So, I've been gone and during that time, I've been dragged through hell. Some good things have happened. I had surgery on my eyes that has restored a good degree of my vison. I'm reading books and having far less migraines. Light doesn't hurt as much as it did.
Other than that, the dog that is in my page banner. She is my very very good girl, and she has unfortunately passed away in September. she was 14 years old. I've had her since I was 10 and she was my best friend. I didn't know that I could have such a deep connection with an animal. I had a human level deep connection with her. She is the reason I am alive and helped me through many hard times.
the other reason, is one I've only talked about a little bit and would like to talk about more. I've had an internet stalker on a lot of my socials. somehow, he found my Tumblr as well. so, I haven't talked about it because he's reading it. I'm going through legal actions with him. The biggest of reasons I've been unsure about talking about it is because he is Trans. the times, I've talked about it on other platforms hordes of assholes have come up to talk shit about trans people. He is a incredibly mentally unstable and disturbed person. but he not that way because he is trans. So, I didn't want people to use to as ammunition against the trans community, especially with the current climate in the U.S
I've just been extremely stressed and depressed. I have had no motivation to write. my creativity has been low.
Hopefully with therapy and depending on how my court cases go, I may be back to write again. but I'm taking a break. Just want everyone to know that I am alive.
Thank you everyone who liked my stories. I've wanted to write for so long, but I never thought I was good enough to post on Archive of our own. Writing my little fanfictions gave me a confidence boost in my abilities and I hope one day to write my own novel.
Please stay safe out there. There are truly some evil people out there. I'm sure many of you already know that and have experienced it. But they can hurt you from online in ways the law doesn't know how to fight or that others don't take seriously till they escalate into your physical space.
Rose gripped the wood of the table in front of her. Staring straight ahead to the blurry nothing ness of their kitchen. Lester paced back and forth from the table in a huff.
"Come on, you stop that right now Cher. Tears aren't going to change this. You know what you are suppose to do with this" Lester said
"it won't work" Rose said softly
"you don't fucking know that, and you ain't even willing to try?"Lester exclaimed in both anger and exhaustion.
"you know why" Rose said softly. fingers digging into splintering wood of the table.
"No, I fucking don't. but you sweetheart. So lay it out for me. why are you against this" he asked, trying desperately to understand her. wanting to hear one god damn explanation that didn't sound like bullshit.
"Don't you wanna see again. See things clearly. at the very least be able to read a book and not get a migraine or have me read to you? don't you want to never pick up another god damn Braille book again?" Lester asked
"It's far, we'd have to travel across the country, I'd have to take time of work, you would too because I won't be able to take care of myself. "she said head turning towards him a bit.
"I'll drive you anywhere you want to go, I don't care how far, or how long it will take. Hell, I'll steal Bo's truck to give you a more comfortable drive if you want" He said which made her snort a little bit dismissively
"that wouldn't be worth the fit he'd throw" she said
"it be worth any punch or shit talk Bo's got in him and believe me. I've seen the worse Cher. and don't start telling me it cost to much. I've got savings and your insurance is willing to pay for it. " Lester said, before she could even open her mouth
"your brothers are against it" she pointed out
" fuck em both then" Lester spat which made her jerk up at that
"no, Don't say that. Not for this.Not for me" Rose said so softly
Bo's against it because of how long and how far we'd have to travel. Vinny against it because he's afraid of what you'll think of him when you see him clearly and because he don't trust doctors. They both'll fucking get over it. "Lester said looking her dead in the eye. chest puffed out like he was ready to fight God himself.
"you's upset about this too" Rose pointed out
"No cher, I'm not upset. I'm angry. I am smack dab pissed off because I know you are to God damn stubborn to take anything from the pain. Even though its been how many years? "Lester said smacking the table hard making her jump a bit
" Seven" Rose said softly
"that's right, seven whole years sober and you still wouldn't take anything for it would you" Lester all but sneered
"I won't be addict again Les... don't put me in that position. Don't ask that of me" She said hands trembling a bit.
Seeing that, Lester backed off just a bit. Took a long deep breath and slowly let it out.
"it will hurt, it's gonna hurt bad Les, and all for something that we don't even know will work. that has like a 40 percent chance of working. that probably won't even been permanent. Might give me 10 years of sight before it fades again. "Rose said and the tears were threatening to come again.
"think of all that you could do with 10 years sweetheart. All the books you could read, all the shows you could see, all the sunrises we could watch even if they are in black n white. Hell, our Childrens faces' Rose. you could see them for yourself. Yeah it's gonna hurt, you are to damn stubborn to let it be anything but pain, but if it does work. Think of what it could give us!" Lester said taking her hand in his. His were sweaty and she was shaking.
"I don't get my hopes up Les, or yours. " her voice trembled. tears rolled down her cheeks
"don't leave it up to hope Rosie, give it to faith. Have faith in me that I can get us there and get you through the surgery. we'll be alright." he told her gently
"you'd do that for me? "she asked him
"Honey Suckle I'd give you my own eyes, my teeth and my balls if it would make ya happy. And doing this, having that back. It'd make ya happy. "he told her making her snort just a bit
"...okay.. okay I'll do it Les. We'll do it" she said so softly he almost didn't hear her, but he did. So he pulled her into his arms and let her shake like a leaf. At least she was going to try and take leap of faith.
If I had a nickel for every time that I've been mistaken for an Asian woman, I would have 20 cents. Which isn't a lot but it's weird that it's happen 4 times.
This is from my old head cannons about Lester being in the military because I thought his necklace was dog tags. Some people want to read these so here it is.
Lester likes to kiss his SO awake ever morning. He's a morning person. He's up before the sun is. He's awake with in 5 minutes of opening his eyes. His girl how ever. Not so much. She needs at least an hour after she opens her eyes before she's ready to talk to people. To start the morning off right. Lester kisses her lips gently a few times ever morning until she wakes up.
Well one rare morning on a Saturday. She wakes up before Lester. Poor Lester hurt his back at work, took a alive pm and hit the hay. She decides to try and kiss him awake like he does her. She leans over to put a gentle kiss on his lips. Suddenly her face is grabbed and a fist almost makes contact with her face. Lester takes a deep breath when he realizes what just happened and stopped himself.
She's looking at him with wide, and shocked eyes. Lester backs off as fast as he can
"Sorry sugar, reflex. Just saw someone coming for my face" Lester tells her after taking a few deep breaths.
They talk about it afterwards. She decides not to do that again. Lester would never hit her out of anger but you can't sneak up on a man like that.
I have so many Lester head cannons that will never see the light of day because I wrote them thinking that Lester was in the military. They are living in my google docs though and I keep coming across them.
I thought Lester was in the military because I thought the necklace, he wears were military dog tags. Someone had to explain to me on here, that they were in fact not.
Maybe I will, I had so many stories and prospect of Lester built around that thought. Like I had this whole head cannon story thing that Lester joined the Military to get away from the family and the town. He didn't see combat. He was honorably discharged. He thought for a little while about using the GI bill to go to school or a trade school or something. Then Bo called him when he got out and told him, that they needed him. Maybe cause their ma was dying. Maybe because their dad killed himself. Who knows. Something brought Lester back to be there with his brothers.
I have so many Lester head cannons that will never see the light of day because I wrote them thinking that Lester was in the military. They are living in my google docs though and I keep coming across them.
I thought Lester was in the military because I thought the necklace, he wears were military dog tags. Someone had to explain to me on here, that they were in fact not.
Hi love your work how about a wedding day or a proposal with Bo please ❤
Thank you, I'm glad you like it. I think I can give it a shot.
Bo Sinclair proposal
Bo was not the most romantic man on the face of the planet. He's well aware of this. He's a charmer yes, but romance was a different story. He did nice things for you of course. Took you out on dates ever now and then when he came into a little money. Bought you nice dresses. Tried not to be an asshole all that much. It wasn't that hard to see that the man was in love with you. And he showed it in his own way.
This however was not something Bo ever thought he would be doing. He looked down at the black velvet box in his hand that he just purchased. He had been thinking for months now about marrying you. Calling you his little woman. He just never thought he actually do it.
Then one night while out for a drive around Ambrose. A song came on the radio called "till you can't". There was a line in the song that he couldn't get out of his head that said
"you can keep putting off forever with that girl who's heart you hold. Swearing that you'll ask some day, further down the road. You can always put a diamond on her hand, till you can't. If you got a chance take it. Take it while you got the chance. if you got a dream chase it. if you're gonna love somebody, hold on as long and as strong and as close as you can"
Bo knew better then most how quickly life can end. You could be on your way down some old dirt road and then boom, your a wax figure in a museum for all you know. No body knows when the end is coming and for Bo, that could be soon with how much he smokes and drinks. He knew one thing though. He wanted to call you 'his' before he went anywhere. Mrs. Sinclair had a nice ring to it.
Bo just didn't know how to ask. He couldn't imagine doing some big goofy proposal. He couldn't imagine pouring his heart out into a sappy speech to give. He wanted to be himself when he asked. Not some love drunk idiot. So, the day came on just an ordinary day.
Bo took a shower, put on some good blue jeans without any holes in them. Put on a white t-shirt and his boots, then wondered off to find his little woman. He found you in the kitchen and just stood there for a moment watching you tidy up. He could imagine you in a wedding dress, walking down the rows of seats, looking like an angel. He took a deep breath and let it out silently
"hey Cher, clean that later will ya?" Bo said causally leaning up against the door frame
"why? you need something sugar?"you asked him, putting the wash cloth down
"gotta run into town to get some groceries. Figured you want to come with me" Bo said with a shrug
"sure let me get my sunglasses and well go" you said running off to get them.
Bo let out a breath he didn't know he was holding in. His hands were a bit shaky which he wasn't used to. But he couldn't let any of that show. Couldn't tip you off to nothing.
You came back and off you two went. Spending most of the afternoon together. Getting groceries, gas, and stopping by a bait shop for Lester. The sun was betting down and Bo was thankful for that. Any sweating he was doing could be blamed on the heat.
on the drive back, you were fiddling with the radio to get past the static. Both of you had shakes from a fast food place to try and beat the heat. Bo took you down a dirt road and flipped on his hazard lights when he got close to where he wanted. The spot where he met you in the first place
"you feel that? feels like one of the tires is getting flat" Bo said
"I don't feel anything?" you said looking at him
"I'm gonna check it just to be sure" Bo said pulling off to the side of the road. Bo got out of the truck cause it was now or never.
"get in the glove box there baby girl and hand me the tire pressure gauge" Bo instructed.
You put your shake down in the cup holder and unbuckled yourself. Leaning over you got the glove box open and dug out the pencil shaped tool for this. Placed on that gauge was a small diamond ring. You stopped and stared at it for a long moment. mind going blank
"Bo?" you said taking the ring off. He glanced down to make sure you found what he had set up.
"you know we met here on this road. if you had taken any other road, you would have driven right past Ambrose and we would have missed each other completely. I knew the second I laid eyes on you, you was specially. Knew I just had to keep ya. And I was right. So cher, you wanna make it official? ya wanna marry me?" Bo asked looking at you.
To say Bo surprised you was an understatement. He was playing it cool on the outside but on the inside, his knees were shaking like jelly. once you found your voice you nodded as fast as you could
"yes! yes of course I wanna marry you!" you said getting out of the truck and over to him quickly. Bo put that ring on your finger gently with a small crooked smile on his lips and a lot of love in his eyes.
"how did you even know my size. I don't even know my size" you said after throwing yourself into his arms. Bo held you close and picked you up off the ground to spend you around for a moment
"Vinny took measurements while you were sleeping" he said with a chuckle
"y'all all were in on this?"she asked
"you think if I told Lester he could keep this to himself? nah, he's gonna be as surprised as you are" Bo said with a big smile now. If there was one thing Bo was sure about. It was this
It's actually pretty easy to avoid tripping over things even when your blind. You just learn to walk more cautiously in places where you don't know the lay out and adjust if your foot feels the terrain get different.
Y'all are still more then welcome to send asks. I want to write, I really do. It's just been hard to and I'm hoping to find some inspiration. So Asks are very much encouraged. It might help me get out of my slump
Just love to imagine Bo being like to me "wow, she really can't see, and she really got into a truck with a stranger who offered her a ride. It's like God just handed me a new wax figure for Vincent"
No warnings. Just a random idea about Bo asking Lester Blind SO what's the worst thing about dating a sighted person.
Bo: I got a question for ya
Rose: Okay?
Bo: I know you love Lester in all, but is it strange being with someone who can see when you can't?
Rose: No, not strange, I use to be able to see so I know what Lester is talking about when he describes something to me. It can be annoying though.
Bo, getting his back up a bit because he doesn't like even the suggestion that someone is annoyed with his brothers: what's so annoying about it? : what's so annoying about it?
Rose: moments when Lester forgets that I can't see so he points at something and says " Hey look at that"
Bo lets out a loud snort at that because yeah, that sounds like his little brother alright.
Okay here me out. this could be nsfw or not request, depending on how you feel. Slashers getting jealous because there SO is simping over a movie Slasher. for example, like Lester's SO watching a Friday the 13th movie and saying something like "man I'd climb that man like a tree". for like the Sinclair's, Jason, Thomas, Ghost face. It's just an idea
Aww will do! I don't write for Ghostface as of right now but I did the others :) Some of them are shorter than others just depending on who I was inspired for! Hope that's okay :)
Warnings: It's not really nsfw, but it's suggestive at parts. So :o
Slashers | How they'd react to their S/O simping over another slasher in a movie
Thomas Hewitt:
Thomas would give you such a shocked look when you said something like that over someone in a movie. It wouldn't really matter who it was, he'd just kind of stare at you for a second in disbelief
Not that he's judging. But he would like it if such words were generally reserved for him. Yes that includes things like 'I'd like to climb him like a tree' :) (especially things like I'd like to climb him like a tree)
Most likely to be genuinely jealous for that reason. He wouldn't say anything right away but just gets kind of moody later. You'd know exactly why, and for that reason, would know exactly what sorts of things to say to cheer him up lol
Jason Voorhees:
Jason would love curling up with you and watching movies together like that. Wholesome activity :^)
Until you start having interesting things to say about the slasher in the movie. If you usually made comments/jokes like that he wouldn't really have much of a reaction (besides just shaking his head jokingly lol)
But if you didn't he'd honestly be so petty. Like...you don't say stuff like that about him?? Crossed arms, probably just walks off and (playfully) turns the movie off on his way out
Bo Sinclair:
Most likely to agree with you
Also most likely to turn it into something else, depending on what exactly the comments in question were, and what kind of mood he was in. Sometimes he'd just kind of roll his eyes playfully and ignore it
If you said something more suggestive though he'd just cock his eyebrow and give you a side-eyed look, unsure if he should be jealous or if an opportunity was presenting itself lol
Vincent Sinclair:
Fascinated by your taste in movies. Sitting there trying to bond with you and get to know you better and then you just say something like that and he's like....oh lmao
His reaction would depend on how serious you sounded when you said it. If you genuinely seemed taken by the slasher at hand he'd be a little petty, although you'd barely be able to tell. Just gives you (lovingly) judging looks and laughs to himself at how descriptive some of your comments were
...Which would later hit him and get him thinking. Did you have such thoughts about him...?
Lester Sinclair:
If you say something along the lines of 'I'd climb that man like a tree' in front of Lester I think you'd just set off a fit of laughter. He'd give you a look of disbelief, wanting to playfully scold you for saying something like that but honestly would just lose it
Every time the slasher in question is on screen he would try (and fail) to hold in his laughter. You would end up more embarrassed than anything else lol
At one point he may have been a little jealous at remarks like that, but once you're both comfortable with each other, he wouldn't mind. If you usually made comments/jokes like that he would get used to it and if you didn't he'd be surprised though not in a bad way
I have no idea if your taking requests at the moment. I couldn't find anything that says you don't so ignore this if you're not doing requests 😅
I was wondering if you could do some angst where Bo Sinclair's S/O is pregnant but she loses the baby like she either has a miscarriage or the baby is still born or maybe she nearly dies while giving birth but then everyone is ok
Idk a lot of pregnancy fic are happy and I'm in a very angsty mood and I just wanna know how Bo would react. Your other pregnancy fics are amazing and I love your writing 💕
Hi, I am open to taken request just fine. No word on how long it would take to get them out though. I've been going through a rough patch with my health and haven't had any desire to write. I know I don't really have any rules up for what I won't write, So don't feel bad about this. My fiancé and I actually had a miscarriage years ago. Because of that, I don't like to personally write things about miscarries or still born babies. It's to painful for me to drag up those old memories because that baby was wanted even though not planned. I will happily take other request you have though and I'm really glad you like my writing.
its good to hear from you! active or not im glad youre about ^^
Thank you. I want to start writing again, But I'm just stuck, and my motivation hasn't been there at all. Hopefully it will come back soon. I do miss writing.
Imagining Lester doing that tiddy grab reach around reblog if you agree
Tbh I'm not even sure what that is. the "reach around" part got me all sorts of confused. Lester is a tiddy grabber though. Imagine Bo being more of an ass grabber personally. And then Vincent just does that shit where he backs you up against a wall and looks into your soul for several minutes before just walking away.
