I’ll be damned, Cupid’s demanding back his arrow.
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“Was für eine Verschwendung” sagte er.
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This is one of those posts where I attempt to write metaphors about certain people in the hopes that they one day come across this and trace it back to me; giving details only when necessary, but at the same time being just vague enough that a lot of people assume it’s about them , kinda like a modern pop star.
I have, for a long time, believed in vomiting out my feelings for people. Being an avid follower of the “No Ragrets” movement, it is only natural that I should choose an Oopsie over a What If.
I don’t seem to be learning any lessons here, though. Maybe there will come a time when I realize that not everyone likes to clean up messes. And that vomiting is only desirable when you’re not doing it on someone’s shoes at a red carpet event.
But Shreya - you ask, slightly miffed that you have to read through repetitions of the same thought which could’ve been avoided with two clear statements - why don’t you tell us about why this art you made is connected to what you’re attempting to clarify?
Cupid regrets shooting me with his arrow, having wasted time, energy and a perfectly good arrow on a 20 year old barely in charge of her bearings, changing her mind at the speed of a couple burning out of their love. (I’m working on the analogy).
Having realized what he has just done, he cannot help but weep. Maybe he also had a frustrating day detangling the Paparazzi away from his hair. And the fans. Oh god, not the fans. It’s not even Valentine’s day yet.
The demand is high, Cupid, gots to keep up the morale and not disappoint the mortals. Can’t risk Love having a bad name, it’s the only thing they have going on for them.
I’m not a big fan, Cupid. But you knew that. I’ve been cynical about your presence for four years now, still scathing from the time when you attacked me at my most confused. Now that you’ve left me tongue-tied, but not defeated, furiously typing cuss words to my friends in need, telling them I messed up big time, I cannot help but sympathize for you.
You and I both know that arrow was much better deserved on someone else, someone who was ready to fall hopelessly in a rut of mediocrity with a person they could temporarily put on a pedestal. Striking me with it is not going to win you anything. But you tried. We both knew the spell would wear off too soon and I will end up taking my hands off of the intended recipient’s eyes too soon, much too soon for them to process with a clear head, sending them either in a shock or an awkward limbo, but both awkward enough to let them never look at me in the eyes again. For better or worse.
I know the indecisiveness gets your throat. If I weren’t ready, why would I look wistfully at slow dancing people in the movies, make playlists for very niche situations, and learn the language of flowers? Seems a little counterproductive, doesn’t it?
That’s where you’re wrong, kiddo.
For every sigh I exhale learning how to waltz, there’s are at least two people in love I roll my eyes at. I like to call this practice, maintaining the balance. Look, Cupid, I’m a regular mortal. I enjoy having Ed Sheeran on the radio just as much as anyone else. Maybe a little more than my father, whose general distaste for Western music really shines through when travelling in the car.
I’m sorry if you were rooting for me. It’s cute how you never give up, though. I admire your perseverance. We’re not that different, you and I. I don’t think there’s any point carrying beef with me, though. We could be a team, we could be heroes. We could be something, which is more than what I can say about my potential love interests and I.
Join the cynical side, start caring less about your job and only meet the hours, working for someone else. Your life is not your own, welcome to the club. Maybe find someone who brings a spark momentarily, and get used to them for a brief period of time. Grow them out like a pair of great jeans you should’ve exercised for, but life and procrastination just got the better of you, and attach your whole sense of purpose to a habit that may or may not be good for you.
Sounds like the perfect weekend plan, if you ask me.
Cupid has a heart
He bears expectations
I read in the papers
His alleged conversations,
And words by his haters
Repeat after me, mistakes are memories and memories bring back memories bring back you.