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the_problem_with_stardust - multi-fandom writing pre-2021 (I also comment/bookmark from here lol)

meshurkaan - writing post-2024, just star wars

All of my works are archive locked, but I am happy to send AO3 invites if you want to make an account!

And my writing sideblog is @meshurkaan

Guide to WIP tags (in progress long fics):

Current wip tag - 🔒ESU (tcw fix-it)

Other wip tag - ladder to the stars (codywan)

New wip tag - specular reflections (landoluke)

I’m percolating an idea - untitled5 (crosshunt)

This city’s burning wip tag - (fox/mace)

Secret wip - between two oceans (maycross)

Galaxy’s messiest love triangle - secret 🤫

dark sun’s on the rise - nebulous kalzeb idea

graveyard boots - tech lives/ pirate AU

turn dust into gold - spartacus fic lol

hockey AU - self explanatory

mercenary AU - tbb alt season 2/3

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finally some relatable content on ig

[thefriendlypigeon]

❤️💙💛GRACEFUL💛💙❤️

⭐[my social media links]

[technofinch]

I have GOT to stop spending $30

[yourlovelydae-art]

today's silly doodle: my second favorite lil guy (Original Meme Here)

[davetheoriginalsoup]

Doing what they do best🤓

[subaru-copilot]

it gets to a point that is just weirder if they didn't fuck

[charl0ttan]

something about sea arches tbh

[charl0ttan]

i want to believe that your beautiful language means anything more than that ruin comes for us all

[tsaescii]

how it feels spending money on something i wanted

[noelledeltarune]

before pride month ends does anyone wanna admit they have a crush on me

[noelledeltarune]

posting this on the first day of june so you all have plenty of time to gather your nerves and whatnot

[escuerzoresucitado]

[myfinalmessagefatdudesequalshot]

that is the most beautiful airfryer i have ever seen

[myfinalmessagefatdudesequalshot]

found it! bruno smart air fryer in mint green BZK-KZ02TW-GR

[masklayer]

Theirs a horse in the pingles

[sqoiler]

After a lot of begging and pleading, Hayden manages to convince Shane to go shopping with him. 

Shopping isn’t number one or even number twenty seven on the list of things Hayden wants to do, especially on a roadie, and especially in Boston, but it’s his anniversary coming up, and Hayden wants to get a nice present for Jackie. And it’s hard to sneak away to buy something when he’s home. So the early arrival in Boston, with no hockey requirements until tomorrow, presents a good opportunity. 

“Can’t you just buy something online?” Shane asks. They’re standing outside the hotel, waiting for their ride to the shopping center. It’s kind of cold, Boston unaware that it’s late April, and Shane’s hands are shoved in his pockets, while Hayden’s are tucked under his armpits. They should’ve waited in the lobby, but Hayden didn’t want to bump into any of the guys. A group of them are going out tonight. Hayden doesn’t want them to ask where he and Shane are going instead. Arguably buying a present for your wife is the straightest thing you can do, but some of their teammates would probably say something different.

“I don’t have a ton of ideas,” Hayden admits. “Looking around in person is easier.”

“If you say so,” Shane says. “I don’t know anything about this.”

“Don’t you buy things for your anniversary with Lily?” Hayden asks. Shane stares out at the road. 

“If I were dating anyone,” Shane says. “Which I’m not, but if I were, we probably haven’t been dating long enough for any anniversaries.” 

“Bro,” Hayden says. “Even if you haven’t been official with this guy, you’ve been texting for many years. You haven’t done any anniversaries?” Shane shrugs. 

“Is that the car?” he asks, pointing. Hayden glances at his phone screen, then at the black Toyota Camry that’s pulling up to their hotel. The license plate on the front of the car matches the one listed on Hayden’s app. 

“Yes,” Hayden says, and after confirming with the driver they get into the car, Shane behind the driver and Hayden behind the empty passenger seat. The drive isn’t long. Hayden picked out a nearby shopping center, with a jewelry store and a couple clothing stores. He isn’t going to haul Shane through the clothing stores, because Hayden can’t even manage clothes shopping, but if he’s desperate after the jewelry store he’ll do a lap. 

Hopefully the jewelry store will work. Hayden remembers Jackie saying she needs some new earrings, so if he can just find something she’ll like, they can go back to the hotel before dinner. 

The driver drops them off and Hayden leads the way inside. It’s a local place, but it looks basically like any other jewelry store Hayden’s ever been to: warm white lighting and soft carpet, low glass cases snaking around the room, crammed full of sparkly stuff. Shane looks around, eyes wide, and Hayden wonders if Shane’s literally ever been in a jewelry store before. The store is empty except for a girl behind the counter, inspecting a ring through a magnifying glass. A bell chimes as they walk in, and the girl looks up from her work.

“Hi, welcome in,” she calls. “Are you looking for anything in particular, or just browsing?”

“Just browsing for now,” Hayden says. 

“Alright! My name is Maddie if you need any help,” she says. Hayden shoots her a thumbs up and she turns back to whatever she was doing before.

“I’m thinking earrings,” Hayden tells Shane in a low voice. Shane nods. Hayden leads the way through the store, scanning the cases. Diamond earrings, maybe? Or would she prefer color? Red or blue for the Metros, or maybe her birthstone? These kind of things make Hayden want to pull his hair out. “Let me know if you see anything Jackie would like.”

“Okay,” Shane says. He still looks a little uncomfortable. Hayden owes him a million drinks or something for going with him, and also agreeing to take anything they buy back in his suitcase so that Jackie won’t see anything in Hayden’s bag. 

A display of red jewelry catches Hayden’s eye, and he stops to look. Shane wanders slightly away to inspect a display of pearls. 

The door chimes. 

Hayden does, sometimes, usually in Montreal, get recognized. Shane does too, more than Hayden does. Hayden doesn’t think they’ll get recognized in a jewelry store in Boston, but you never know, so he kind of looks over his shoulder to see who it is, just in case it’s a guy in a Raiders jersey or something.

It’s not a guy in a Raiders jersey. 

It’s so much worse. 

“Rozanov?” Hayden croaks. Shane shoots up from the display case like he’s been shot, whirling around. Rozanov’s eyes widen, then he grins. 

“Hollander and Pike? What are you doing here?” 

“What does it look like?” Hayden asks. “What are you doing here?”

“Same as you, probably,” Rozanov says. He shrugs, sliding toward a display case that’s closer to Maddie than Hayden and Shane. “Shopping.”

“Right,” Hayden says. Rozanov looks down at the case beside him. Hayden watches him for about a second, then turns back to the rubies. Who is he kidding. Jackie never wears red. 

Shane’s fist is clenched. If he’s so worked up about shopping in the same store as Rozanov, they can go find another store, but honestly Rozanov being here is kind of an endorsement of the place, right? Rozanov is rich, and local, so this must be a pretty nice store. 

“Rozanov,” Shane says. Hayden braces himself for a fight. “Are you ring shopping?” His voice sounds strangled. 

As a rule, Hayden tries to keep up with the news on hockey players. Maybe not every single tabloid rumor, but it’s good to know what’s being said about who, and especially if anybody ends up on the actual news, it’s always smart to be aware. Hayden’s pretty sure if Rozanov was rings-serious with a girl, he would have at least heard of him having a girlfriend. 

Then again, he hasn’t heard of Rozanov being seen with anyone in clubs or bars for…a while. So maybe he does have someone, and he’s just keeping it lowkey. 

“Rings? Hollander, you always are jumping to conclusions,” Rozanov says, rolling his eyes. Though Hayden can clearly see that Rozanov is standing in the men’s jewelry section, the rings right by his hip.

“So what are you doing, then?” Shane asks. “Who are you shopping for?”

“Can I not be shopping for myself?” Rozanov asks. “Who are you shopping for?”

Shane gestures to Hayden. “Jackie.”

“My wife,” Hayden clarifies. “For our anniversary.”

He wonders if Rozanov, too, will make fun of him for shopping for his wife. Instead, Rozanov fixes them with an almost dreamy look. 

“It is almost my beloved’s birthday,” he confesses. “I am looking for something for her.”

“You have a girlfriend?” Hayden asks. 

“Yes,” Rozanov says. “My beautiful Jane. I do not know what she would like, but I thought the jewelry store would give me ideas. Maybe a necklace?”

Oh. That’s kind of sweet. Hayden certainly didn’t know what kinds of things to get Jackie back when she was his girlfriend.

“You want to get Jane a necklace?” Shane asks. Rozanov looks at him and shrugs. 

“Maybe,” he says. “As I said, I do not know. I thought maybe she would want something with my number on it.” He waggles his eyebrows at them. Shane turns bright red. 

“Jackie has one of those,” Hayden says. “It’s like, a big sparkly 35. She wears it to games.”

Rozanov lights up. 

“Yes, maybe my Jane wants a big 81 around her neck,” he says. He makes a square with his fingers, approximately the size of a playing card. Jackie’s is smaller, like a nickel or something. Hayden can just imagine Ilya Rozanov’s WAG showing up to a game with a giant, stupid expensive 81 around her neck. “Pure gold, made of diamonds.”

“Or maybe not,” Shane says. 

Hayden wonders if Shane’s ever sad that Lily, whoever he is, can’t come to games all decked out in Hollander gear. Or maybe he does come to games. Lots of dudes come in a #24 jersey. Nobody would see a random guy wearing a Shane Hollander jersey to the game and assume he was fucking the captain. 

“Maybe I get it carved,” Rozanov says. “On a pendant. Do you do carvings?”

“Engravings,” Shane corrects.

“Yes, we do! It might take about a week, though,” Maddie says. “We have some blank pendants over here, if you want to check them out.”

“Ah, okay,” Rozanov says. He follows her over to the other section. Hayden rolls his eyes and looks for something green. Jackie’s eyes are green. Maybe he can find some earrings that match.

“Is jewelry really the gift? For partners?” Shane asks. 

“Jackie likes it,” Hayden says. He squats down by a case of emeralds to see better. “But there are lots of gifts to get people.” 

“Oh,” Shane says. “Okay. I don’t want to mess anything up. If there ever was an anniversary. Which there wouldn’t be.”

“Right, because you aren’t dating anyone,” Hayden dutifully recites. 

“Right,” Shane says. 

“See anything you like?” Maddie asks. 

“These are lovely, but I do not know if my Jane would like any of them,” Rozanov says. 

“Well,” Maddie says. “You could check out her birthstone, see if any of those necklaces catch your attention. Especially since it’s a birthday gift.”

“Sure,” Rozanov says. “What is May birthstone?”

“Emerald,” Maddie says. “Which are right over here, by your friend.”

“Not my friend,” Rozanov says. Hayden stands up as he approaches. 

“Hey, uh, Maddie, could I get a closer look at these earrings?” he asks. 

“Of course!” Maddie says. She unlocks the case and pulls out the earrings in question. Rozanov bends over to look at the emerald jewelry. 

“What do you think, Hollander? Any of this good for Jane?”

“Does Jane even like jewelry?” Shane asks. Rozanov shrugs. 

“I have never seen her wear any,” he says. “But I don’t think she has any, either. Maybe she would like a necklace if she had one.”

Hayden tries to imagine a girl who never wears any jewelry at all. Sure, they exist, but he has a hard time imagining that kind of girl going for Ilya Rozanov. Or Ilya Rozanov going for her.

“I guess,” Shane says. 

“Shane, buddy, do you think these match Jackie’s eyes?” Hayden asks. Shane comes over. 

“I don’t really know what color Jackie’s eyes are,” he says. “I guess, maybe.”

“Matching the gems to her eyes is actually kind of romantic, Pike,” Rozanov says. “Maybe you are not totally and completely hopeless. Just hopeless at hockey.”

“Man, fuck you,” Hayden says. He opens his phone and holds it up next to the earrings, looking between his lockscreen picture of Jackie and the earrings next to him. 

It’s just a grainy picture on a screen, but Hayden thinks they look good together. 

“Maybe I should get Jane some chocolate,” Rozanov says. “That would match her eyes.”

“We actually have some chocolate opal pieces,” Maddie says. “If you want to look.” 

“Maddie, you are an angel,” Rozanov says. “Take me to them.”

“Don’t you think Jane would rather have something that matches your eyes?” Shane asks. He’s not looking at anyone in particular. Hayden isn’t sure if he’s pissed off that they’ve been cordial to Rozanov for so long, or if he’s embarrassed to have an opinion about this at all. “So that every time she sees it, she would think of you? There are lots of blue gems…aquamarine, tanzanite, blue diamond…” He trails off, his cheeks going red. 

Nobody says anything.

“Sapphires are also blue,” Maddie offers.

“They’re too dark,” Shane says. “Um, not that I know what color Rozanov’s eyes are.” He looks away quickly. Rozanov is beaming. 

“Dude, I didn’t know you knew anything about gems,” Hayden says. 

“I really, really, don’t,” Shane says. “Hayd, those earrings are great. I think Jackie will love them. Can we go?”

“Sure,” Hayden says, kind of surprised. 

Maddie rings him up. 

“Uh, see you tomorrow, Rozanov,” Hayden says. “I hope you find something for Jane.”

“Oh, I think I will,” Rozanov says from his spot by the aquamarines. “I hope Jackie doesn’t get too embarrassed when she sees the score tomorrow.”

“I hope Jane doesn’t get too embarrassed about the score,” Hayden shoots back. 

“I’m sure Jane will be very happy when we win tomorrow,” Shane says. Hayden has got to help Shane with his chirping. 

“In your dreams, Hollander,” Rozanov says. 

“In your dreams,” Shane says. “The way you guys were shooting in that game against the Puffins last week was criminal.”

“Aww, you were watching,” Rozanov says, pretending to fawn. “I never knew I had such a fan.” 

“You’re all set!” Maddie says, and Hayden grabs Shane by the hoodie to drag him out before they start an all out brawl in the middle of the jewelry store. 

“Well, we lasted a whole ten minutes before fighting with Rozanov,” Hayden says as Shane furiously texts next to him while they wait for the uber. “That’s got to be some kind of record.”

Shane doesn’t respond. Hayden grabs at his phone. 

“Hey!”

They tussle over the phone; Hayden sees a flash of the screen before giving up. It's a text to Lily, and it says: DO NOT buy me necklaces for my birthday asshole!!!

Oh yeah, Shane’s birthday is coming up. It never occurred to Hayden before what gay guys get each other for their birthdays. Not necklaces, apparently. 

Back at the hotel, Hayden relinquishes the earrings over to Shane. 

“You just bring them over next time we have dinner, and then I’ll hide them at home,” Hayden says. 

“Sounds good,” Shane says. He finishes tucking the box into his duffel, then stands up. He glances at his phone. “Alright, I’m gonna head out.”

“What!” 

Shane levels him with a look. Oh yeah. Boston. 

“Right,” Hayden says. “See you tomorrow, then. Have fun with your boyfriend who doesn’t exist.”

“I will,” Shane says innocently. He has a tiny little overnight bag in his duffel, and he takes it with him. Hayden stares at the closed door, and then flops back on his bed, already dialing Jackie.

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[bidet-of-evil]

there are two wolves inside me. one wants to write and the other wants to nap. they’re both in a cage called My Job.

[dumnslut]

[depsidase]

[dailycatsblog]

[woolandflax]

Mewseum

[justabigoldnerd]

I SAW "PROJECT HAIL MARY" WITH THE DIRECTORS' COMMENTARY AND HERE'S WHAT I WROTE DOWN

The voice of the Hail Mary was recorded live on set with Ryan so they could react to each other in real time!!

Ryan was so nervous and intimidated by the kids in Grace's class (who were played by children of the cast and crew 🥹)

The dots of astrophage Grace shows his class??? That was done by filming burning steeling wool, inverting it, then PUTTING IT IN BLACK AND WHITE

Ryan didn't know what was going to be in Yáo and Ilyukhina's bags, and they were real photos of the actors. He was told to "remember who these people are" and a lot of the emotions we see from him in that scene were real 🥹

The walk outside the classroom was one of the first scene Sandra and Ryan shot together. Sandra whispered "You wanna race to the bike?" And they DID and they KEPT THE SHOT which is why they're doing that hysterical little speedwalk I- ajdgsjshsj

They purposely emphasized reflections to reflect the themes of the movie. They loved glass, they loved light, they loved reflections.

They called the hardware store "off brand homedepot" LMAO

When talking about the shopping trip they said they wanted to show that "Playfulness and creativity are intertwined" 🥹

Grace's goggles that he uses to find the astrophage in the box in a box are literally made from an iPhone duct taped into makeshift goggles. And the infrared footage of him finding the four dots was actually shot ON an iphone!!!

There's a bright orange sticker that reads "CIVILIAN" on the back of Grace's flight helmet and the directors don't know if thats something they actually do but they found it hilarious

When Grace is shoved in front of the room full of world leaders to explain the astrophage, they said, "One of the many times we demonstate Ryland Grace's social anxiety by having people stare at him" ajdgsjdgsjjs

There was a team called "The Poetry Unit" who's job was just getting beautiful shots. And goddamn did they do a beautiful job. Also I've been talking nonstop about the inherent poetry of space travel since Artemis II launched and this just solidified it for me.

Talking about Daniel Pemberton's masterful soundtrack, they said, "He would not be alone in the soundtrack. In fact, two different planets would be rooting him on." 😭

THAT SCENE ON THE BEACH IN THE DONT GO CRAZY ROOM WHERE SOMEONE IS WALKING TOWARDS HIM??? THATS HIS FUTURE SELF ON ERID. (They also said "we dont know how they let us keep this in the movie" which is very funny but im very glad its there)

The scene where he catches the canister took ELEVEN takes for him to actually successfully catch it and everyone on set cheered

They call song that plays (or maybe they're were referring to the scene? A little unclear) when Rocky's ship starts spinning "The Gravity Tango" because "as Rocky spins his ship, its an invitation to dance."

They had 3 ramen ship models on set and every single one broke at some point 😆

Some of Ryan's reactions to Rocky copying his dances are his live reactions of being "absolutely delighted" by the puppet team

Rocky is 200 years old!!

The "Close Encounters" joke was pitched by STEPHEN SPIELBERG HIMSELF

Rocky's carved patch has the petrova line, as well as the base line six number for 23, the number of crew on his ship

The overlapping blue circles on Rocky's arm is his wedding band!!

When Rocky puts his forearms together, he's displaying his family crest!

Rocky has a lot of nonverbal communication cues, and one of them is that every time he says "Question" to form a question, he stomps twice!

They had a deaf consultant for Rocky's nonverbal communications!

Quote from one of the directors: "Its a movie about looking, witnessing one another."

In the scene where Rocky is bossing Grace around telling him how to build his enclosure and Armando and Mary get involved, one of the directors says, "Mary, Rocky, Armando- he's [Grace] creating his space family!"

When Stratt sings "Remember everything will be alright" it is confirmed she is singing it directly to Grace. They talk alot about how much she cares and loves but cannot care and cannot love, and how much she believes in him. How much she sees in him. I just. Man. Wow. They also say that this scene is a bit of an exchange. Grace is daring her, "Come, be human with us." And Stratt is accepting that dare, as much as she can.

I have seen this film three times (counting today) and until the directors' commentary pointed it out, I didn't notice the little HEEL CLICK Grace does when he comes in from collecting the astrophage coming from and going to Adrian AHHHH

"I love how on the spectrum Rocky is" CANON AUTISTIC ROCKY also the director who said this is a parent of a child on the spectrum which makes this all the more authentic and heartwarming 🥹

A lot of the scene where its revealed to Grace that he is the back up is improvised by everyone at the table

After Rocky saves Grace. The little model of himself that Rocky made that he holds up. The little item he holds up beside it? Thats a model of the device that opens the orb that caught the Taumeoba. Its Rocky telling Grace to finish the job. I'm in tears.

"As Rocky wakes up, the lights turn on, the movie warms up. Its like day breaking." 😭😭😭

They built the flexible panel on Rocky's ball MAINLY so Grace could give him the Earth ball akdhjshd

THE RAINBOW WHEN GRACE IS GETTING SEDATED IS REAL IT HAPPENED WHEN THEY WERE FILMING THAT SCENE IT APPEARED IN THE SKY JUST WHEN THEY WERE FILMING AND THEY HURRIED TO CATCH IT IT WAS JUST TOO PERFECT

"Even though he's going away from his home, Earth, he's going towards his real home, which is Rocky." HIS REAL HOME IS ROCKY Y'ALL MY HEART

When Grace and Rocky reunite on Rocky's hull, the translation of what Rocky chirps at him through the transparent xenonite is "You came back for me, question?" 😭😭😭

The tattoo Stratt has at the end means Life In Prison Without Parole

The beach in the Earth Dome on Erid is so rocky because the Eridians got the scale of sand wrong 😭 They're TRYING OKAY

About all the imperfections of Grace's habitat: "Really, all that matters is that he's with his best friend." 🥹🥹🥹

The song choice for the end credits, the "Hallelujah", is because Grace has ascended 😭😭😭😭

THEY REPLACED THE MGM LIONS ROAR WITH ROCKY'S CHIRPS FOR "AMAZE AMAZE" AWWWWWW

[takofukkatsumi]

Op, I just remembered I promised to check, so I did and

Yeah

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