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Thankful and Grateful

[theodorejacob]

HAPPY NEW YEAR 🎉

There are a lot of events that happened this year. A roller coaster ride experience. I traveled the country in the first half of the year, I left my first job, I applied to multiple companies, got rejected, got ghosted by the companies, got accepted, got felt that I am alone and out of place, got to meet new people, and laughed with them.

I also experienced liking someone, assuming that they liked me the way I liked them, and became someone's "backburner".

I am thankful that I experienced everything this year and I hope to experience different things this year. More fun, more laughter, and more blessings.

I hope you all had and will have the best year.

[theodorejacob]

I'm in a situation where I am starting to like a person solely because they're nice to me.

I'm starting to think as if their actions are specifically for me.

I want to talk to you for a whole day, I want to ask how your day went, I want to know everything about you.

I want to ask them if they really like me or if they're just being nice.

I don't want to assume things with them but it's happening again.

I don't want to confess my feelings for you because I don't want to lose you.

I like you and I am hoping that you like me too.

[theodorejacob]

Random thoughts

I am hoping one day to feel this feeling with someone that I truly love and I adore.

[theodorejacob]

New Chapter

These past few months I've been so down where I started to question my worth, my experiences, my success, and even my existence. Every day and night I cry like I am mourning every decision that I make. I feel like I deserve every consequence of my past actions.

Today, I'm still healing and still fighting every negativity that comes to me. I know that this fight is not linear but I'm hoping to overcome it.

[quotemadness]

Your peace is more important than driving yourself crazy trying to understand why something happened the way it did. Let it go.

Mandy Hale

[quotemadness]

It was good for a while, being empty. I didn’t hurt anymore. But as time went on, it was like I could hear myself from far away, begging for permission to come back.

Myra McEntire

[dazzlingkai]

(230714) D.O. — CREAM SODA

[theodorejacob]

Before, this song made my eyes watery even though I'm on the bus with the unknown people around me.

This song summarizes the feeling I want to tell my coworkers when I'm planning to leave the company. We've created a great bond to the point where I consider them as my best friends in a short span of time.

But right now, I know we're far away from each other and we have our own things to prioritize, I wish they still have a great day with their own new company but not as great when we have each other.

[theodorejacob]

LIFE UPDATE:

1. Got my first job last 2021

2. Got to experience graduation march at PICC

3. Passed the licensure exam

4. I left my first job and am currently looking for a new job.

Life made me experience ups and downs, shook me left and right, and made me travel in all directions of success and failure. Thank you for molding me to be the best. I am always grateful 💙

[quotemadness]

“You think attention is love, and that’s why you suffer so deeply.”

— Unknown

[quotemadness]

“So many years of education yet nobody ever taught us how to love ourselves and why it’s so important.”

— Unknown

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Just because you do not require much does not mean you deserve the bear minimum.”

— Unknown

[theodorejacob]

"Sana katulad na lang ako ng pastel colored na sky kanina para love mo din ako."

[theodorejacob]

"Mukha kang pagod. Are you okay? "

-yep, inaantok lang ako

[theodorejacob]

I am alone.

No one want to sit with me.

Am I ugly?

Am I annoying?

No one hates me. I guess.. 'coz no one tells me they do not like me.

But I overthink.

They noticed, they asked me but I never answer them correctly.

Why? 'coz I overthink

[carlagiguno]

You get to exhale now, Simon. You get to be more you than you have been in… in a very long time. You deserve everything you want.

LOVE, SIMON, 2018 dir. Greg Berlanti

[theodorejacob]

Di ka pa pala nakakamove-on sa kanya e. Ano pang ginagawa natin dito ngayon?