I think I get what you mean but would love to hear more. How can we talk openly about shared experiences or double diagnoses without derailing? <3

Hi! First, thank you! I'm glad my blog and posts are helping people. And second, would you be able to link me the post that you're talking about? My memory is very bad and I don't quite remember it

[theautisticschizo]

it is so so validating and reassuring to see someone out there with childhood onset schizophrenia and not in the "well i had some symptoms show up earlier but it never really fully manifested until later" way... i have never met anyone else with my condition and idk, it's so isolating and nobody understands on top of the layers of trauma. i feel a kinship in you. thank you for posting

- @catatonic-chuunidoll

Hi! I'm glad my account makes you feel reassured and not alone! Yes, its gard finding people who actually have COS because, like you said, most people will say that they had some symptoms in childhood but it didn't fully manifest till they were teens or older. Which is actually pretty common. But yeah, showing some symptoms in childhood ≠ childhood onset schizophrenia. And don't get me started on the trauma. I had a fight with someone, over on reddit, about if schizophrenia can cause PTSD and how, by the diagnostic criteria, its not possible. Which is bullshit and psychiatrists know it too. And they didn't even have schizophrenia themselves, it was a loved one trying to argue with me bc "what you experience isn't real so it doesn't count". Even after explaining over and over that it IS real to US. But anyway... I'm glad my posts made you feel less alone! Its nice to know that there are others with COS out there. It is very, very isolating

[ocd-room]

October is obsessive compulsive disorder awareness month.

I hope everyone who have this disorder, whether they know about it or not, whether they're diagnosed or not, will be able to find strength within themselves and will find peace.

I hope people around us will be more aware, more understanding and compassionate.

We are here. We matter. We will persist.

[bpdohwhatajoy]

Me when I’m sick with health ocd worries so I google to try to reassure myself that the physical symptoms I’m experiencing aren’t a big deal and google tells me I’m dying

[omneco]

[animentality]

[exwife-of-frankenstein]

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[yamauchi-sakiko]

psychosis needs to lose its negative connotation, its a thing that happens. you are far closer to psychotic episodes than you think and we need to all know how to deal with them properly

[theautisticschizo]

I always say that psychosis is a natural part of human experience or state of mind. And guess what, non psychotics get MAD when I say that. "No, its not natural or normal at all! Dont normalize it!" Guess what happens when you haven't slept in a few days? Psychosis. Guess what can happen when you're too stressed? Psychosis. Guess what can happen from physical conditions? Psychosis. Psychosis is the same type of normal that any other negative state of mind is. Someone experiencing depression due to circumstances? Normal. Someone dissociating during a stressful event? Normal. Psychosis isn't different. ANYONE can experience psychosis and it doesn't even have to be a disorder. Psychotic disorders are disorders due to the frequency and intensity of psychosis.

People need to stop demonizing normal human experiences

[chitaqua-toast]

Funniest part is when someone who’s been a disability advocate & has said those same/similar things about physical disability tries to argue that “it isn’t the same”.

Babes.

You could just as easily fall into psychosis as you could become physically disabled. This is neither the time nor place in history to be playing “we’re the GOOD gays not the bad kind” about ableism.

[zmpl]

people on tiktok will be like “the psych ward is like scared straight for depression” and giving them the benefit of the doubt you’re like “yes i agree, they use draconian punishments and force you to mask your problems to regain your freedom” and then they’ll be like “NO actually it’s because psych wards have THOSE crazies in there. the ones that make you realize your problems aren’t that bad after all :-)” and you’re like ohhhhhh so what i’m hearing is you need to be beaten with rocks👍 got it

[depsidase]

[depsidase]

[yamauchi-sakiko]

psychosis needs to lose its negative connotation, its a thing that happens. you are far closer to psychotic episodes than you think and we need to all know how to deal with them properly

[theautisticschizo]

I always say that psychosis is a natural part of human experience or state of mind. And guess what, non psychotics get MAD when I say that. "No, its not natural or normal at all! Dont normalize it!" Guess what happens when you haven't slept in a few days? Psychosis. Guess what can happen when you're too stressed? Psychosis. Guess what can happen from physical conditions? Psychosis. Psychosis is the same type of normal that any other negative state of mind is. Someone experiencing depression due to circumstances? Normal. Someone dissociating during a stressful event? Normal. Psychosis isn't different. ANYONE can experience psychosis and it doesn't even have to be a disorder. Psychotic disorders are disorders due to the frequency and intensity of psychosis.

People need to stop demonizing normal human experiences

[tired-pidgeon]

Ok but how do you deal with psychotic episodes??

[theautisticschizo]

You go see a doctor. Psychotic episodes are the rare type where medication is sadly needed, even if only to stabilize for now and stop later based on why the psychosis happened

[identitty-dickruption]

even growing up in a majority non-white neighbourhood with a mum who used to live in india meant that my safe foods growing up were palak paneer and mango lassi. and, unrelatedly, my biggest sensory trigger was meat, particularly processed meats like. say. chicken nuggets. the thing about autism is that things are safe because they’re familiar, they’re consistent, and they’re reliable. and all of those things are soo contextual. I don’t really. understand. how anyone could think that only one category of anything (but especially food) could be Universally Safe unless they somehow forget that the universe includes people who aren’t them 🤔 crazy

[identitty-dickruption]

I remember a conflict over catering for a disability event coming up because one person involved wanted the entire thing to be chicken and chips. citing the fact that chicken is a safe food. and quite apart from the fact that it wouldn’t have met specific allergy concerns. what do you mean chicken is a “safe food”? for who? quite frankly not an assumption anyone can (or should) be making

[theautisticschizo]

I feel the same way and I've been saying the same thing too! I hate bland food and love a lot of seasonings and especially spicy stuff. I jate simple food like chicken nuggets and barely eat most meats due to textures