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im scared to open up to you, because i know how ugly i am on the inside, how messed up i am, how revolting i am. and when the day comes when i tell you everything i’ve held inside, every thought i’ve ever had, every ugly, selfish, destructing emotion i’ve bottled up, i’m scared you’ll leave. i know i would. 

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i hate when you say you’re always here for me, because i know you’re not. we all have our own lives to lead, after all. 

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sometimes i feel like i have so much love to give i could burst

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i know you’re important to me. you’re so important that it makes me scared. we’ve only known each other for a few months and you already mean the world to me, i wouldn’t want to be in another universe where i never meet you. so important that i wouldn’t know what to do if you find someone better and decide to leave. so important that i can’t remember life being better before you. it scares me so much, i can’t help but pull away and distance myself before you hurt me, because i know you’ll break me in so many ways i’ve never been broken before, and i don’t want to go through that pain.

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i dont know if i like you.

i dont know if i like you. like, like *like* you. most of the times we’re just friends, besties, even. i’d throw random pick up lines at you and you’d sus me out, as per usual, all in good fun. i do this with everyone - the random pick up lines - but with you, something feels different. perhaps i do mean it when i say you’ve been running around my mind all day, when i say i miss you already when it’s only been a day apart. your presence is ever so comforting, it almost feels like home, and every second spent with you, whether we’re doing something or nothing, is worth it. all i know is you’re someone important. others may pat my head, engulf me in hugs, or lazily play with my fingers and all i think about is how i wish they were you instead. sometimes it feels like maybe, just maybe, you like me too, with the way your fingers cautiously reach out to pat my head, only to gingerly brush my hair and withdraw after a moment’s hesitation, the way you say you wish to hang out with me and watch sunsets, the way you say you want to ‘claim’ me back, the way you look at me with all the joy in your eyes. but then you pull back, putting distance between us again with the damn word, ‘bestie’, leaving me waiting hours for your reply, watching you hang out with someone else and seem so happy without me, leaving me to question everything. maybe it’s just all in my head, maybe i just needed someone to like, and that someone is unfortunately, you. maybe i just like the idea of you, and not you. i dont know. i dont know if i like you.

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i scrolled through your profile today, the one only known to your closest friends, the one you let me in when you decided that you trusted me enough. i scrolled through posts from two months back, to two years back. it was weird seeing a totally different side of you i’ve never seen before and guiltily, i found so many flaws in you that i dont know what to do. could you have changed, or are these spiteful words still a part of you? 

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watch the stars with me. watch the moon with me. watch the sun rise and the sun set with me. watch people walk past with me. watch cars drive by with me. listen to music with me. go on walks with me. talk to me, chill with me, laugh with me. hell, i want to do everything with you, and yet nothing at all. i just want to be with you, and you only.

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panicking about doing nothing but still doing nothing and panicking that im not doing anything but continuing to not do anything and then panicking because im not doing anything but still not gonna do anything about me not doing anything so i continue to panic

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watching my mum laugh so much at a tiny joke just warms my heart

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it's amazing how we've come to a point where we can resonate with inanimate objects even though they have no resemblance to us

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thoughts that sprout from debate preparation

So i was preparing for the mini debate that will take place in class tomorrow on the statement that it is impossible to protect the environment especially with so many countries using so much energy (i’m on opposition) and my brain just went on a whole tangent and so now i have a whole paragraph of philosophy I’m kind of curious as to what you guys think of it, I hope you can share some of your views ! ^^ it’s kind of long lol

Viewing this question in a more philosophical manner, us humans protecting the environment is just our selfish way of ensuring the human species continues living on because nature can survive just as well without and if not better without us polluting the earth. our definition of protection is to sustain the liveability of the environment for mainly our human species, placing us as the first priority. The only reason we think it's impossible to protect the env is because it will be endangering us as humans. However, if we take a step back and view the environment as a whole without placing our survival as a priority, you will realise that nature and the environment will continue living even with us gone as the liveability of the earth is subjective to each species. It is always possible to protect the environment because it will never die out. Nature will always reset and find a way to survive by itself, it’s only just a matter of time, kinda like a cleansing. And you may be like oh, but how about the animal species? The extinction of a species or an entire population is just part of the circle of life. It can also be argued that the issue of climate change causes too many extreme and fast changes in the environment that it is hard for species to adapt and die out. Take into consideration the wipeout of all dinosaurs which was definitely unanticipated. Though it may seem that every species was wiped out, do remember that life starts out with the tiniest of organisms. The moment a single cell or organism survives, life will start all over again. Now you may counter, how do you know for sure that something will survive after all the destruction on earth? If no organism survives, wouldn't it be impossible? While I don't have a definite answer for that, but it is the exact ambiguity of life that makes it equally as possible for the environment to continue thriving even after destruction. The environment can always be protected, or rather, it protects itself. Even so, if earth itself is really destroyed and blown into a million unrecoverable pieces, who says that our environment is only limited to Earth? The environment consists of everything around us, outer space included. Just because our species and our home planet is wiped out doesn’t mean that the entire universe will come crashing down.