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Ephemeral, irrelevant thoughts

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Because No Matter How Perfect You Think You Are, You Just Aren’t Perfect Enough

I’d rather go deaf than hear people lecture me on what kind of person I should aspire to be. My aspirations are my own effing aspirations, why should I aspire to be something you aspire me to be? It’s ridiculous, the expectations. There’s an ideal version of you in everyone’s minds and they expect you to be that. But you DON’T want to be that. But let’s say you’re a bit of a people pleaser and you try. But then it dawns on you: you’re not happy this way. Unfortunately, this elusive ideal version of the perfect you is different in everyone’s mind. This is nothing surprising or dubious, I’m just stating the obvious. The sad part is the fact that this supposedly perfect version of you is nothing like you. And maybe, yeah, this perfect version of you would make you a better person, do you more good in life, make you more successful and rich and all that crap. But what’s the point of that if you aren’t happy?

People can’t be pleased.

Maybe they’re just not meant to be pleased. Why put your own individuality and more importantly, your own LIFE at stake?

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And yet I'm still here...

Ok, bye. For now.

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Anatomy is beckoning me

Omg I'm so freaked out right now. The routine for finals is up and it's just 20 days from today...

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I honestly dunno what I’m doing here on tumblr right now because I know that I have absolutely nothing remotely funny or inspiring to post. Been customizing like crazy changing the colours and everything since the past three hours. Honestly I think it’s kind of a disorder or something cos I can’t decide on stuffs like colours and fonts. I changed the themes on my old blogs so frequently- more theme changes than actual posts which is funny cos sometimes I logged in with so much ideas and then once I get in that whole I-don’t-think-this-theme-fits-my-content-anymore phase, I’m that indecisive lunatic again. Haha.

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#1.

You know, awkward and sarcastic is like the worst combination ever. You screw up literally every situation; as if *ensuring* all participants in the conversation feel uncomfortable enough to contemplate about what just happened and shut the hell up for a while (this being the case 7/10 times preceding usually with your silence or that fake nervous smile plastered on your face) and then in your meek attempt to ‘save’ the convo, you end up saying something that was supposed to be along the lines of good-humoroured which instead comes off as petty and awefully scornful. You regret it almost as soon as the words come out of your mouth. Of course none of this is on purpose, you just don’t have the social skills to you know, blend in with the rest of the people. And you just want to fit in so visibly bad that you just stand out. Look at me, I have zero social skills come make me uncomfortable!