Blood Tells
As much as he had wanted to rush immediately to speak to Armand, Janus had been held back by fear and the thousand excuses it brought with it. For a bit over a week, he found project upon project to work on, just to keep his mind racing, his gloved hands busy, and his lab full of bubbling vats ... and acrid smoke?
Oh, fuck.
With a frantic flick of the wrist the door slammed open and the window swung outward as well, allowing the fumes to escape. They weren’t dangerous when allowed to disperse like that, there would have been other procedures to follow if they were, but still, it stank to high heaven and it was by no means easy to breathe. The court alchemist emerged from his laboratory coughing and spluttering, extinguishing burners and getting air magic moving simply by knocking in a certain way on runes in the doorframe as he left. Standard features of alchemy labs, one of the first things he’d learned to use at school.
Stumbling a good 15 feet forward, Janus felt he’d gotten enough space between himself and the billowing doorway to pause, turn back and examine his mishap. He knew exactly what he’d done wrong, and what had caused it - Alchemy was a discipline of magic that required constant close attention. Perhaps it was time he took a break, a walk to clear his head - not that he thought he’d make that much of a headway with the mess of rubble his thoughts currently were, but he needed to kill time now anyhow. Even with the magic aiding the draft, he wanted to give it a good hour or two before returning to his workspace.
He had few options right now - his to-do list had been very effectively cleared by the frenzy. He no longer had an excuse to not go to see Armand. Swallowing the lump forming in his throat, he slowly but determinedly set off. However, he only got about 10 steps, a passing courtier having seen the smoke and offering some quickly waved off concern, and another 5 steps after that for him to remember one last excuse he could use to put the problem off for a minute or ten - on a nightstand repurposed as a storage unit, right beside the door of the lab, there was a bottle of glass cleaner that he’d meant to deliver to the astronomer. Despite the masses of snow that had fallen in the past few days, it didn’t take Janus long to trudge to the observatory. This was a very unassuming, round two story building that became notable through the massive spire that jutted out the back of it. Ivy climbed it’s walls, not out of meaning, but purely for the aesthetic of it. The door was made from some dark wood, it’s fittings and knob where metal. Janus couldn’t help but worry that it was iron. However, he was still wearing his heavy-duty work gloves, so it wouldn’t be a problem, he hoped.. He knocked.
“Gwynn!” A voice inside cried out, probably belonging to the cat. Their response was too muffled for him to hear. “Visitor!”
There was a pause.
“They said you can come in, it’s open!” Janus followed the invitation into a surprisingly rectangular room. It’s walls were lined with shelves, cluttered with rolled up charts, wax myrtle branches, nasturtiums,seashells, bottles containing model ships or sand, white lavender, various service medals, bunches of Daffodils, and other assorted trinkets.
The rest of the room was a similar mess. There was a half-eaten meal on the table, surrounded by sheets of paper, the various chairs around the room where almost all laden with miscellaneous objects. The floor, at least, was for the most part clean, but it was still cluttered with enough debris that you could very well trip if you weren’t paying attention. In short, the place looked like a storm had raged in it. And in the middle of it all, sat Mirage.
“Stop staring.” The panther kitten, who had, if stories were to be believed, been a kitten for longer than Janus had been alive, growled, and then continued in a low hiss. “They’ve had a bad week, okay?”
Before Janus could respond in any way shape or form, there was a call from upstairs.
“I’m coming!” This was followed by dangerously fast footsteps thundering down wooden stairs, and the lanky figure of Gwynn Nichols appearing in a doorway towards the back of the room. Mirage was right, and quite obviously so - they looked a mess. Dark rings under their eyes proved of too little sleep, if their hair had seen a comb at all recently, the rendezvous must have been incredibly haphazard, and, overall, they just looked ... hagard. Even the magnificently beautiful robes that had looked marvelous on Elizabeth’s workbench and even better on its recipient didn’t restore too much dignity.
“Ah, Mr. Darnel,” Gwynn gave him a tired but friendly smile. “How can I help you?”
“Uh... I just... finished your order.”
“... Oh.” Their expression was hard to read. For some reason, they didn’t seem as pleased as Janus had expected them to be, even if it was only glass cleaner. While they were clearly doing their best to smile wide, it was also clear that it required effort, and quite frankly they were way too tense. They opened their mouth, but before they could speak, Mirage had bound up to them, and beaten them to it as she rubbed comfortingly against their legs. They seemed to soften a little. “Sorry, It’s just…”
“... been a hard week, he knows, I told him!” The cub sounded chipper, but she shot him a look that made it hard for him not to flinch despite her not even reaching up to his knees.
“Thanks, I guess.” Mirage seemed shaken by the disheartened response, but Janus wasn’t about to admit he’d noticed that. Clearly she’d been expecting more genuine gratitude. “Look, how bout you go wait for me upstairs? And help me dig out the cleaning cloths?” “Sure!” The split seconds worth of hesitation seemed to last forever, but the panther did bound out of view and sound. Gwynn’s shoulders dropped with a heavy sigh.
“I hope she wasn’t too much trouble?” They said, as Janus hesitantly approached them, holding out the bottle. “It’s just… the anniversary of my discharge from the Navy.”
Oh. That would most certainly do it. Janus didn’t know too much about the astronomer, but it was common knowledge at the court that they’d only come there after they could no longer serve in Iris’ navy due to losing use of their left arm to injury. They’d grown up at sea even before they enlisted, and the ocean clearly still remained in their veins - it was evident from the decor. Janus looked them in the eye as they took the bottle from him, and it hit him. They were grieving. For the sea, for their home.
“She knows it's a difficult time, and kind of… overcompensates in defensiveness.” Gwynn didn’t want to let on that they were grateful for that - right now, they seemed quite frankly embarrassed.
“Oh, no,” Janus laughed, tinkling and lighthearted, trying to ease the weight of the situation as the astronomer placed down the bottle and started digging for coins in a leather pouch that hung from their belt. “It’s perfectly all right. No harm done, on the contrary, I hope I didn’t cause any trouble for you?” Gwynn opened their mouth to answer, but Janus beat them to it with an afterthought.
“You know what, this one’s on me. You seem like you could use it, and the ingredients are inexpensive stuff I had in storage anyway, so it’s hardly an imposition for me.”
“R-really?” Gwynn’s disbelief startled the alchemist. It wasn’t until they continued that he realized it was gratitude. “That would be very nice. Every little thing helps keeps these times bearable, you know?” This was the warmest smile he’d seen on their face since his arrival.
“Sure thing! Glad to be- “ Janus was interrupted by an echo of a clatter and a sharp meow, followed by a softly murmured swear from the astronomer.
“Seems like I best be going. Thanks again, Mr. Darnel.” “Pleasure’s all mine, Mx. Nichols.” Janus was already in the middle of turning away, so it was only in the corner of his eye that he caught the motion, but he could have almost sworn that Gwynn flinched at the mention of their name.
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For what felt like the hundredth time since he’d opened that box of rowan leaves, Janus stood frozen in front of a door. He’d already raised his hand to knock three times, but lowered it before he actually could. His knees were shaking. From the muffled voices, it seemed Armand wasn’t alone, either, which complicated matters. His sister, probably. Either that, or Armand was practicing illusions, but there was no way to tell from out here.
Finally, Janus inhaled, and tapped the door gently but decisively. He could hear himself being noticed, a shift in the conversation, footsteps…
“Yes?” It was Armand himself who opened the door. “Ah, Mr. Darnel! How can I be of assistance?”
“Uh- Uhm…” Janus immediately felt the urge to mutter some excuse and rush off rise in him as he was failed by words. He’d rehearsed this scene so many times in his head over the past week, and here he was, unable to even bring out the sentence Could I talk to you alone, maybe?
“Mr. Darnel?” He’d raised an eyebrow and tilted his head in concern, but still didn’t lose that faint sense of radiance that he always displayed - Armand was definitely someone who cared about his appearance, particularly the visual, but surely also the personal and social. Janus could definitely not see him being too pleased to hear what he’d seen in the basement. “Is there a problem?”
“No- Yes- n- … Uh- I- Sorry, I was just…” The alchemist looked down as he felt himself going red, “I was just wondering if, uh, maybe, uh, we could … talk in private? One on one?”
“Why?” Shit.
“I- uh, It’s important!” The shrill squeak his voice had risen to was almost an embarrassment on it’s own right, but he didn’t have the capacity to worry about that now, with the sheer weight of the potential conversation to-be looming over him.
“... I can certainly tell that.” Armand was beginning to have his suspicions about what Janus wanted to talk about, though not anywhere near the truth. “If you’re so intent on privacy, your laboratory might be a good place to speak-” “I… I’d agree,” Janus stared at his feet, “If the air there was breathable at the moment.”
“... I see.” Armand smiled, and even though he didn’t show his teeth, something about it was dazzling. “If you’ll give me a moment to tell my sister I’ll be out, I know just the place.”
-x-x-x-
Not long afterwards, Janus and Armand were standing in the dungeons of the castle. A bit of a misnomer, really, it was more of an extended storage space. Janus came down here on a fairly regular basis - there weren’t many reagents stored here per se, save for a handful that prefered the cold, damp darkness, but there was some flora and a plethora of creepy crawlies to be found down here, which sometimes proved useful. Besides, it was a very calm place, barely anyone bothered to come down here, making it an excellent place to sort one’s thoughts.
A lot of people disliked the place, given its atmosphere and name, but Janus wasn’t one of them. At least, usually. Unfortunately for him, he wasn’t the only one who was attracted to the peace and quiet… and the privacy. There was a certain memory, pertaining to Armand, that the alchemist couldn’t get out of his head, particularly not now, in its location, about to address its contents. He was scared, but knew there was no turning back now.
“So, what is it?” Armand’s smile didn’t make anything less terrifying. Quite the opposite, in fact. “If you have a crush on me, I’m afraid I-” “NO!” Janus had been fairly certain he couldn’t have gotten any more nervous. He was definitely shaking now. “No, that’s not it, It’s…. I have a problem, and I think you can help and and…” “... Calm down.” The illusionist placed a hand on his shoulder. “Take your time. What is it? Surely it can’t be that bad.”
Now or never, Janus told himself, taking deep breath after deep breath, trying to get his breathing under control again. It wasn’t working.
“I’mprettycertainI’machangelingandIdon’tknowwhattodoaboutitandIcametoyoubecauseIknowyou’reavampireandprobablywon’ttellGreeneaboutme.”
He flinched, closing one eye and keeping the other only very slightly open, to watch Armand. The illusionist had frozen in place, his face unreadable, and for a split second, time seemed to stand still, even the usual glamour around the vampire seemed to have vanished. But then, it all returned as fast as it had disappeared, with only the slightest headshake on Armand’s part, and he smiled, the same wide, gleaming grin as usual. “Mr. Darnel, really, I would have thought that you, as person of higher education, would know better than to fall for such ru-” “Isawyoudrink”
“....What.” Now, everything seemed to be TRULY gone from Armand, and he appeared the defensive sort of frightened, the kind where you try to build yourself up as tall as you can to try and hide that you’re scared. Given his position as the court illusionist, Armand was doing a significantly good job of it.
“I- I saw you drink.” Janus’ was trying his best to show his fear - not that it needed much work, given that he was one step up from wetting himself. “B-but I-”
“When. Where.” They were less questions than demands, and the alchemist couldn’t really blame Armand. “D-Down here, and I c-can’t remember exactly? A few m-months back, I think?” It had been early summer, but the exact date didn’t come to mind amid his jittering nerves. “And no one else knows?” Suddenly, it occurred to Janus that heading out to do this without telling anyone where he was going or who he was planning to talk to was a rather terrible idea. Surely, Armand wouldn’t…. ? “No.” There was no point in lying. This was half the point of talking to Armand of all people, even if the flaws in the plan were starting to show. “No one. Not about me, I hope, and not about you.”
Armand took a deep breath and rubbed his temples.
“What do you want for the information, keeping the secret?”
Janus was stunned, and it showed. He wasn’t hurt, for it was only now that he considered how he must have sounded, with only a stutter half-given as an explanation.
“I- I’m sorry, no, nothing, that’s not… that’s not what I meant, how I meant this.” He looked at his feet, unwilling to see Armand’s face, fearful of its expression, but finally raised his chin. He had to look him in the eye if he wanted to be taken by his word. “No, it’s just… We both have secrets to keep, and I figured I could trust you with mine because… I… I don’t know. I guess, mutual reassurance. If one of us gives away the secret, the other has something to fire back with… I guess.” The vampire sighed heavily.
“Alright, you’ve told me, and you know. I guess we’ve reached an agreement here, for better or for worse. Now, what is it you need from me?” “I… I’m not sure yet.” Janus looked at his feet again, regretting this whole thing more with every moment. “Mostly I just felt I needed to tell someone. A confidant. It’s… a very heavy secret to bear.”
“... I understand. In that case, I think we both have our respective duties to get back to.” Under other circumstances, Janus would have made a joke about how neither of them seemed to have anything to get back to - his lab was probably still a biohazard and he didn’t really think Armand had been doing anything but talking to his sister when Janus had called.
But as it was, he was all to glad to leave.
“Sounds good to me!” He smiled, trying not to show that he was still incredibly nervous.
Armand turned towards the stairs, leaving Janus behind. The alchemist made sure to wait until he was out of earshot (though who knew, perhaps vampires had better hearing) before he started hyperventilating. It wasn’t until a few hours later that he would emerge, enough time for the smoke to have cleared from his lab. That, at least, had a lockable door.
Janus may have found an ally, but he was all too aware of the many potential enemies still surrounding him as he set to tidying his workspace in a nervous frenzy.
The sound of curses over broken glass filled the rest of the night at uneven interims.














