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I get it now

It’s weird. Like, I understand you know. I get why people are so just profoundly gone when grief hits. I get how they get lost in it. Consumed by it. It enters every cell and every pore. It invades and attacks. There are no self defense mechanisms available..an then that’s all there is. It becomes a part of you. Soon, that all there is, but that’s okay I think. Maybe not. But I get why…

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CoVoid took my mom

I sleep with that bear I bought her, every night. Jesse and I call it mommas. Even brought it with me when I went to visit Jesse actually. We took her around almost everywhere.. I got it for her the day before she was intubated (she was so excited. Said “awww omg I lurve it so much! Im gonna love it forever” and then she held it. A few days later,, she passed away with it. It makes me feel better…

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My mind won't stop.

My mind won’t stop.

Today, or yesterday was a terrible day. I internalize a lot of things and I just sort of keep them to myself. The problem with that is, they just get turned over again and again. Reused and abused until it becomes something ugly. Sometimes even unrecognizable. I know it’s not healthy. But I don’t know who to talk to. Who can help me and maybe no one can. I do what I’m capable of and try to keep…