Lonely Hearts Club @theonewholovestoomuch - Tumblr Blog

“I learned the hard way that I cannot always count on others to respect my feelings - even if I respect theirs. Being a good person doesn’t guarantee that others will be good people. You only have control over yourself and how you choose to be as a person. As for others, you can only choose to accept them or walk away.”

— I Love Quotes

Bpd is so weird cause even when you're doing better you still have low-key self harm & suicidal thoughts even through you have no intention of doing either. I know that it would only make me feel worse but the temptation to validate those self-destructive thoughts all the way is like someone tapping on the window of your mind remind you you're alone.

#bpd problems #bpd #actually bpd

I feel so painfully lonely even though I have supportive people in my life. My heart longs to be held and to hold but I've been hurt too many times before to let any guy near me.

#bpd problems #bpd #actually bpd

ruinedchildhood

Are we going to forget that this happened?

velvetvetiver

The version of you right now is deserving of love. Not you two years ago when you had more of your shit together, or the five years later version where you’ll surely be thriving. The version of you right now. The one that might just be okay, or is really struggling, or is bored and unproductive. That version deserves love. Having trouble accepting this is fine, but actively denying it is not. Your value is intrinsic, and finding confidence in that is mandatory.

theonewholovestoomuch

Stop chasing people who make you feel bad about yourself. You have your own inner critic for that, dont feed it. People dont know us, they're not capable of understanding or reciprocating the love we have to give.

theonewholovestoomuch

Wish id remembered my own advice

siickangel

i hate the fact that when people leave me they just move on and forget about me but i’m stuck here constantly thinking about them and i can’t get over that they’ve left me

antifa-hulk

Anyways the way Tumblr treats the Perks Of Being A Wallflower like it’s cringe and bad just because of the hipster craze over it in 2012 and ignoring the fact that it’s one of the few books/movies that shows the ugly side of teen mental illness and discusses sexual trauma in young boys (something only portrayed in shows like SVU) is in fact, bullshit, and I’ll never forgive y'all for taking the line “we accept the love we think we deserve” (a reference to toxic abusive relationships) and turning it into cringe culture. This is a book about a struggling depressed kid who I saw myself in as a teen, and yeah he and his friends could be annoying and pretentious but are you going to say you weren’t as a kid?

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digitalblutbad

My biggest goal in this life is to become unrecognizable to everyone who once thought they knew me.

hplyrikz

“I still catch myself feeling sad about things that don’t matter anymore.”

— Kurt Vonnegut (via hplyrikz)

Clear your mind here

(via hplyrikz)

I keep replaying my mistakes in my head

My rage blackouts

My failed relationships

The things people have said about me

The worst feelings I've ever had and why I had them.

My darkest moments

When I felt abandoned and worthless

I wake up in the middle of the night thinking these things

It hurts

#bpd sucks #bpd #bpd stuff #bpd life #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #bpd problems #bpd probz

Hi! I hope you're ok, I just wanted to say hey and see if you wanted to chat :)

Hey, I'm alight thanks.

az-67-deactivated20211229

don’t fight for someone’s attention. if they really care, you shouldn’t have to

I hate myself. I hate myself for all of my failed friendships and relationships. I hate myself for being so easy for people to forget about and leave behind. I hate myself for being abandoned by dozens of people. I hate myself because of all the people who hate me and make fun of me. I hate myself for never being anyones favorite person. I hate myself because nobodys ever been scared to lose me, nobodys ever fought for me. I hate myself for having no friends. I hate myself for losing all of the friends I've ever had. I hate myself because my best friends abandoned me. I hate myself because the only man I ever fell in love with abandoned me. I hate myself for not being important to people. I hate myself for not being wanted. I hate myself for how easily people discard me and move on. I hate myself for being someone everyone leaves. I hate myself for never being good enough for anybody. I hate myself because nobody wants me. I hate myself because everyone abandons me. I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself.

*2021 edit

I don't hate myself anymore. I get frustrated and upset and I fuck up but I'm human. We're meant to struggle and have issues to deal with. I'm just returning to these old BPD posts from when my mental health was really bad. Hoping some people see my edits and know it got better. Not perfect but better.

#bpd stuff #bpd mood #living with bpd #bpd #bpd life #bpd sucks #borderline things #borderline problems #borderline life #borderline personality disorder #borderline thoughts #living with borderline #borderline personality problems #major depressive disorder #depresssion #depressing thoughts #depression #depressed

Stop chasing people who make you feel bad about yourself. You have your own inner critic for that, dont feed it. People dont know us, they're not capable of understanding or reciprocating the love we have to give.