She-Devil with a Sword

Natalie Johnson is a character that's created in the zombie & survival apocalypse roleplay verse. Natalie is portrayed by Alycia Debnam-Carey, more information on Natalie will be on a separate page. I have been roleplaying for as long as I can remember, it's a place where I can escape from the harsh world we live in. I enjoy writing, character creating, storyline plotting, interacting with other writers and befriending those I roleplay with. My writing style is multi-para to novella.The verses I do are The Walking Dead, Fear the Walking Dead, any zombie and survival apocalypse verses.

[thewarrioroftheapocalypse]

Please give a warm welcome to @hawkeyegrimes , he is new to roleplaying on Tumblr and I am here to help with anything he needs, my instant message is always open if he needs anything and I like to share him around with other roleplayers out there. 

I’m also making a return to Tumblr roleplay hoping to find and start new storylines going with those in The Walking Dead-verse. We’re all here to have fun creating good stories, and I am looking forward to meeting new people. Roleplaying is a great way to communicate with people while having fun and becoming friends with those at the same time. 

Please be kind to each other. Not the best share post I’ve written, I’m very tired after a busy day, but I try.

[alyciadayumcareys]

what a look…never forget…

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[thewarrioroftheapocalypse]

@hawkeyegrimes

Natalie sat near the fire with no change in emotion on her face as she sharpens her sword, she doesn’t know what it’s like to feel like a human, she wasn’t given that life. Natalie’s been surviving from the moment she was born, she was severely abused and tortured by her own parents to being abandoned to an asylum where the most painful barbaric experiments were done on her days on end, she was placed in a cage like an animal. She has never laughed, never smiled, never loved, she’s nothing more than an empty shell, she doesn’t know what it’s like to feel, she wasn’t given that life.

They destroyed that part of her and she still carries that past deep in her skin as they inked her patient asylum number on the outside of her wrist that was scarred with cuts along with her other one, she wouldn’t lie that she did that to herself as the pain helps her forget everything that happened to her. Natalie wore wearing a black leather jacket with a grey tank top underneath, leather trousers with knee-high riding boots in grey suede and some protective body armor like silver medieval shoulder armor, a black grid cutout corset waist belt, faux leather gauntlet medieval bracers around her forearms to prevent any biting from the walkers and black fingerless gloves and a dive knife with leg strap sheath that’s around her thigh, she looked like a warrior.

In an apocalyptic world like this, you always going to need something to protect yourself with the right clothing and weaponry in order to survive. Natalie sat up against a tree log just looking down with no light in her eyes at all, her tanned face stained with both walker and human blood, she feels like a monster than a human since she was never raised like one, she doesn’t feel anything when taking down someone she doesn’t trust or barely knows. Natalie prefers to survive alone, she’s never the best company, she’s always been alone, she’s had no childhood, no happiness, it’s impossible to find that in a world like this.

Natalie set her sword down leaning it against the tree log after sharpening it, she sighed quietly to herself as she warmed herself near the crackling fire, she kept her eyes and ears out of anyone or anything moving within the darkness before it’ll be safe for her to sleep for the rest of the night.

Her eyes were pretty heavy from the exhaustion, she couldn’t really move very well due to how weak she was without any food or water to keep her energy going, she was about to take off the heavy armour that protected her from the dangers so she can rest comfortably. Natalie wanted to try and rebuild her life in a safe community but who and why would anyone take someone like her, she is very misunderstood with a broken heart, she has porcelain skin, so deadly pale and fragile.

  One touch and she could shatter like glass, Natalie couldn’t stop that one tear from falling down her cheek as her emotions have now broken under her, she sighed as she began cleaning off the black paint from her face to show that it’s just a girl behind the mask, a girl who has feelings and yet no one seems to understand.

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Alycia Debnam-Carey photographed by David Mandelberg for InStyle Australia (April 2019)

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365 days of alycia debnam-carey ♡ day 34

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* love ♥ starters

‘ want me to stay? ’

‘ we’re almost home. ’

‘ you should be in bed. ’

‘ we can share it.’

‘ stay there. i’m coming to get you. ’

‘ shh, shh. you were dreaming. ’ 

‘ grab my hand. ’

‘ i’m just going to pick you up. ’

‘ everything okay? ’

‘ i won’t leave you behind. ’

‘ don’t worry. better out than in. ’

‘ who did that to you? ’ 

‘ sit down and rest. ’

‘ sweetie, i would never think that. ’

‘ come lay down in my lap. ’

‘ i know you think you’re all alone out there, but you’re not. ’

‘ call me when you get home. ’

‘ we should change those bandages. ’

‘ you’re safe here. ’

‘ honey… ’

‘ of course we love you. ’

‘ wait here. i’ll go run a bath for you. ’

‘ take my bed for tonight. ’

‘ i promise. ’ 

‘ you’re always welcome here. ’

‘ don’t talk like that. ’

‘ bad dream? ’

‘ talk to me. ’  

‘ it’s okay to cry. ’

‘ you need to be more careful.’

‘ we should hug this out. ’

‘ i worry about you. ’

‘ can i hold your hand? ’ 

‘ because i care about you. ’

‘ it made me think of you. ’ 

‘ take care of yourself. ’

‘ put your seatbelt on. ’ 

‘ where did you go? ’ 

‘ i didn’t mean to worry you. ’

‘ i made breakfast. ’

‘ sing something for me? ’

‘ open it and find out. ’

‘ how long have you been like this? ’

‘ you look nice. ’

‘ here, take my jacket. ’

‘ close your eyes and try to get some rest. ’

‘ focus on my voice. ’ 

‘ i meant every word. ’

‘ i was here all night. ’

‘ look both ways before you cross. ’

‘ you don’t have to talk. ’ 

‘ this is your favorite, right? ’

‘ you’ll feel better in the morning. ’

‘ you have a nice laugh. ’

‘ here, take my jacket. ’

‘ you could stay here. with me. ’

‘ we’ll figure it out together. ’

[thewarrioroftheapocalypse]

“ I am your worst nightmare. I wouldn’t want to be friends with me, why would anyone? I mean, look at me... “ 

[one-eye-grimes-deactivated20210]

He shrugged slightly and looked to her “I used to shoot on sight but our group has been through a lot. I’ve learned to let my guard down at least a little bit.” he said with a slight smile “Also you have nothing to worry about. Alexandria is an open community, we all understand that life is shit and that people deal with things differently. No one is going to try to make you leave unless you try to kill one of ours.” he said staring at the fire. 

He nodded “Of course as long as you don’t try to hurt me while my back is turned I can consider us friends. Also there was a scout who found our group and brought us to Alexandria. Since then my dad’s taken over but it’s still thriving.” He shrugged a bit when she mentioned his eye patch. “It’s pretty gross with out the eye patch to be honest. I was shot in the face by someone I thought was a friend. Granted he wasn’t aiming for me, he was aiming towards my dad but the situation was stressful.” he said still not wanting to blame Ron for what happened to his face. He had lost his entire family and was in shock, then with the walkers on top of everything Carl understood. 

He sighed softly and smiled “I’ve been lucky I guess- my two scars are both bullet wounds and I almost died both times, we were just lucky to have people near by to help.” he admitted thinking back to how he met the Greene family. He smirked hearing her response to the shower “I mean it was kinda a deal breaker for us too- It was wonderful after months with out one. Also I do want you to come back- you’d be a good ally and I know what it’s like out here. There are horrible people and things every where you turn.” he said glancing around making sure that walkers weren’t creeping up. 

He smiled and glanced to her “I think you’ll make a fine impression- I really don’t think you have anything to worry about. My dad will trust my judgement and there are so many people that would really appreciate your being there.” he said honestly “You’re strong and can take care of yourself, we’d probably ask you for help with things around Alexandria once you’re comfortable but I promise everyone will accept you. They’ll respect that you survived on your own for so long, especially for being so young.” he paused “not that being young is a bad thing- it’s just there have been only a handful of kids and teenagers and young adults survive.” he said sadly. 

“Out of the maybe 10 people close to my age only three are alive. Two babies Grace an Judith and then Enid who lives at another community.” he said softly 

[thewarrioroftheapocalypse]

@one-eye-grimes

There was a strange warm fuzzy feeling that entered her entire body after hearing those compliments coming from Carl’s mouth about her being strong and a good ally to everyone at Alexandria, a sensation she has never had in her life since no one has ever been this friendly towards her until she met him, it made her feel really emotional on the inside and a genuine smile stretched across her face, a sparkle shined in her green orbs as she glanced over at him but couldn’t find the words to describe how thankful she truly was towards him, 

“I believe that this is a beginning of a lovely friendship..you are the first friend I’ve made since forever and I promise I’ll be there whenever you need me”

she spoke ever so softly to him with a smile that remained on her lips as her eyes lingered on his face for a little longer and kindly took his hand giving it a gentle squeeze that she means every single word before lowering her gaze back down on the fire and taking her hand away.

That was her first touch without even flinching or any signs of discomfort and she will never do anything to betray his trust or their newly found friendship, she wanted it to last. Natalie really wanted to prove to those who caused her so much pain how wrong they are, she’s never felt more confident about what she wants in her life that she’s determined to rebuild, she’s called herself the Warrior ever since the apocalypse begun and she has easily slaughtered many walkers that came her way with her impressive swordship skills with no hesitation or fear that she refuses to feel, she’s been training as a fighter for as long as she can remember and she’s not afraid of anything, she has never showed any sign of weakness during her time surviving alone.

“It would be really nice to finally be appreciated and respected for once, I want to become someone who’s important and isn’t worthless, I don’t want those to pity me because I’m parentless and what I’ve been through. I want to prove to those who made my life hell how wrong they are and I have put all of the pain and suffering they caused behind me and became someone who’s no longer afraid of anything, I have trained to be a fighter all by myself with no guidance from anyone, I didn’t think I needed people in my life because of what they’ve done to me until I met you, you’ve been nothing but so kind to me, you changed my view on things and you’ve managed to repair the damage that’s been done to my heart. I am so thankful to you, truly..”

she said to Carl with real emotion coming out of her voice as she gazed over at him smiling with her eyes glossed over in tears and she couldn’t stop herself when she went over and gave him a hug, this is her first hug with someone and she’s really glad it’s Carl, “this is my first hug, so I hope you don’t mind..”she laughs as she rests her chin on his shoulder before removing herself from him completely not wanting to make him feel uncomfortable and she hoped that she wasn’t too forward, “I’m just really happy and it’s all down to you for helping me, so thank you..”she told him still smiling away at him, she wanted them to have a special bond, she feels like she can trust him more than anyone and tell him anything, she didn’t want any secrets between them, they’ve been so open towards each other ever since they met a short time ago.

“We can start moving at first light, it’s too dangerous to be going back now and besides..I’m so exhausted” she said to him in a tired voice that was becoming quieter as her eyes began to drop, she was starting to get really tired, she tried to keep her eyes open but she kept nodding off and her grip on her sword loosens as her body decided to shut down from exhaustion and soreness that she’s been trying to hide but her fight with that has been lost and she’s now totally out of it, the only sound that’s heard is the crackling fire and her slow breathing, her chest moving up and down as she slept sitting up.

[one-eye-grimes-deactivated20210]

He gave her a soft smile and nodded “friends are definitely hard to come by in this world, I’m happy to be your friend. I promise when we get to Alexandria there will be more people that want to be your friend as well. We’re all this weird kind of family and it’s nice to have people by your side and watching your back.” he said glancing up to her green eyes with his singular blue orb. 

“You really don’t have to thank me, this is what we do. We have people scouting around for anyone alive and who needs help. We just work better together, and I promise that they will appreciate and respect you.” he said with a smile before frowning slightly seeing that she was crying. 

Before he realized what was happening she was in his arms hugging him. He laughed slightly and then wrapped his arms around her as well “I don’t mind at all Natalie.” he said softly trying to understand being in her situation.

“You don’t need to thank me, I’m just glad that you’ve agreed to come with me. We’re not too far, if we leave in the morning then we’d probably make it there by midday?” he said estimating 

Carl sat down beside her and watched the fire listening to everything around them. It was a silent night with only animal noises and no walkers within ear shot. Carl wanted the other to have a restful sleep and decided that he would stay up as long as possible making sure nothing came to disturb them. 

[thewarrioroftheapocalypse]

@one-eye-grimes

Hearing Carl say that he’s glad that she’s coming with him made her smile, he really is the sweetest and she’s very happy that she’ll be going to Alexandria with him, she beamed at him before nodding her head in agreement, she smiled warmly at him as her eyes lingered on him. “Yes, I’m glad that I’m coming with you too. It’s about time that I got my stubborn head out of my backside and actually do something, I don’t want to be out here anymore, I don’t want to be alone anymore either” she sighed softly biting her lip as a habit of hers when she feels afraid if she’ll be alone when she arrives at Alexandria and how others would treat a damaged and broken girl like her, she only trusts Carl more than anyone, they’ve grown a close bond and she doesn’t want to lose that, she most certainly doesn’t want to lose him, she feels like she has known him forever.

In truth, Natalie was very nervous about sleeping because of the nightmares she has every time she goes to sleep and she didn't want to embarrass herself in front of Carl, sensing him next to her actually made her feel safe from any demons or other monsters and bad people that want to hurt her. She is so exhausted, her sore aching body that's crying in pain and in desperate need of rest as it can't go on any longer, but it was hard to keep her eyes shut as everything inside her mind was making things difficult. Eyes that won't close, a heart that won't stop its beating. 

The dark space is endless in this spaceless prison that she feels trapped in, Natalie wishes to drift away into a never-ending dream, but dreams are only memories in this hell of reality, she simply wishes to sleep without the horrors of her past haunting and tormenting her. 

It was all quiet and calm until suddenly a nightmare invaded Natalie's mind again, they never go away. Her eyes twitched and moved underneath her eyelids as she tried to get a peaceful sleep but it seemed impossible, her breathing quickened, her chest moving up and down in a fast pace when a nightmare began to torture her yet again. Natalie’s muscles tense up as she saw two dark shadow figures of her cruel and abusive parents standing over her doing what they used to do to her when they were alive and even in death, they're still making her life a living hell by beating her while yelling verbal abuse, she began to cry in her sleep, "Get...away from me..." she screamed when a hand came down hard across her face, stinging her cheek and a red mark appeared before her arms were roughly grabbed to prevent her from attacking them back and their nails dug right into her arms causing her to hiss in pain.

"No!..Stay away, you monsters!..you're dead, you can't hurt me or make my life a living hell anymore!..." she thrashed about trying to get away and then her whole vision went black when a pillow was brought down onto her face and they began suffocating her to her death making her screams and cries become muffled as she continued thrashing around and soon found herself on the floor landing quite hard as she fell forwards sobbing hysterically, gasping and coughing like mad to get the air back into her lungs. Natalie's long braided hair fell over her face like a curtain as she sat up with her knees up to her chest severely shaken and traumatized.

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[thewarrioroftheapocalypse]

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Natalie sat near the fire with no change in emotion on her face as she sharpens her sword, she doesn’t know what it’s like to feel like a human, she wasn’t given that life. Natalie’s been surviving from the moment she was born, she was severely abused and tortured by her own parents to being abandoned to an asylum where the most painful barbaric experiments were done on her days on end, she was placed in a cage like an animal. She has never laughed, never smiled, never loved, she’s nothing more than an empty shell, she doesn’t know what it’s like to feel, she wasn’t given that life.

They literally destroyed that part of her and she still carries that past deep in her skin as they inked her patient asylum number on the outside of her wrist that were scarred with cuts along with her other one, she wouldn’t lie that she did that to herself as the pain helps her forget everything that happened to her. Natalie wore wearing a black leather jacket with a grey tank top underneath, leather trousers with knee high riding boots in grey suede and some protective body armor like silver medieval shoulder armor, a black grid cutout corset waist belt, faux leather gauntlet medieval bracers around her forearms to prevent any biting from the walkers and black fingerless gloves and a dive knife with leg strap sheath that’s around her thigh, she looked like a warrior. 

In an apocalyptic world like this, you always going to need something to protect yourself with the right clothing and weaponry in order to survive. Natalie sat up against a tree log just looking down with no light in her eyes at all, her tanned face stained with both walker and human blood, she feels like a monster than a human since she was never raised like one, she doesn’t feel anything when taking down someone she doesn’t trust or barely knows. Natalie prefers to survive alone, she’s never the best company, she’s always been alone, she’s had no childhood, no happiness, it’s impossible to find that in a world like this. Natalie set her sword down leaning it against the tree log after sharpening it, she sighed quietly to herself as she warmed herself near the crackling fire, she kept her eyes and ears out of anyone or anything moving within the darkness before it’ll be safe for her to sleep for the rest of the night. 

Her eyes were pretty heavy from the exhaustion, she couldn’t really move very well due to how weak she was without any food or water to keep her energy going, she was about to take off the heavy armor that protected her from the dangers so she can rest comfortably. Natalie wanted to try and rebuild her life in a safe community but who and why would anyone take someone like her, she is very misunderstood with a broken heart, she has porcelain skin, so deadly pale and fragile.

  One touch and she could shatter like glass, Natalie couldn’t stop that one tear from falling down her cheek as her emotions have now broken under her, she sighed as she began cleaning off the black paint from her face to show that it's just a girl behind the mask, a girl who has feelings and yet no one seems to understand.

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He shrugged slightly and looked to her “I used to shoot on sight but our group has been through a lot. I’ve learned to let my guard down at least a little bit.” he said with a slight smile “Also you have nothing to worry about. Alexandria is an open community, we all understand that life is shit and that people deal with things differently. No one is going to try to make you leave unless you try to kill one of ours.” he said staring at the fire. 

He nodded “Of course as long as you don’t try to hurt me while my back is turned I can consider us friends. Also there was a scout who found our group and brought us to Alexandria. Since then my dad’s taken over but it’s still thriving.” He shrugged a bit when she mentioned his eye patch. “It’s pretty gross with out the eye patch to be honest. I was shot in the face by someone I thought was a friend. Granted he wasn’t aiming for me, he was aiming towards my dad but the situation was stressful.” he said still not wanting to blame Ron for what happened to his face. He had lost his entire family and was in shock, then with the walkers on top of everything Carl understood. 

He sighed softly and smiled “I’ve been lucky I guess- my two scars are both bullet wounds and I almost died both times, we were just lucky to have people near by to help.” he admitted thinking back to how he met the Greene family. He smirked hearing her response to the shower “I mean it was kinda a deal breaker for us too- It was wonderful after months with out one. Also I do want you to come back- you’d be a good ally and I know what it’s like out here. There are horrible people and things every where you turn.” he said glancing around making sure that walkers weren’t creeping up. 

He smiled and glanced to her “I think you’ll make a fine impression- I really don’t think you have anything to worry about. My dad will trust my judgement and there are so many people that would really appreciate your being there.” he said honestly “You’re strong and can take care of yourself, we’d probably ask you for help with things around Alexandria once you’re comfortable but I promise everyone will accept you. They’ll respect that you survived on your own for so long, especially for being so young.” he paused “not that being young is a bad thing- it’s just there have been only a handful of kids and teenagers and young adults survive.” he said sadly. 

“Out of the maybe 10 people close to my age only three are alive. Two babies Grace an Judith and then Enid who lives at another community.” he said softly 

[thewarrioroftheapocalypse]

@one-eye-grimes

There was a strange warm fuzzy feeling that entered her entire body after hearing those compliments coming from Carl's mouth about her being strong and a good ally to everyone at Alexandria, a sensation she has never had in her life since no one has ever been this friendly towards her until she met him, it made her feel really emotional on the inside and a genuine smile stretched across her face, a sparkle shined in her green orbs as she glanced over at him but couldn't find the words to describe how thankful she truly was towards him, 

"I believe that this is a beginning of a lovely friendship..you are the first friend I've made since forever and I promise I'll be there whenever you need me"

she spoke ever so softly to him with a smile that remained on her lips as her eyes lingered on his face for a little longer and kindly took his hand giving it a gentle squeeze that she means every single word before lowering her gaze back down on the fire and taking her hand away.

That was her first touch without even flinching or any signs of discomfort and she will never do anything to betray his trust or their newly found friendship, she wanted it to last. Natalie really wanted to prove to those who caused her so much pain how wrong they are, she's never felt more confident about what she wants in her life that she's determined to rebuild, she's called herself the Warrior ever since the apocalypse begun and she has easily slaughtered many walkers that came her way with her impressive swordship skills with no hesitation or fear that she refuses to feel, she's been training as a fighter for as long as she can remember and she's not afraid of anything, she has never showed any sign of weakness during her time surviving alone.

"It would be really nice to finally be appreciated and respected for once, I want to become someone who's important and isn't worthless, I don't want those to pity me because I'm parentless and what I've been through. I want to prove to those who made my life hell how wrong they are and I have put all of the pain and suffering they caused behind me and became someone who's no longer afraid of anything, I have trained to be a fighter all by myself with no guidance from anyone, I didn't think I needed people in my life because of what they've done to me until I met you, you've been nothing but so kind to me, you changed my view on things and you've managed to repair the damage that's been done to my heart. I am so thankful to you, truly.."

she said to Carl with real emotion coming out of her voice as she gazed over at him smiling with her eyes glossed over in tears and she couldn't stop herself when she went over and gave him a hug, this is her first hug with someone and she's really glad it's Carl, "this is my first hug, so I hope you don't mind.."she laughs as she rests her chin on his shoulder before removing herself from him completely not wanting to make him feel uncomfortable and she hoped that she wasn't too forward, "I'm just really happy and it's all down to you for helping me, so thank you.."she told him still smiling away at him, she wanted them to have a special bond, she feels like she can trust him more than anyone and tell him anything, she didn't want any secrets between them, they've been so open towards each other ever since they met a short time ago.

"We can start moving at first light, it's too dangerous to be going back now and besides..I'm so exhausted" she said to him in a tired voice that was becoming quieter as her eyes began to drop, she was starting to get really tired, she tried to keep her eyes open but she kept nodding off and her grip on her sword loosens as her body decided to shut down from exhaustion and soreness that she's been trying to hide but her fight with that has been lost and she's now totally out of it, the only sound that's heard is the crackling fire and her slow breathing, her chest moving up and down as she slept sitting up.

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He pulled two water bottles from his back pack and handed one to her. “I mean you are allowing me into your camp to stay safe the least I can do if share what I brought with me.” he pulled out two apples and handed her one before taking a small bite. “These are from our community- usually whenever I leave I grab extra just in case I find someone.” he admitted and the nodded in response to her “of course- there’s always risk out here… before we found our community we spent a while on the road after the prison we lived in fell.” he had no idea why he was telling this to the girl but since she was opening up with him he saw it as a mutual trust thing. 

“You know you didn’t deserve the life that was given to you right? You didn’t deserve to be abused and abandoned by people who should have loved and cared for you.” he sighed softly “We have a man in our group who has been through hell since he was born- and he’s finally beginning to get over everything because of the community” He smiled slightly thinking about Daryl. 

“We have a wide variety of people in our groups- some with troubled pasts such as yours and others who have never left the community.” he sighed again and glanced up to her “I’m serious Natalie, if you came with me you would be safe. One of my really good friends is pregnant and about to have her child and she’s safe for the first time in a long time.” he spoke softly staring at the fire. 

“You could survive in a group and be a major asset. Hell, I got shot in the face and survived because of the people I’m with, also we have running hot water…” he said with a slight smirk.

[thewarrioroftheapocalypse]

@one-eye-grimes

Natalie kindly took the water bottle and apple from him with a thankful smile on her lips, "I wouldn't allow anyone in my camp because of trust issues..but for some reason there's something about you. You've been really kind to me, and didn't kill me when you first saw me.."she laughed as she twisted the cap off the bottle and took a drink of the refreshing water that cleared up her very dry throat, she coughed a lot when she took the first sip because it's been a while since she's had anything. Natalie listened to everything he was telling her, she had the look of understanding across her face, she used the water to clean her face entirely. 

Natalie took in his words, she couldn't help but agree that she didn't deserve the life that was given to her before the world fell to pieces, she always told them that but they didn't have the heart to care,

"if only I had someone who cared and loved me..I don't know where to find that. I'm terrified of it actually.."she sighed while taking a bite out of the apple, "what if I'm not accepted by those in your community? what if I become an outcast?..I've been an outcast throughout my life actually. It would be nice to be in a place where I could rebuild my life, I'm just really nervous" she bit down on her bottom lip as a habit when she's nervous about something, her eyes shifted from Carl to the fire as she began to think hard about going back with him to Alexandria, a smile tugged at the corner of her mouth hearing that there's a pregnant woman living safely, "I am really glad for you and your family are in a safe place where you can be happy after everything you've been through"

she said to Carl with a gentle smile on her lips as she looked at him, "I thought surviving alone was a pretty good idea..but by what you’ve told me that there's others like me who've been through a lot and finally found a place to live. I never really wanted to be alone in a world like this, I'm just scared of getting too close to anyone..but after meeting you, it feels really nice to actually have a friend. You are the first person I want to be friends with, if you like that also?" she kept that smile on her face as she lifted her hand to him for a friendship handshake, the smile was replaced with a grin as her green eyes lingered on his face couldn't help but think how badass he looks with the eyepatch,

"You do look pretty badass, I call them battle scars. There's nothing to be ashamed of, it means that you're a warrior and the scars make you stronger, I'm not ashamed of mine and don't let anyone tell you other wise" she told him in a firm determined tone to make them both feel confident about themselves and the scars they carry. Her eyebrows raised and her eyes lit up at the sound of hot running water, she couldn't remember the last time she's had a proper shower and feel clean from head to toe "now that's something I can't turn down at all. You must really want me to come back with you, huh?"she laughed as she drank a bit more of the water before nodding her head to give him the answer he might want to hear,  this is the first time she's ever wanted to be in a safe community full of people, she needed to face her fears at some point.

"Alright I accept, I'll come back with you. Let's hope I'll make a good impression though, it will be my first time and I won't deny that I am nervous about it. Do you think I'll fit in well?" she asked him wanting to know his thoughts about her joining his community.